Born to shit, forced to wipe

#phm#‘i like to keep a wall up in my relationships’ well other people would like you not to. so how about that.#admittedly i do think we’re supposed to read movie!grace as much more of a loner#(there’s a bunch of little moments like his lonely polaroid and his awkwardness in the karaoke scene that imo are meant to reinforce this)#and that’s the characterisation i prefer to lean on in fics because it suits my purposes#plus if you're writing in first person it's in character for him to *say* he doesn't have a lot of friends#but i also see posts that imply that he’s like. bursting with love and ready to reach out and make friends and form meaningful connections#and that nobody ever met him with that same energy in return before rocky?#and that’s just straight up not true?#other people clearly like grace and want him around and make an effort to reach out to him#it’s just that he only wants to let people in a certain amount and no further.#he likes his boundaries! he likes his clearly defined and fairly superficial relationships!#he describes himself as ‘not a people person’#the distance that exists between him and other people and the reason why he feels alone is largely his doing i'm afraid!#because he is. say it with me guys. a coward.#he's risk averse and scared of getting hurt or being vulnerable and that extends to his interpersonal relationships <3#he reaches out as much as he's comfortable and then scares himself off and retreats!

#like for real. as a guy who has semi frequent spirals about being lonely. and who has also been meaning to message back#their best friend for. checks dates. over a week.#sometimes the problem is you!!!#my hottest phm take is rocky is absolutely not the first person grace has met who he Clicked with#rocky is the first person grace clicked with that he has been forced into inescapable close proximity with#like yes they do have one thing in common that is entirely unique to the two of them#but earth is not hurting for mean sarcastic autistics. grace did a STEM DEGREE.#and then also like. if we contrast rocky and stratt.....#stratt is also holding grace at arm's length. it's mutual#it's not good for either of them. and again it's partly circumstance#they can't be close the whole world is at stake. what a lovely convenient excuse#whereas rocky and grace can't not be close

rimworld pawn backstory type A: this character grew up on a ranch, and learned to care for animals :)

Rimworld's constant dedication to emotional regulation is very ridiculous, but i also have never seen a more realistic game system for simulating emotional states, even if it is just a simple number that indicates good mood or bad mood. On one hand that speaks to how hard it is to simulate and gamify emotions, but it also shows how ridiculous humans are in real life.

I cannot describe how much I laughed at this.