Heavy on the “if you want me, be clear.”

god knew i’d be too powerful if I could explain how I feel

partially-managed mental illness is so fucking funny i'll be sitting around doing my job and suddenly think "wow i hate myself" and immediately get confused because, like, that's not TRUE! i love myself so much. who are you to talk to me like that

i think people really under sell the physical side effects of mental health disorders sometimes. like sure the depression and anxiety may be 'just in your head' but when what's in your head happens to disrupts your sleep schedule and prevent you from going outside regularly and eating consistent meals and exercising and generally taking care of your body. well it sure takes its toll huh.

The guilt of being the daughter who loves her family but breathes easier when she’s far away

i’m very self aware. which unfortunately hasn’t solved anything

"den Umständen entsprechend" is one of my favourite german phrases of all time. Ich sag dir nicht was die Umstände sind, wenn du die nicht kennst ist das dein Problem. ultimate boss of nuance. "it is what it is" but 10 times more german. Ich geh mich jetzt den Umständen ersprechend aus dem Fenster werfen

I hope you get to experience that soft, "I made you a playlist" kind of love. The kind that feels nurturing instead of traumatizing. Safe instead of emotionally exhausting. Aligned instead of ill-timed. You deserve that.

I have a bad habit of getting too deep in my head