Diabolical

⟢ "I don't know how to do this. I just know I'm not ready for it to be over."

⟢ "I'm not here to win. I'm here because I miss you and I'm tired of pretending I don't."

⟢ "Tell me what I have to do. I'll do it. Just tell me there's still something left."

⟢ "I know I don't deserve another chance. I'm asking anyway."

⟢ "I've rehearsed this a hundred times and I still don't know what to say."

⟢ "Can we just sit here for a minute. We don't have to talk. I just want to be near you."

⟢ "I'm not asking you to forget. I'm asking you to let me try to be better."

⟢ "I kept your number in my phone even when I told myself I'd deleted it."

⟢ "You have every right to shut the door in my face. I just hope you won't."

⟢ "I know things can't go back to what they were. I'd settle for something new."

⟢ "I've been so angry at you. And I've missed you every single day at the same time."

⟢ "Whatever you need from me right now, I'll give it. Even if that's distance."

⟢ "I stopped blaming you a long time ago. I just didn't know how to tell you."

⟢ "I'm not the same person who left. I need you to know that."

⟢ "Say something. Say anything. Just don't tell me it's too late."

⟢ "I know sorry isn't enough. I'm going to spend as long as it takes proving I understand that."

⟢ "I drove past your place three times before I finally stopped. I almost didn't."

⟢ "I'm not asking for everything back. I'm asking for a place to start."

⟢ "You were right. About all of it. I hate that it took me this long to admit that."

⟢ "I don't want to keep being the reason you look sad. Help me stop being that."

⟢ "If you tell me to walk away I will. But I needed you to see me here first."

⟢ "I thought giving you space meant staying away. I think I confused space with abandonment."

⟢ "I never stopped loving you. Even when I acted like I had."

⟢ "You said you needed time. I'm not here to rush you. I just wanted you to know I'm still here."

not my tweet or my fic (and there’s a good chance of this comment being a bot) but yeah, don’t do this. sure, some writers wouldn’t mind having fanfics (or direct continuation) of their fanfics written by someone else. some may even be thrilled and happy. but the fandom etiquette is that if you want to write a fanfic or a continuation of someone’s fanfic, YOU POLITELY ASK THE WRITER FOR THEIR PERMISSION. not their readers.

⭑𓂃 they don't just lie there peacefully staring at the ceiling. okay, sometimes they do, but mostly they're shifting positions every four minutes, flipping the pillow to the cold side, kicking off blankets then pulling them back on, checking the clock and doing the math of "if I fall asleep RIGHT NOW I can get 4 hours" over and over until it's 3 hours, then 2, then none.

⭑𓂃 they have weird relationships with being tired. like, they're ALWAYS tired, but they're also wired? it's this horrible combo of exhausted body and brain that won't shut up. your character isn't just yawning cutely, they're getting irrationally angry at small things, forgetting words mid-sentence, staring at their phone for twenty minutes without reading a single thing.

⭑𓂃 the 3am thoughts are SPECIFIC and often stupid. they're not just pondering deep existential questions. they're thinking "did I say 'you too' when the barista said enjoy your coffee" and "what if everyone I know is just pretending to like me" and "why did I say that thing in 7th grade" and "I should learn to play the accordion" all at once in a horrible loop.

⭑𓂃 they try SO MANY weird things to sleep. your character has definitely tried: counting backwards from 1000, progressive muscle relaxation, that 4-7-8 breathing thing, ASMR videos, white noise, brown noise, pink noise, nature sounds, meditation apps with people whose calm voices they grew to HATE, reading boring books, warm milk (doesn't work), cold rooms, hot rooms, no screens (impossible), melatonin (hits different for everyone), Benadryl, and eventually just accepting their fate at 5am.

⭑𓂃 everything is louder at night. that refrigerator hum? DEAFENING. the house settling? TERRIFYING. neighbor's cat? MIGHT AS WELL BE A FULL ORCHESTRA. your character is hyper-aware of every single sound and it's driving them absolutely insane.

⭑𓂃 they have complex feelings about morning people. your insomniac character hearing someone say "I'm such a morning person, I just pop right up at 6am!" is experiencing homicidal levels of jealousy. they don't trust people who wake up cheerful. it feels like a personal attack.