nobody’s baby, everybody’s girl

I could get over anything as long as I have something new to be obsessed with

take a flight. become half daughter. fall in something that is like love but decidedly not. change your mind. change your friends. wait for the 17 year old version of yourself to come back to life. keep waiting. throw her a funeral. keep the guestlist short. only invite the dead. ruin your own birthday. keep them at a distance. keep the pictures under the bed. travel and arrive at the truth that you’re somewhere even you can’t find. sit in the backseat of the car like you did when you were younger. look for the familiar trees. they are still alive somewhere. it’s you who arrived in the wrong place.

What’s meant for me will always find it’s way to me. I love being the prize. I am the source of boundless joy & I deserve everything I desire.

lower barriers for yourself by no longer being so careful that you’re only willing to accept success. stumble your way through, take wrong turns, try something just for the sake of it, forget about the end result for just a minute. you can plan every second of your life, but the spontaneous and unintentional moments often help you find perspectives and adventures you’ve been missing. maybe you’ll stop being bored with reality when you stop tightening your grip around everything that happens and let yourself be surprised.