Death Bones and Arrows

A la violación: un acto de saqueo, ataque violento o abuso; despoliación; violación: No voy a dejar que me violen. Violar mi mente, violar mi cuerpo, violar el amor que te doy, violar nuestra lealtad, violar mi dulzura, violar mi amistad, y violar nuestra historia. Pero tengo este cuerpo femenino, mi voz no se le permite luchar. Porque cuando lo hago, soy yo quien se convierte en el villano.

It's been a long time since Ive felt this low. This depressed. Nothing is sticking. I don't get picked, and people keep forgetting about me. How do so many others get flowers on a random day. Get invited on random excursions. Get genuine responses, genuine conversations, respect. I get the lies, the pain, the last minute thought. Maybe I'm too weak, maybe I deserve to be treated this way because I'm asking for it. Treat others as you want to be treated has never held true in my life. You'd think the older we get the more we hope to take care of those precious to us. Instead we hurt them worse. I need my best friends. It's how we get through the world together. And here I am, without anyone to talk to, to adventure with, to look into their eyes without crying in pain because they abandoned me. They are leaving, they bond to others and it's hard to not feel like I couldn't do everything to keep them here.