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I’ve purged over 3x today and my throat hurts like hell

I recently was forced to tell my therapist about my suicidal thoughts and depression, which yes is a good thing but at the same time it wasn’t because once I told her she told my dad that I should be taken to the ER to get an evaluation, which lead to me being sent to in patient care. I hated it and I think it only made my depression worse, but on the bright side I lost the 5 pounds that I keep gaining and losing.

I’m not really insecure about my old SH marks, but my some of family and my therapist keep bringing it up which is now making me look at them differently.

Sometimes I really wished my mother loved me or at least was around, even though I act like it doesn’t bother me it does because Ik I’ll never experience the things others around me have.

I js left the worst party of all time and I ate like shit all day. Im about to pop some lax, hit my pen, and go to sleep.🤷🏾‍♀️