It's All Just A Matter Of Time

I have way too many thoughts and ideas running through my head right now. I want to go back to school but I dont have the gpa for grad school. I want to work but I cant seem to find a job.

So, here I sit, not knowing what to do or who to talk to and I’m confused. I’m looking at jobs in Rhode Island, Massachusetts, and Connecticut, but I’m also looking at schools to maybe just start completely over at and get another bachelors. I hate this and I hate even more that I feel like I have no one to talk to about it cause everyone will just laugh at me and tell me I’m stupid for thinking it’s even possible.

I havnt been on tumblr in a real long time but for some reason today I decided to log in. And the minute I did I got this intense sense to write and spill all of my secrets and life happenings. But I’m not going to. Instead, I’m going to start a new blog.  

I’ve decided to do this for a few different reasons. 1. I need somewhere to do exactly what I just said... spill my guts. 2. I have severe anxiety that not a lot of people know about it. But that’s going to change. I dont care if 500 people read my new blog or just 1 person does. I’ll still be letting people in to a huge part of my life and an even bigger daily struggle. Hell, I honestly dont care if no one reads it, at least then I’ll still be getting a healthy release of emotion; which I very clearly need.

Me: Wine.

Mom: *Pulls out bottle AND a glass.*

Me: No... I want the bottle.

I'm talking to my ex's new girl friend about my ex....