DayDreamer .

I have a new schedule now that we moved. Before, Dillon would drive Amara to daycare and then pick her up. Now that we’re closer, Amara and I walk to daycare and then I walk to work then either Dillon or myself pick her up. It’s very convenient but I find that my anxiety starts to flare when I’m heading out the door. Making sure I have everything I need and making sure Amara is content. Some days…

April 23rd 2015

The sun was shining on a cool spring afternoon and miss Amara Arielle Fellows was born. 7 pounds 7 ounces. Mama Des was overjoyed. Her baby was finally here. A baby girl with a whole lot of hair! Wow.

I was in labour for 5 and half hours, got through a couple hours of labour without the epidural but I almost passed out so they made me take it. The thing is, the contractions and…

Men: You are enough

There is this stereotype that men need to be tough and brave and are not allowed to show any emotion. They have to provide for the family, work two jobs and drive a nice car. Men need to be confident at all times. If they show any type of doubt they are automatically a “pussy” or a “punk”. I am guilty of thinking those horrible things about men when I find them to be the inferior type. We all do…

How do you season your chicken? I just feel like salt and pepper and not washing your chicken with vinegar tells a lot about a person. I’m not the best cook, but over the years I’ve learned a thing or two about flavour. Cooking is really about taking chances. (My husband is really good at that. I’m more practical). All I need is for my food to taste good and I’m happy. The other day someone…

It’s interesting how us as black people have different ways of interacting with different ethnic groups. Of course all races do this but from my experience we have to put in that extra amount of effort when we are trying to be accepted in society. When we are with our own, we’re comfortable, we can laugh and talk and just be happy enjoying each others’ company. Sometimes we have those friends who…

Mental health vs. West Indian Culture.

*Takes deep breath* I was diagnosed with depression in 2010. When I was told I said to myself, I guess I’ve been depressed since I was a child because I’ve always felt this way.  I spent a lot of time alone because I wasn’t sure how to deal with it. I excluded myself from family outings and activities and just decided I wanted to figure this out on my own. I don’t think my parents understood what…

We roll in 3. Me my husband and my daughter. Dillon and I have been together for 7 years, and just got married last year in August. Our daughter Amara is going to be 3 this month. I am 26 years old. Sometimes when I mention “My daughter” or “My husband” people give me weird looks. Sometimes they’ll make a comment or other times they won’t say anything at all. I like to observe these reactions. I…

Today was a pure chaos in my world. I was supposed to wake up at 8 and instead I woke up at 10:30. Couldn’t move my neck….at all, crazy headache and worst of all, I had to leave the house by 11:45 and needed to eat breakfast and lunch at the same time. I started to stretch, and then I gave up. I looked outside and realized how gloomy and depressing it looked and my mood corresponded with it.…

Hello everyone! My name is Desree Fellows. I used to have a blog called Deslove but decided to get rid of it. I thought i needed a change. I promise to stay consistent and keep you up to date! This blog will be about my life! Fitness, hair, parenting, marriage, cooking and anything else that peeks my interest, I will post it! Stay tuned!