Regression.

no longer accepting memes!  - how is taekwoon at the hospital? ( tw: death )

   he remembered waking up in the hospital. he remembered hyungseok was there. he looked sad, like he had been crying. he was talking and asking taekwoon questions, but the words didn’t seem to make sense, like the other was speaking another language.

   taemin was with a nanny his mom had gotten because of taekwoon being in the hospital, but where was his wife? where was seulmi?

    then hyungseok’s words seem to finally make sense.

    “she’s gone, taekwoon.”

     it hit him in that moment and he just lost it. panic etched his entire being and he tried to get up, but hyungseok grabbed him, holding him from getting up. the nurse came in to help, but she didn’t need to. taekwoon clung to hyungseok as he sobbed. 

   he sobbed because his wife was gone. the one person who gave his life light and laughter and everything good. she had made his life better. and his son... his two year old had just lost his mother. he won’t remember her singing him to sleep or the games she made up for him to play. 

   it should have been him, he thought for a moment, but when taemin was walked into the room and scurried over to his dad, taekwoon knew seulmi would have been angry with him.

   he pulled away from hyungseok and reached down, helping taemin up. taemin clung to his father and lifted his small hands, trying to brush the tears away. his son smiled, not understanding just yet why his father was sad. he just knew he needed to help his father feel better. 

   his smile was so much like his mother’s. seulmi was gone, but their son was still here. he looked so much like her. 

( ` egg and spoon race diner around 2PM w/ @csxhyungseok ) 

    after texting hyungseok, taekwoon made sure taemin was all dressed and ready and the two of them headed down the stairs of their apartment complex. it wouldn’t take them long to get the diner by walking. taekwoon preferred walking than taking any sort of transportation and taemin didn’t complain. 

    taemin’s tiny finger clung to taekwoon’s hand, swinging their arms. he was ratting on about his day at daycare yesterday. taekwoon was listening and he was interested in what he son had to say, but he definitely couldn’t relate about not getting to draw with a crayon. 

     after a bit, taemin ended up in taekwoon’s arms, his arms around taekwoon’s neck. they eventually made it to the diner and made a way into a booth. taemin was instantly coloring on the coloring mat he was given, once again going on about his favorite crayon. taekwoon just smiled at him. he leaned against the table, his cheek in his hand as he grabbed a crayon and doodled on the side of the mat. taemin seemed pleased to see his father drawing with him so he moved the sheet closer so they could draw together while they waited for hyungseok.

still accepting memes!  - how is taekwoon with going to the park?

    taekwoon takes his son to the park every saturday. since he doesn’t have to go to daycare and taekwoon has people to help with the business, he can spend some time with his son. they always go to the playground so taemin can swing around and play. they walk for a bit as well and usually stop for some food. if it is warm and ice cream is for sale, he’ll always get his son a cone.

still accepting memes!  - how is taekwoon with sleeping?

   by owning a club, taekwoon doesn’t exactly have a normal sleep schedule. he makes sure he is home before his son wakes up and sleeps for maybe five to six hours before he gets his son and spends the afternoon with him. when he does sleep, he has music playing or the TV on. he doesn’t like sleeping in the quiet. he also doesn’t sleep still. he actually moves a lot and he isn’t a heavy sleeper either. anything can wake him up, which is why he listens to some sort of noise to help block out those noises.

still accepting memes!  - how is taekwoon on halloween?

   taekwoon couldn’t care less about halloween until he had his son. his son is weirdly fascinated by the holiday. probably because of his wife. she loved halloween. she never missed a chance to dress up and she made sure that they all had costumes. for his son’s first birthday, they were salt, pepper and taemin was paprika from blues clues. 

still accepting memes!  - how is taekwoon with pets?

  taekwoon is really good with animals. he had several pets growing up including dogs, cats and hamsters. he has always been good with animals. he usually stops to pet a dog when he sees one and as soon as he could, he got himself a cat. then his son came along and he made sure his son has the same respect for animals as well.

still accepting memes!  - how is taekwoon at a coffee shop?

   taekwoon is that stereotypical guy at the coffee shop on his laptop with a cup of black coffee. usually he’s working on finances for the club when he’s working. he also has on headphones that is actually blaring that makes people question if he can actually hear anything.

still accepting memes!  - how is taekwoon with going to the beach? asked by @csjaeminn too

   seulmi, his wife, used to force him to the beach all the time. she loved the beach. taekwoon is the one to hide under the umbrella until she grabbed him and forced him into the water. he has gone to the beach once since his wife passed for his son, but he just sat on the beach and his son ran around on the shore and built a sand castle.

   he, however, loves eating watermelon at the beach.

still accepting memes!  - how is taekwoon when caught in the rain?

  taekwoon should have expected it to rain. it usually did when his mood was awful. his father was on his case again. he was already taking a bunch of business classes like his father wanted. he was a star soccer player (and ice hockey when it got cold) , but his father was never happy.

   he should have just called for a driver, but he just stood there, the rain falling down him like it was the tears he never shed. what was the point? even as it sunk through his very expensive clothes (a gift from his mother to show off her new line).

    the rain stopped - or at least, he wasn’t being pelted by it. his eyes raised to the yellow umbrella over his head then his eyes fell to the girl. she smiled sweetly, “you know, standing in the rain is only cool in dramas, though you do scream rich male lead.”

     taekwoon frowned at her, “... and?”

     “and i’m seulmi. you’re taekwoon, right? they jung taekwoon. the girls cry about you breathing,” she laughed lightly, but it was loud in his ears. she tilted her head and grinned, “i can see why, but you’re pretty weird, aren’t you?”

     he didn’t know why, but he chuckled lightly, “no one has called me weird before.”

     she giggled, “well, strange since you’re standing in the rain. you’re a little weird.”

     he was fine with that.

still accepting memes!  - how is taekwoon at the gym?

   when he used to go the gym, before his son was born, he kept to himself, not surprisingly. he had a very strict regiment too. he spent an hour at the gym, every monday, wednesday, friday and saturday. monday and friday was arm day and wednesday and saturday were leg days. 

   when it was arm day, he did weight lifting. sometimes his wife joined him, though she focused more exclusively on cardio. he could bench 270 (in pounds) before he stopped working out. 

    while he doesn’t go to the gym anymore, he does take walks with his son and plays with him at the playground to make sure they both get exercise. 

still accepting memes!  - how does taekwoon deal with lucking out?

   taekwoon doesn’t think much of it when he lucks out. he doesn’t believe in ‘luck’ in general, whether good or bad. he thinks things happen they way they happen for a reason. his wife believed in luck and karma for that matter, but taekwoon is a realist. 

still accepting memes!  - how is taekwoon is children?

   despite his outward demeanor, taekwoon is great with children. his personality does almost a complete 180. he is extremely kind and speaks far more than most people know him to be. he always makes sure he is at eye level with any child he is talking to. he doesn’t like to stand over them. 

    since having his son, he’s even better for kids. he actually knows how to handle kids. he doesn’t raise his voice, but if his son acts up, he is good about discipline. he also doesn’t use baby talk. he doesn’t think it is appropriate, however, he does still remember he is talking to a child so he does make sure he still relates to them.

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