Second Star to the Right...or was it Left?

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Wow just read my last entry and predictions are reality. It happened. It crashed and it burned. It's hard for me to accept that all he wanted was sex and companionship when it meant so much more to me. He's not a bad guy, just selfish and a bit of an ahole. He feels bad so he's a good egg overall. However it sucks because now we live together and I feel trapped. It's making it so hard to get over it. I see him and I miss him. And it kills me when he doesn't miss me. It hurts. I wish it didn't and I could be cold and uncaring. I know I need to distract myself so getting back into my health and fit blogging as my distraction for a while. At least I'm moving, ugh but why is it so hard?

I think I’m attracted to my future roommate...even though he has a girl friend, and obviously is going to be my roommate in september! He is really nice, we have great chemistry, and even though he’s not my typical type, he is similar type to my last and only serious boyfriend of two years. I don’t know why, but it bothers me. I would never even entertain doing anything with him because well roommate...but maybe that’s what’s attractive? The fact that I can’t have him? Also it’s weird now because we don’t live together yet. I need to stop because that would cause a lot of problems. Also he doesn’t like me necessarily. So this could be one sided and completely embarrassing! If this even potentially happened, then what? We’d be living with two other people in a four bedroom apartment? How weird would that be? Also not to mention if anything went wrong, it would be horrible! Ah I got to stop! I need to focus on my now job, my now diet, and my now friends!