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high femmes are kind of like princesses you can keep

i love the freeze response i love how prey animals just freeze up when scared. Completely still, you wouldn't even know anything was wrong except for the rapid heartbeat that shakes their entire body. Eyes wide and dark looking up at you, staring at nothing. picture me at the floor by your feet

forced caretaking…the never-ending cycle of anger (you don’t need to be taken care of), humiliation (you are constantly in compromising situations), arousal (you enjoy being coddled more than you’d like to admit), and shame (why are you getting off on your own suffering?)

Grabbing a catatonic and totally limp girls hair and puppeting her through pillow talk.

Making her say how much she loves her new bruises and the pain. How she loved that I didn't stop at her constantly saying no. Making her apologize for struggling so much and thanking me for showing her how to be good like she is now. Making her say she loves me and wants to be with me forever not that a silly thing like her gets a choice.

the patient is flatlining she needs married butchfemme patriarchal conabuse

making out but it's more like me holding your jaw open so i can lick your teeth and the roof of your mouth while you try with all your might to get away from me

lets hear it for cross necklaces bouncing during sex

let's hear it for naked except for the cross necklace. let's hear it for trying to take it off and being told to leave it on.

fundamentally it's just really hot to say "please don't hurt me" with the full knowledge that it'll just make them want to hurt you more

we have a very healthy victim/abuser relationship, actually, thanks for asking

one of the hottest things someone can be is a handsy and compulsive sadist

is it still masochism if I actually hate the pain? if it's a kind of pain I can't stand? if feels awful and horrible the whole time it's happening but it's so worth it because even though it stung something horrible and sharp and my whole body tensed up and my heart jumped up to my throat with each movement of their hand, their face looked so beautiful and drunk and their hands feel good even when they hurt and being held by them makes my heart feel soft and warm and after they were done it felt like all the tension in my body from the entirety of being alive flooded out. just curious what we're calling that.