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the silmarillion is wild because you read it and you're like huh okay, and then you read lotr and it turns out everyone's just going around doing their own thing while the surviving elves are living through the final chapters of a post-apocalyptic horror story
rivendell's a pretty chill place, right? everyone gets along splendidly. dream retirement home et cetera. solid chance the guy you're having afternoon tea with has either survived or personally committed war crimes. also the reason it's so chill is elrond has this magic ring that makes it so the whole place exists slightly outside normal time
galadriel's been around since the beginning, like, for pretty much all of middle-earth's history you understand, she has Seen it all and despite what you may have been led to believe is at all times this close to snapping. also the reason lothlorien is so chill is she has this magic ring that makes it so the whole place exists slightly outside normal time
i can't emphasize enough how much of a post-apocalyptic horror story thranduil lives in. homeland destroyed and half his people massacred. has fucken sauron in his backyard and the spawn of the primordial beast that eats light puttering about on his lawn. a dragon lives next door. does NOT have a magic ring and is therefore obliged to rule over his murderforest in normal time
just so we're all on the same page here, legolas' day job before joining the fellowship was to hunt the spawn of the primordial beast that eats light and it's not like, a big deal or anything. he just has to do it. he's used to it.
'elves are leaving middle-earth and it's so sad :(' they have ptsd samwise.
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Yeah, because most of the thing is in colors she can't fucking see
it is still beautiful through her eyes she just doesn’t care 💕

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You ever get so stressed by current events that you devote yourself temporarily to some project or another just to keep you from endlessly checking how things are going?
Anyways, this is Mort
My mom said Mort should have a hat, so I made Mort a hat.
literally every time Particularly Stressful News happens, Mort starts getting notes again, and its always bittersweet to me. Like, on the one hand it reminds me of how much shit sucks right now. But on the other hand, i'm glad people find comfort in Mort and his silly little hat. i'm glad he's making people's days a little bit better still.
something about the casual, common punchline women don't tell you if they're upset! she says she's fine but she really isn't and how we in the theatre laugh along with the comedian. because yes, isn't that funny, we've done that too! ha ha.
but empathy and communication are innately a woman's trait, right? at least, that's how they are gendered. isn't that how we explain away all those so-called "biological" differences in roles between men and women. isn't that why so many women take on emotional labor. why we dominate communication-based fields. women are supposed to be talkative, gossipy. women are just better, supposedly, at anything "feelings"-oriented. if it's natural - well, no fault of the system!
i cannot tell you how carefully the average woman watches what she says. not every woman, certainly - there are genuine assholes in every gender. but an angry woman is very quickly labelled bitchy or hysterical. we are supposed to be catty, not outright violent. a scared woman yelling is overreacting. even laughing may be labelled shrill. how many of us have written down our feelings into the notes app first. journaled about it before raising our voices. went to the seminar on conflict resolution.
meanwhile masculinity is recalcitrant. it is restrained. it is stoic. a "real" man rarely speaks. unless it is a violent rage, he holds it all in. (ironically, a man on one of their 3 million podcasts says men take action, we don't speak). within the last 5 hours, my father said that real women don't "overtake" their man. they let the man just "be" a man. and how many times have men made the second joke - well, of course i'm not listening. that the wife babbles in the background, and the man (who is somehow straight?) just tries to tune her out in lieu of the television.
so two things must be true at once, then. women need to be entirely aware of and in control of their own emotions - and consistently capable of accurately expressing them to an unwilling, unhelpful audience. men know they don't listen, they're proud of it. but when that communication fails, it is your problem.
but hope springs into eternal damnation, doesn't it. you have had the same conversation with him six, eight, twenty, a hundred times. about how you're feeling burnt out. about how it bothers you when he ignores you and plays video games instead. about how when he doesn't ask you questions about your day, it makes you feel ignored and rejected. about how you need to be comforted. you have laid it all out for him, tried to make it as simple and executable as a manager's directive - here is what i need and how to get it. short of a powerpoint presentation, you've tried everything.
and then you see the socks on the wet bathroom floor and you've asked him so many times to not leave clothing there, it will get covered in mold, and you hate picking up wet clothes. work was hard and your back is hurting again and you also need to take care of a million more things. you are planning a trip and you have to pick up a friend's birthday present and you need to figure out dinner again. and there are socks on the ground, and you know logically the problem is essentially nonexistent. it is essentially nothing, in the grand scheme of things.
so what are you going to do about it? go into the next room and explode at him? you've done that before, you were labelled crazy for being upset at socks. or you could just pick up the socks and avoid the confrontation, but it will make you fucking angry at him, which will label you cold and a bitch. you could leave the socks to mold (fuck his weaponized incompetence) but you just don't want to be in the same house where mold is. and you could go out there, and again fucking explain to him - i work too. i am fucking exhausted, and this is overwhelming. it is my house too. please don't make me do your chores for you. just for him to mock you. oh socks aren't such a big thing and you were already cleaning.
so you pick up the socks, because of course you do. and you picture the entire fucking conversation, and how you could possibly frame it in a way that actually makes sense. how you could possibly communicate to a being that sometimes appears to only speak to you in a different language. hurr durr, men are just so stupid about these things. they can't help it! it's natural! it's just how their brains function! he will stare at you slack-jawed and blank-faced, and that will make you want to actually fucking punch him. the loneliness that will cause - it could tear you in twain.
but the longer it takes for him to notice your ire, the more it makes you sad and sick and devastated. you're a feminist. you promised yourself you would never love a person who causes you this kind of distress. but he does eventually notice. and he will be strange and kind of already-irritated. he will say why are you upset. he will not use kind, thoughtful language. he will treat it like a game, like something you created. he will imply, however casually, you are being over-sensitive. and you will say i'm fine because honestly you are trying to be fine about it. you want to let it pass. you don't want to be like this. and later he will ask again; and you repeat it. when you finally (if ever) actually admit - you left your socks on the wet floor again - he will laugh, act like you could have always complained about it. and at that point, the rage will have mostly burned off. you will feel a little bit silly too. like maybe you shouldn't have ever been upset about it.
he will not reflect on his actions. he will not worry about why it's happening. he will chalk it up to one of those crazy distances between men and women; like you are some kind of alien robot that functions without clear and present instruction. as if you never talked to him. as if he has never met a woman. as if you are so foreign you might as well be an octopus to him. all those nights you've wept, all those careful conversations - well; who knows the mind of women.
and then he will get up on stage. and he will say - isn't this a funny thing? they know they're upset, but they won't tell you why! you're just supposed to guess!
and ha ha! it's true! because it's your fault he doesn't listen.
Tolkien wasn't super clear about this and what hints he did put in, the movies left out, but the answer is: The Ring controls people.
In the book, Frodo does this to Gollum on the slopes of Mount Doom, and curses him to "yourself be thrown into the Fire" if he ever touches him again.
I feel Peter Jackson didn't understand that -- as he also didn't understand why Gollum, having sworn on the Ring not to harm Frodo, couldn't (personally) harm Frodo (and therefore had to lead him into Cirith Ungol for Shelob to kill him instead).
"Smeagol promised!" "Smeagol lied" was never how it worked.
Which is why Jackson had Frodo still apparently be drawn to the Ring after it was bitten off him and attack Gollum and push him over, because he thought Gollum just "randomly fell off the edge" in the book. It wasn't random, it was the effect of Frodo's curse using the Ring's power.
At all levels the Ring's power is to give its bearer power. For small mortal folks like Hobbits that means the gift of invisibility, which, like the Ring of Gyges in Plato's Republic, removes social consequences for one's actions. For people like Denethor or Aragorn it would have meant the power to command armies, which is what Sauron thought was happening when Aragorn marched on the Black Gate and why he sent every soldier he'd got to take it back. For Gandalf ("through me the Ring would wield a power too great and terrible to imagine") or Galadriel ("all shall love me and despair") it would have meant phenomenal power over nature.
becoming an adult is essentially having all your friends in different cities and permanently missing someone
oh also I really like when someone explains why they did the thing while they're apologizing
I want to understand them better and also if they can analyze their own behavior I have more confidence that they can actually fix it in the future

