Eat Jesus

I know you're feeling down lately so lemme finally make an attempt to turn my feelings and thoughts into words 💙 I never really thought I could love you any more than I did the day I fell for you. Boy was I wrong (as I often am). I never expected to have someone so genuinely kind, loving, caring, and understanding by my side. You think that you add nothing to the world around you, but to me you make any hardships we face, and every day in general so very much worth it. It's worth it because you're right here by my side, and we face it together.

Whenever my anxiety acts up, or I'm not sure that I can actually succeed at something, all I have to do is look right beside me. Your hand in mine feels like Poseidon calming the stormy sea. You feel safe, and just right, and like home. You continue to make life feel bearable, and know just how to pick me up when depression is beating me down.

I can't even express how grateful I am to have you right here with me, so I will try to keep showing it instead. I really wish you could see what I see, so that you didn't feel like you have to be so hard on yourself all the time. You're everything I never even could've dreamt of, and so much more. My loving, handsome little angel. My literal godsent.

I love you entirely and unconditionally, always. Your eyes, your smile and laugh. Your voice and touch, the soft kisses. The way your eyelashes look when you're asleep or resting, and the scar on your eyelid. The way you look when you're driving, so confident and relaxed. The way you let me pull you onto me (after some convincing) when you cry. The freckles on your fingers. I'd list more, but it'd be better kept between just the two of us.

I adore every single part pf you, honey. Inside and out. Sometimes moments pass me by and I only stop to think about them after. I can't quite describe how exactly you make me feel, to be honest. "The luckiest man alive", "love you so much it's gonna make me cry", and "my biggest wish come true" don't even come close to it. I just know that I never, ever want to lose you.

If there was a better reality I could take you to, I would in a heartbeat. I'm terrified of the day I'd lose you, and would fight the Gods myself to keep that day far, far away. I wish we could pick a good day and live it forever, both of us untouched by time or pain. I hope to have many more years with you, my love. We will keep getting through hardships together, and we will find our happy place. We have so many stories left to write 💛 Thank you for being my true soulmate, and for showing me that love really can be unconditional. You never fail to make me feel loved and like I'll never be alone again.