Rambling

There's something so weird about not knowing certain parts of yourself. I'm me but who am I?

I've been getting more emotional lately, and I don't know if it's because I'm just consuming the specific media that hits me. Or if I had an emotional blockage that I'm just now escaping from & now I have to learn how to process sad emotions

I don't usually follow the world Cup but this year I might but my favorite thing is seeing foreigner go to Mexico & partying like crazy those are my people! Also on the other hand other foreigners going to the us and eating food they've never had before is so fun to see ☺️ as a Mexican-american it's nice to see people just having fun, if only for a little bit.

I think having borderline abusive/traumatic experiences is a special type of hell for people that invalidate themselves (me)

What flavor of touch starved is it when you have people who don't mind you touching/hugging them but you still feel touch-starved because you're the one who's initiated it every time.

I think I've been on the cusp of an emotional breakdown for the past 5 years but I keep pushing it back like a windows update, but I'm feeling like the threshold is close but I'm just gonna ignore it

I know what the minecraft poem is, but I don't think I have enough life experience to fully apreciate it yet.