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Seth was everything to me, he always could make me feel like the only girl in the room. He and I talk a lot, literally every day we would talk about anything and everything. It’s the best. He’s the best. Of course, I love him, he’s the only one I’ve ever thought of in a romantic way.

“What’s on your mind (y/n)?” He nudged my leg with his. We were sitting on the beach, toes in the sand and our heads titled towards the sky.

“You.” I closed my eyes, “You never seem to leave my mind, Seth.”

He doesn’t say anything but I suddenly feel his pinky finger brush over mine but move away quickly. I hear movement and I open my eyes to see him standing dusting off his shorts and quickly heading off, back to his house.

“Seth!” I shout, the only response I get is the sound of the waves crashes agast one another. His retreating figure becomes smaller and smaller.

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I look at myself in the mirror and smile, the dress Alice picked out really does bring out my eyes. As I put my earrings in the door opens and Esme pops her head in.

“Are you all set sweetie?”

“Almost. A little nervous actually…” I mumbled.

She walks in and stands in the room, “Why? Something or someone on your mind?”

“I haven’t seen or talked to Seth in years, what if he hates me or doesn’t even remember me?”

She chuckles, her laughter sounds like it’s from an angel. “(Y/n), you are one very unforgettable young women.”

I thank her and we both head out to the wedding. The wedding was beautiful, seeing Bella walk down the aisle and Charlie looking well like Charlie was fun. What was even better was the speeches, Emmett, of course, had to do the most and Renee’s elegant voice singing to Bella almost brought tears to my eyes. Once everyone was done giving their speech they were all on the dance floor. Alice and Jasper busting moves and Rose and Emmett looking at eath other with all the love in the world.

I sip the expensive champagne as I watch everyone dance. I feel a tap on my shoulder and I turn around to see him. I don’t look him in the eyes but instead, look at his outfit. A white linen button-up and a rich brown blazer. Still, to this day he manages to take my breath away. I down the rest of my champagne and busy myself looking for another. 

“(Y/n) you look ethereal tonight-”

I shake my head still trying to seem busy. “Really Seth? that’s all you gotta say? That I look pretty?  No, “Sorry (Y/n)!” “Sorry for leaving you and never coming back for you?”” 

He sighs, “About that, we should probably talk somewhere private actually.”

I finally found the damn champagne, I pour myself a glass and down it quickly and then filling it up again. 

“There’s nothing to talk about Seth. You knew I have loved you since we were kids! As soon as I said something you just left. Not just the beach but you left me.” 

“(Y/n), please listen to me,” he pauses when he sees me nod my head, still looking at my cup with feigned interest. “I know what I did was shitty of me but I didn’t know what else to do! But I need to get something off my chest okay?”

 He takes my drink from my hand and puts it on the table and then grabs my hands and holds them in his. I look at our hands notice the size difference. His hands were significantly bigger than mine. 

“You may not know it but you are so special to me (Y/n). I want you to know that even though I wasn’t with you, you were on my mind day and night, trust me you can ask the guys. I love you (Y/n) and I plan on showing you how much I love you every goddamn day because you deserve nothing less.”