hello

the older i get the more sensitive i become to warm genuine words, like wow you really think that kindly of me? hold up, lemme cry

I am dead fucking tired, someone brush my teeth and do my skin care so I don’t have to

simultaneously underwhelmed and overwhelmed with life

one thing i need to start living by is “become the thing that you want” if i want friends who throw themed parties maybe i should start throwing those parties. if i want someone who writes me love letters maybe i should start writing letters for the people i love. if i want to hang out at museums and pretty cafes maybe i should invite my friends to these places. and maybe even then i won’t find the kind of people i want to be around. but then i would have become the exact person i want to be around. and maybe that’s good enough.