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The night of November 5th I could have been shot or stabbed and not noticed until much later when it’s a dramatic reveal like in those movies where the character thinks they got out unscathed but then stops and presses a hand to their stomach that comes away wet with blood, and then collapses. the adrenaline would have saved me I could have been stabbed and kept going

thinking about the months leading up to despair especially after we got that first snippet of the confession in that trailer....like that so specific feeling of "no. no they won't they won't.......but what if........? no they won't do it there's no way.......but what else could it be??" like we talk all the time about despair inventing new emotions and like so true but i think the pre-despair atmosphere itself was like. completely unparalleled.

nobody outside of us will ever understand or know what happened to us…what they did to us

They literally aired that. On live tv. I watched it on my own television screen. I have never and will never be the same. Destiel changed me.

It's the fact that destiel happened during covid that makes it such an unrepeatable experience. most people already slightly losing the plot after a year in lockdown in their homes, nothing to do except destiel. everyone experiencing actual physical Symptoms and spiralling further and further into mass mania together. unparalleled

cannot believe this is the destiel website sometimes. we’ve forgotten our roots. eddie diaz says i’m straight out loud and proceeds to risky business dance out the closet and it doesn’t matter to you? because he said with his mouth i’m straight?? have we learned nothing from dean winchester???