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the problem with me is that I want to have fun and enjoy life
Things cats were right about all along:
Fuck staying hydrated by drinking enough water - eat! more! wet! food! (watermelon, cucumbers, SOUP!)
Feels great to be really high up in your house where you can see the whole place (loft bed loft bed loft bed loft bed!)
Express yourself as clearly as possible when people are touching you and you don't want them to.
Optional, but you can also express yourself clearly when your people are not touching you and you want them to.
Sometimes it's important to just go "hmm. actually, I don't care" and wander off.
You don't have to be the strongest or toughest to defend yourself, it's enough to just be difficult enough to not be worth the trouble.
Ghosts will eventually leave if you stare at them for long enough.
more studying, more walks, more reading, more skill-based hobbies, more experimenting w pretty fits and hairstyles, more gym, more exploring new things in general, more whole foods/healthy recipes, more financial literacy, more time management, more time off the phone, more being out the loop. nothing else matters
to succeed in adult friendship you must remember the key tenets of child friendship:
Play Toys
Play Pretend
Snack Time
successful examples from my travels:
my SO and i have a projector. our cool neighbors have a vast dvd collection. fundamentally these are toys. we have those neighbors over for movie nights. Play Toys. more broadly shared hobbies fall into this category but it's extra fun if there's Equipment to admire and share.
ttrpgs are obvious but invaluable examples of Play Pretend. HOWEVER your options are not limited to this. i started a local writing group and this is also Play Pretend bc we all talk about our stories together. there are many such creative endeavors in this world.
having someone over for a meal is Snack Time. if you make a lil thing of it and eat at the table and make it nice with dessert and a fancy beverage to share it feels very grown up. and you will feel impressed with yourself for it. but it scratches the same itch as trading fruit snacks and suchlike.
of course these can be mixed and matched. most activities are enhanced by Snack Time if your friend targets enjoy breaking bread together.
and one begets the other. if you Play Pretend with someone for long enough they may eventually tell you about Toys they have and if you want to play too they'll probably let you. if they're nice.
life can be lonely when we live in separate boxes and worry about money all the time. this is what makes friendships hard, not growing older. but the antidote to isolation is connection, and the oldest wisdom we ever learn: share your toys. share your games. share your snacks.
the thing about lotr is each movie is 5000 hours long but not a single second is boring

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