ShatteredHeart

“Immediate replies turned to you taking hours, hours turned to you taking days. Until one day there was no reply at all.”

“People who feel deeply, shouldn’t be allowed to develop feelings.”

“when you left there was a lot of rain. And I don’t mean just outside, I mean everything was just very gloomy and dark. I remember there was a lot of tears and not just regular tears.. there was sitting on the bathroom floor tears, breaking down at our favorite makeout parking place tears, crying in the shower tears, having a panic attack the first time I saw you since we said goodbye tears. just a lot of tears. It was the type of pain that I always felt, it was just always there, my heart just felt so damn empty all the time. everything hurt more without you & I couldn’t stand the intensity of my feelings and the lack of yours… I just couldn’t believe how one-sided things could be. I’ve been trying to distract myself from all this pain but it always comes back to you. I will never not wish that things could have worked out between us. I wish we could have been more, I so badly wish things could have been different with us. but they aren’t and I have to wake up every morning knowing that.”

“Perhaps the saddest thing of all, Is that for so long, I’ve been jumping from one lover to another, thinking, hoping beyond hope, that someone would help me put all the broken pieces of my heart back together, but the truth is, a new lover can’t fix what someone else broke a new lover can’t heal the heart someone else hurt, the only person who can fix it, is me”

“Please don’t. Please don’t look at me with those eyes. Please don’t smile at me every time we see each other again. Please don’t laugh at everything I say. Please don’t hug me so tightly. Please don’t make me think you have feelings for me.”

“‪I’ve been to this place before. I’ve felt this pain before. I know because the cracks on the walls of this black hole feel all too familiar. Why does it hurt more though? Shouldn’t it hurt less as I’ve experienced it before? Why haven’t I grown a tolerance for this pain? Why haven’t I learned anything? How did I end up here again ‬”

"You smelled like addiction, remorse and heartbreak. How could I have ever stopped myself."

“Perhaps the saddest thing of all, Is just as Arthur Miller once wrote; “though I may think of you softly from time to time, I’d cut off my own hand before I reach for you again.””

“Perhaps the Saddest Thing of All, is that losing you, was like finally facing an addiction. Your smile was my liquor, your words were like my cocaine, and you embrace was like a shot of morphine. But the fact that you’re gone, means that I’m finally getting better.”

“Perhaps the saddest thing of all, is maybe you didn’t really hurt me by leaving. Maybe you protected me the only way you knew how, because I would have taken whatever you gave me. So you left, and you protected me from myself”

Some day I'll probably love other women — or maybe there'll never be anything but you.

"I never stopped loving him." she said. "I just started not showing it, ever since he told me that he's leaving."