Breathing Through Unwanted Lungs

i'm such a "no no, it's okay" person with tears in eyes

I desperately want to talk to someone about everything but I really don't want to talk to anyone about anything

I saw a post that said “I wasn’t myself for months and nobody noticed” I felt that.

I’ve mastered the skill of feeling guilty for asking for anything

tbh i never deal with my emotions i just let them ravage my body and then i go to bed and then i wake up and do it all over again

i don’t know how to ask for help i disappear and come back when i’m good

My depression has gotten to the point where I don’t even want anything anymore. I don’t care if it gets better. I don’t want to fall in love anymore. I don’t want to go to college. I don’t want to travel or shop or have fun. I just want it all to stop. It’s too much I feel like I can’t breathe. I’m so lonely, my friends don’t care. I just want to stop existing. I think I’m going crazy. when did I become invisible? when did it all get so grey?

i’m sorry i’m sad a lot it just gets really hard to be alive all the time

i wish i could be the person i want to be but im too tired

*hits rock bottom once a week*