the divine goddess

But then it hit me.

The ways it feels

The ways it smells

The roughness and softness together

The way it looks

I miss his skin on mine

It was always my favorite

That closeness

That connection that skin touching brought

I crave it now more than ever

grief and growth live hand in hand

Soft tiny drops dripping on to the pillow

I hear tear drops that rain

For all the times I was left alone

For all the times someone else was chosen first

For all the times his hands touched me in ways that weren't soft and loving

I hear tear drops

I hear tear drops of hellfire and fury

Waves of bombs and screams and carnage

I hear tear drops that rain

For all the times I begged to be seen and still wasn't

For all the times I made all the plans

For all the times I begged to be shown off and was still hidden

I hear tear drops

Softly falling

I hear tear drops, the symphony of a broken heart

For all the future left unlived

For all the what could have been

I hear tear drops

Soft tiny drops dripping on to the pillow

For all the nights I lie alone, wishing you were here