everytime i want something i should be shot in the head

everyone loves to think of suicidality as this dramatic emergency, but for the chronically suicidal, it just... isn't. it's a regular, often daily part of life. how would you feel if you were told you're not allowed to talk about or mention something that for you is just another tuesday? it'd be pretty frustrating, right?

there is something within me that i would like removed

i bet it feels good as fuck to intend to do something and then actually do it

anyways all I’ve done in the past 5yrs is ruin my life further each passing month

when the only thought that brings relief is leaving everything behind

a lot of things get on my nerves. im constantly annoyed. and i also have a deep love of humanity and the world but everything is really annoying

Being chronically ill in your 20s is stupid you have to see your peers like “started a family🥰” “got married😍” “bought a house😇” “scored a promotion😋” meanwhile you’re fighting for your life to take a shower