in the end the goldfinch (2019) needed to happen and fail so as to be such a failure that donna tart swore off ever selling the rights to any of her other works thus saving us from an amazon mgm produced secret history movie directed by emerald fennel starring jacob elordi as henry and featuring a completely unironic needledrop of white teeth teens by lorde

i actually want no part of theo decker's life to happen to me but when is someone going to stand out on the street take my face in both hands and judas kiss ME goodbye

opened my wip and didnt immediately write a thousand new beautiful and perfect words so i'm going to smash my laptop with a hammer

okay fine i wrote goldfinch fanfiction

happy one year to xandra pov fic. everybody give it up for xandra pov fic

the best thing a man can be is gay and suicidal and miserable and utterly unlikable and unpleasant to be around and prone to addiction and abused and traumatized and not breaking the cycle and

the goldfinch is RPF to me

my storytelling flaw is that I love it when characters hate themselves, I love when they hate the communities they're part of, I love it when they have internalized isms, I love it when they externalize those isms, I love it when they're assimilationists, I love it when they betray themselves and everyone around them, this makes me very bad at watching and reading progressive stories