this elegy would love to save everything

we’re in the er with my grandpa rn. they think he’s dying. please pray for all of us

hes still around, he actuallg perked up a lot after they took him off the respirator. hes been able to yap quite a lot and eat and also do some singing. thank u everyone for praying. theyre thinking they will take him home for hospice care tomorrow.

yesterday i had a nice southern teenager call me "ma'am" and then look at me and go, in a well-meaning tone, "uhhhh, if you go by ma'am. sorry if not." and i had to be like yeah man ma'am is fine. appreciate you being inclusive though. i could almost see the little warning pop up in his UI-- hold up! people with blue hair often have pronouns. are you sure you want to address this individual with a gendered term?

Let the historical record show that Mr. Beast was entirely ignorable if you were just like doing literally anything else. I've been on youtube as long as it's been around and I've never been recommended a video by him. I see him in passing as a meme. I thought he was a made up joke, a caricature of bad youtuber content miners until someone I trust confirmed his existence to me in late 2025.

riding the highest horse you’ve ever seen back to my glass house

impressive! it's ugly, impractical, gets water everywhere, makes too much noise, and the quote with shit kerning and a worse typeface says you don't think music is even real

In folk music men are always dying in industrial accidents and women are always haunting stuff. What if a woman dies in an industrial accident and a man walks these hills in a long black veil. What then

everyone in the grocery store is my enemy

new chess piece called the jester which can move anywhere on the board but can't capture anything. it just gets in the way to annoy your opponent

I'm playing correspondence chess with my brother and don't feel like making a move tonight but wanted to make sure I did it tomorrow, so I wrote "move against brother" in my TODO list before realizing that sounds kind of insane.

#AncientPrinceProblems

the problem is i really do love staying up until one billion o'clock. it just cant be helped

One thing that worries me about the use of AI is whether or not it can worsen people's dementia and alzheimer's in the future. When my grandmother was first diagnosed, we got her math activity books. Now, my grandmother never had a formal education, but we did our best to keep her sharp, get her to do math and writing activity books, sudokus, playing board games that required some level of strategizing with her. Her family is prone to alzheimer's and dementia (both her siblings had it and deteriorated very very very quickly, which yeah, scares the shit out of me being her granddaughter) but she was the one whose mind lasted the longest, she only passed away two years ago, at 88, ten whole years after her initial diagnosis and sure, she had forgotten things, recipes and where she put her glasses and appointments, but she never forgot any of us, ten whole years in, she still remembered us. Now, this may have been luck, but doctors always said the constant mental work + companionship + medicine helped her a lot. So I'm thinking, these people who are now relying on AI for everything, from email-writing to thinking what's for dinner to casual conversations, I've even seen people rely on it to calculate what time they should leave their house if they need to be at a place at a specific time and their commute lasts X number of minutes. As if that's not... the simplest math operation possible? You shouldn't even need a calculator for that!!! Idk I don't know how long it'll take us to see the effects of this + exposure to brain-rotting short form content that is completely meaningless + people addicted to right-wing conspiracy style media. Idk I'm very worried. Please, read, read complicated books! Take up a book on philosophy and try to decipher it and make your own opinions on it, please buy a maths activity book and relearn how to do math, please get a hobby that involves lots of thinking and concentrating. PLEASE!!!

bro last night was magical. last night was enchanted. last night was bewitched. last night was cursed and hexed. last night was posessed. bro can you remember what we did last night? bro?