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          ‘ but you always talk about how you want them to leave you alone. how you wish they would just leave. ’ morgan wasn’t exactly trying to talk him in or out of it, but she was trying to understand. ‘ we’re not trying to fix you either, hunt. we just... we want to make it easier for you, that’s all. and it’s not fair that you minimize and ridicule my family for trying to help you. how dare you. they want what’s best for you, that’s all any of us want and the fact that you just yelled at jesy who’s not only dealing with the loss of her wife and daughter, but hates seeing the people she cares about hurting! how dare you! ’ she shouted. she knew it probably wasn’t the best idea to yell at him, but she couldn’t help it.

       she reached for myra’s hand, giving it a gentle squeeze. “are you sure it’s just that one problem? sometimes we can’t quite put our finger on it, love. and you know you can come to me, right?”

“i would suggest talking to someone first, honey. a psychiatrist? i can make an appointment for you.”

          ‘ should i take a pill, to numb the pain? change the chemicals inside my brain? i worry i, won’t be the same but i guess that that’s the point... ’

these are all some of my favourite quotes from my favourite murder, an amazing podcast that i just started to get into and have already finished ( i know, i know... shame ). trigger warning: drugs, trauma, swearing, murder

   ‘ we’re passionate people, for better and worse ’ gwen quietly sneaked an arm around Raya’s shoulders and hugged her closer ‘ badass and embarrassing: the words every mother wants to hear from her daughter’s mouth ’ she placed a big and obnoxious kiss against ray’s cheeks.       ‘ it’s endearing and useful so we’re not going to tell her that she can go overboard, okay? we’ll never hear the end of it ’ 

         ‘ have i mentioned how proud i am you’re going to be a doctor too? because i am  and i tell jesse all the time’ 

‘ between you and me, i think we’ll argue our way out of it ’ 

          ‘ ugh, okay now you’re just embarrassing. ’ she groaned, though she definitely curled into her mother’s side, grateful that for now she wasn’t getting yelled at. ‘ i just... i don’t want her to go all... youngest ada in thirty years on me where she uses every single law technique in the book. ’ she scrunched up her nose. 

          ‘ yes, yes i’m aware. this argument has been happening since i can remember. ’ to be fair it was probably happening before that but she really didn’t even want to think about it. it was cute but also... a lot for a kid.

         ‘ that’s America for you. ’ her pretty mouth twisted in a frown. ‘i rather not dwell on it. On none of it ’ her dad would understand. Gwen believed that (she had to) and she knew that her father, out of all of theirs, would understand how important it was. Maybe not that she was putting herself in danger but that was another topic altogether. 

‘ she loves me so i wouldn’t risk it. But if you wanna… ’ her tone shifted to a playful one, smiling as she looped her arm around Myra’s. ‘ for now we just play pretend in the background and wait for it. We don’t rush it. And honestly? Not surprised. Filth finds filth’  

          ‘ land of the free, home of the corrupt. ’ she scrunched up her nose. ‘ it’s hard not to dwell on it when we still have to go home every night. ’ sure they were definitely taking out the biggest scum in manhattan, but they were still killing people and that would drive a wedge between the girls and their parents if any of them found out. 

Gwen looked from her tablet and flashed Poppy a smile as soon as she saw her . ‘ good morning, darling ’ when poppy asked, her smile grew even bigger ‘I like that idea. Tía effy and tiotonio love having you around and i’m sure that if grandpa is there so will he. The job’s just a bonus’ not to mention that gwen herself had worked there a few summers when she was her daughter’s age. It was good poppy had the chance to live a ‘storybrooke summer’. Those were never dull. ‘you have a ‘yes’ from me. Let’s wait to see what your mom says’ she poked jesse’s side as she spoke the last part

“I know.” She reaches up gently, if only to help Eliana focus on anything other than the chaos that surrounds them. “I know he did. HE did this. Not us. And now we’re going to fix it, okay? I promise you, I will not rest until we have this sorted out.” She lifts her hands, with the same practiced care of a farmer around a wounded animal, and lets them hover like cautious wings over Eliana’s shoulders.

“I saw what people are capable of when they’re exposed to the promise of power. When the Soul Stone found me… I was nothing more than a weapon. But that was to the wrong people. I escaped, Eliana, I was free, and I was loved.” There’s a brief pause, enough for her to catch her breath, to try and reestablish Eliana into what could so easily be reality, if they work towards it. “We’re both going to fix this. Then we’re going to get our lives back, and know for a damn fact that that asshole can’t ever take them away from us again. But I need your help to do that, okay? Will you help me?”

          ‘ but... what if people never forgive us for what happened? what if they don’t want to hear from us? do we just go into hiding? what do we do? ’ everything about this situation was hard, there were so many variables, there was the very real possibility of persecution for even just being there. after the accords, anything was possible.

  Everything started to spiral out of control so fast it ironically felt like watching it in slow motion. The images from the other side, from that day, they faded as the lights around them dimmed. Lisa’s power, of course.

‘ lis-’  he swallowed while he sat down next to her, one hand tentatively reaching up and squeezing her shoulder in what he hoped was a reassuring gesture. The sudden explosion made him flinch and he didn’t hide it. But he refused to leave Lisa alone. This was her personal hell, quite literally, and he wouldn’t leave her when she so obviously needed someone. For the first time in what could have been his entire life Hunter didn’t have any words or anything to say, he could only sit there and comfort her while she relieved it.

          everything hurt, as it always did when she used her abilities. her arms looked like she’d been struck by lightning, her veins glowing like they were fluorescent lightbulbs that you could see them under her jacket. ‘ he hurt my family... he was... uncle bill and he betrayed us... ’ at one point her mom had even said that the castle’s were all the family he would need. ‘ everyday i wake up and look at these scars on my face, and they remind me that sure you can use that bullshit saying and say that i’m stronger now for what happened or whatever, but that’s crap. they hurt. every time i think about them god i wish it were some corny saying, but it just... ’ she trailed off. ‘ everyone who says that can go to hell. i’ve been mutilated, injected with some bullshit gene that turned me into this, and i’m a ghost. ’ lisa threw her last bit of energy at a tree, snapping one of the branches off.

          ‘ hola mamí’s, ’ poppy walked into the dining room where both her mothers were sitting. jesse with her notes for the upcoming trial, gave a small wave of acknowledgement. kissing each of them on the cheek. ‘ so, i was thinking... this summer i could go and stay with everyone in storybrooke this summer... i was talking to tío tonio the other day and he said that i could stay with them and tía effy said that she could potentially get me a job at the rabbit hole. pleeeeeease? ’