Trying to explain your anxiety/mental state to someone is just so incredibly difficult. No one knows what you really feel, how you see things & understand what goes on in your head. Some people choose to completely ignore & dismiss it. Think it's silly and you can just 'cheer up, snap out of it' but it's so much more complex than that. You can be happy, everything is fine, someone can say something that is completely normal to anyone else but then a light switch flips inside of you & suddenly you have the overwhelming wave of worry, panic, sadness and your self esteem has gone just like that, you feel nothing but worthless and question everything. You're so nervous. It's so easy to snap into it but incredibly difficult to snap out of. Your brain will spin out of control, like a roulette wheel, go through every worst possible thing you can think of from death, illness, love, your self worth. It will pick one then convince you that it's real. 'You've never been good enough, you never will', 'that person spoke differently to you than usual, they must hate you now', etc. Sometimes you just feel anxious for no reason at all or things that don't even make sense. The more you listen to those voices in your head, the more you believe them. The more you spiral down that dark tunnel.. it gets to a point where you can no longer see the light. No matter what good things you try to think about, they're nothing in comparison to the fear and ache you feel inside of you. You can't sleep, eat, do anything apart from question yourself, shake, cry, you're not yourself, you feel empty. It's an unreal state of mind and it's so mentally and physically exhausting. You fight with yourself everyday. Mental health isn't a joke, it isn't just something people make up. It's a real illness & its life consuming. They're not being stupid or irrational. Don't judge us, we need your positivity, not negativity. Be there for us, the ear to hear, the arms who hold us tight.
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