its still a reoccurring thought of mine that if i killed someone i dont know if id feel anything , and when i was into learning about serial killers they almost always had the same childhood, same mental problems, same asociality, similar memories even. everything as me. i feel, shamefully, connected to some of these people. maybe i am depraved and devoid of humanity
i fear that one day something may happen and i want everyone in my life to just leave me for this reason and just in general , its how it should be














