diary of a boy, interrupted

INTRO...

hi I'm basil, the prettiest and most unfortunate boy on the internet! I think I'm an odd person so if im not your cup of tea just leave me alone. dead dove, do not eat.

I got a really cute set of undies but im not showing them off for free :p

I just wanted to tell tumblr I have underwear that matched my theme im not trying to be weird

sometimes I just want to pack my bags and run away

I kinda want to have a small youtube channel where I share my thoughts and how I feel on a shitty camera in my room. Something like nolongerhuman or other small creators with distinct aesthetics and a similar vibe. Idk if it would make me feel better or worse

I recently watched euphoria

And omg im in love with season one

I haven't watched much of s3 but ik its absolute buns there's no doubt

Obviously my favourite character is rue bc she's literally me. So many of her scenes make me want to cry like please someone take care of my baby

And the soundtrack is phenomenal i dont play about labrinth

S1 is pure cinema idc

Why couldn't I be born a boy

Its not fair why do I have to be like this

Im not even trying, and I can't because my parents would probably stop me

Im tired of walking around like a fucking girl

I wish I were a boy

My mom saying "you taking those meds and trying to kill yourself was a choice"

Yeah and why the fuck do you think i made that choice

One of my "secrets" is that I've always wanted to audition to a kpop company/entertainment company to just see how far I can go😭

Tbh my dream job would be an artist/performer in some way but the world sucks so im studying something that's 'predictable' or whatever

Everything is irritating as fuck. i don't know where went the sheet my therapist gave me and I also don't know when's my next appointment cause my mom LOVES leaving everything last minute.

And I think i have TWO extra classes going on after school at the same time and idk which one i should go to🫩 one of the teachers is so fucking annoying like why would I pick to stay in school for computer science over higher level maths you know damn well which one's harder

I hate when one of my moots repost some bs like now I gotta unfollow damn

My family is so mentally/emotionally draining im so done

I genuinely can't be around them for too long otherwise I genuinely want to harm myself🫩

I hate seeing someone who going through worse /the same struggles as your and they're doing way better... like ok I should just kill myself then

Guys when is it safe to start drinking after overcoming acute liver failure

Asking for a friend

Can the people around me stop saying hunter doohan looks like Wilbur soot im going to gauge my eyes out because I can see it

I used to like Wilbur (YEARS ago) too so its like FUCK OFF this is so humiliating😭

I have to pick a teacher to assess my behaviour or some shit (I think it might be for autism but there's nothing specified on the sheet) and I've come to the realisation that no one actually knows me.

Apart from my friends, but i keep some things from them too.

I kept on looking at the questions and it made me so mad because no adult in my life would be able to answer those questions accurately

No one knows me and ive never gotten the opportunity to truly open up and get close with someone

I actually hate it here im going to cry

How it feels like to struggle with eating/body dysmorphia as someone who's always been "skinny":