Just A Random Guy On the Internet.

I just ended the 6 years long relationship which I thought was the love of my fking life. I don't want to repeat this endless cycles of break up, stay friend but don't date other. She never cared about me from the start so it will never matter anyway. I was there for her when she was the at lowest of the low. But yet quickly changed when things between us. I give multiple chances, I put so much fking effort that will kill someone who is in actual good relationships. Yet she never cared. She always dismisses my feelings, talk shit about acting she doesn't really care about anything. She never trusted me. Even knowing that I still care for her, worry about her when things get tough. Stay by her side. Only to treat me like shit. Making a fool. I don't wanna leave her but I can't repeat the cycle. It is slowly killing me, making me insane. This time, I give up. If she doesn't want me, I'm gonna leave this. I made my choice. I set my mind. No turning back. No looking back to when times were happy between us. I did enough. I am enough. My patience, my tolerance are run out to care about her. I don't fking care if she wanna kill herself. I'm gonna feel like shit but i will be fine one day. It will be fine.