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@dreamy-mess
Sitting at the kitchen table with your parents.
Just chatting, something that is already hard enough without it turning into an argument.
Taking a deep breath to finally say it. To finally come out to them.
Exhaling without saying a word.
Why is this so hardâŚ
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Currently thinking about 10.000 different versions of coming out to my sister and all of them end badly.
Having anxiety and panic attacks but also POTs means having a real fun time not only once but twice. /sarcasm
You recover from your anxieyt/panic attack and the crashing again cause the POTs also raises a hand.
Being in recovery or on a healing path means standing up in the morning despite your brain screaming at you to just keep on laying there. Rotting. It means (trying to) eating and drinking enough despite your brain screaming âwhy?!â and âyou really deserve that?!â. It means doing daily tasks, small, big, despite your brain screaming that you dont have the energy, that you just want to run away.
Being in recovery or on a healing path means your brain is constantly screaming for validation. It means constantly working against it. It mean looking fine on the outside and hellfire on the inside. It mean seeking validation for something you so badly try to hide.
Why is feeling alone such an intense emotion? It feels like my heart is being ripped out and squeezed tightly. It hurts so much. It drains out all my energy. Im sinking to the floor like a puddle of water. Unable to get up. Unable to see that there are actually ppl that care about me, theyre just out of reach right now. Not because they donât like me but just simply cause they have their own life, their own things going on.
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âOh hey why did you do it that way?? You dont need to do it that way. You can do it in this way! So why did you do it that way?? Go change it.
Oh i dont know⌠maybr cause you didnt answer my question?? You know that one (1) very simple question i asked in a very short trxt?? Jesus christ why is it so hard to answer one fucking question??!
Oh right. Yeah i can change it no problem :)
âTry to be social. Itâll do you good.â
Haha jokes on you. My friends havent texted in days. Havent answered when I reached out. The only texts Iâm getting are work things. So why should I even bother? Not even my fucking boyfriends is able to sent me a âgood morningâ. 2 fucking words. Maybe a heart after. Takes you 10 seconds max. And its not even that Ive sent a million texts during the night and he didnât had the time and capacities to read them in the morning. Nop nothing. From anybody. So tell me, why should i even bother? Why should i try? Getting my hopes up for nothing? I feel like Iâm the only one trying here.
I know you have a lot going on yourself. And I know you cant focus your entire energy and emotinal capacities at me. But when was the last time you asked me how my day was? How Im feeling? I feel like I have to do all the talking all the time and if I dont text our chat would be blank the entire day. Maybe longer but I pressed you into saying good night and good morning at least. feel so fucking left alone here. Im craving attention and emotions from you and its like im reading a blank book all the time. Im so hurt and fucked up by this. I know our relationship is important to you. I know it. But do you even have the capacities for it?? Cant even give me 5% of fucking anything. Feels like im begging for it again. Walking on eggshells to not disturbe any good mood or scared to waken any bad one. Fuck this fuck this fuck this.
When you wake up out of a maladaptive daydream and realize 4 hours have passed and you feel so out of touch with reality
Thought i was better now
Words donât make sense
Everything feels wrong and off
Hey so mh i actually need help here-
âAh yes Im sure you manage. Just tell me when youâre done. Youâre always so good at those thingsâ
YeahâŚcause I always had to. Cause nobody listened when I actually needed help. So I never actually learned how to ask for help. And youâre exactly proving my point here. SureâŚi manageâŚjust dont be surprised when I crash. And donât you dare to ask me why I didnât ask for help then.
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Maybe I donât really have bpd.
Maybe I donât actually need my meds.
Maybe everything is just an act.
i feel so lost. so out of breath. trying to fit in somewhere somehow but it seems like it'll never be possible.
There are no heroes. The only person who can save you is yourself.
I'm at that point in therapy where my head is screaming for pain. screaming screaming screaming. but i know i actually don't want this. i don't want to feel the pain. i don't want to take care of it afterwards. i know it's just about being in control. but now I'm just frozen on the sofa. head screaming, spiralling, feeling dizzy, full of itself. it's an itch i don't want to scratch but it keeps itching.
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âur so quietâ thanks i do not want to talk to you
