Anoniem

“I put my heart out for you to protect, and you stabbed it to death”

"How did you feel about being betrayed by him?"

"Ne kadar uzağız şimdi birbirimize Sanki öldük, aramıza Varlığın yabancı yüzü girdi."

"Ölümden kaçmak zor değildir; ancak kötülükten kaçmak zordur. Çünkü kötülük ölümden daha hızlı koşar.”

The moment of betrayal is the worst, the moment when you know beyond any doubt that you've been betrayed: that some other human being has wished you that much evil.

"Kimseye acı vermemek için kırk yerinden kırılan inceliğim."

“hayat ne tuhaftı,bize zarar veren şeyler,aynı zamanda huzur bulduğumuz tek şey olabiliyordu.”

“I loved him, He took all the stars from my sky, but I loved him even more, he made home feel like hell, I still loved him, he never wondered what’s wrong with me and why I’m sad, but it was okay, I got used to it, I loved him, his words made me feel loved and his actions could make my heart cry, but with him I could touch the universe, he made me feel so alive, until he made me want to die, being with him was delightful at first, then it got agonizing. I loved him, but I don’t anymore.”

Sick

07.12.17

“I’ve spent the better part of my twenty three years running away from the things that hurt. I figured that if I got far away enough, the ache wouldn’t find me. I was wrong. Nobody told me that you can’t outrun your own heart. Today was the first time I said out loud “he is gone”. He left six months ago, and I still hadn’t said it yet. He is gone. He is gone. He is gone. Saying it tasted bitter, it tasted raw, it hurt. I tripped over the letters as they tumbled out of my mouth like apologies. All this running has worn me out, I’m so tired, and I’m so sorry. He is gone and I am exhausted. I’m slowly learning to love the sound of myself standing still.”

“I fall for you over and over, every second. Each moment we spend together pulls me deeper. You are the anchor and your love surrounds me like the sea. As if that is not enough; I look into your eyes and it is like I am seeing the summer stars for the first time. I kiss your lips and it is like I am feeling the warmth of the sun on my skin for the first time. And I cannot even put into words, the feeling I get when your arms wrap me up and pull me close, when my head is on your chest and your heartbeat sings me to sleep. I want to fall for you forever, over and over.”

“I’m in love with someone who no longer exists. I’m in love with the person he used to be and the moments we had together, which are still crystal clear in my head. I’m in love with someone who can never return my love again because he has changed and so has his view of me. Because to the person who destroyed the person I loved, I am a mere thing of the past, not meant to be spoken of nor known ever again. The cold, distant stranger I see around today is not the person I love. I will only miss the person burning in my memories.”