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There are no "exact color" of pride flags.

I see more and more sites and posts talking about the exact hex codes for the lesbian flag, or the right purple for the ace one, and how it should be more or less saturated and I just want to say: pride flags were meant to be sewn in your kitchen. To be spraypainted and to be recognised.

Avid and I hadn't been friends in about half a year following some dispute over Merch and prices. I gave him a quote for emotes, he complained about it being to high, haggled me down and still "asked" if I had a bulk discount since another artist he was working with also offered him one and we were friends after all. I told him if the price was an issue he could commission another artist, he refused and we went forward with the commission at the reduced price. This hasn't been the first time money became an issue working together. He had a habit of only paying through goods and services (it deducts a service fee from my end, not his- resulting in incomplete payments for me) or simply not paying the full amount. He has never payed me a licence fee for any of my merch designs and instead promised me 50% of his sales- I have not seen a payment of this. Meanwhile he told me I was financially taking advantage of him. (Never mentioning the free gifts, logos and other stuff I had done free of charge)

When he messaged me, ending our friendship, following the emote situation, he said things to me that made me doubt every relationship I had with my friends. I was made to believe that everybody hated me, that he was the only one I had left and that he was foolish for believing in me. I was crushed, heartbroken and scared.

Meanwhile he lied to others about me in order to isolate me further. The tamest of these lies being that we were still friends and that he just wasn't working with me anymore. However the things I heard about me afterwards were horrible and made me seriously sick to my stomach. Not only did he claim that I called him selfish amongst other things after he confided in me with suicidal thoughts, apparently never made him feel better in these situations despite being his personal therapists and most horrifyingly of all he fabricated very serious rpe allegations against me. This last part I cannot take lightly as I myself have been a victim of rpe/sexual ab#se in the past. Avid knew how much this still effected me to this day- he could have chosen any other lie but this one is unforgivable in my eyes. Both the supposed victim and I were mortified when we were told about this. I hope I don't have to say this but I will to cover everything: I did in fact never do anything of the sorts and am appalled by this.

Being isolated, having all my relationships in doubt and overall everything happening made me consider a lot of things. This was a truly dark time in my life. I considered deleting all my socials, videos and my Twitch and everything Rubyco, therefore being "gone for good" and sadly it went as far as considering truly ending it all. I do have amazing friends and even in these moments I wasn't ever alone, I will never be able to thank all of them enough for what they did for me. I am better now, though still battling with the programmed feeling of loneliness and distrust that had been installed so long ago.

Avid and I had been friends for years and it is hard to see this new version of him. I still want to believe that the guy I became friends with is still in there but after everything that came to light these past days and even months- I have to accept that this version of him is gone.

I haven't gone over Marm in this as we hadn't been as close as people could have thought. At some point it was impossible getting her or Avid alone since they would always stick together, attached at the hip. Avid also replaced me with her for the Friday streams after they got together, which I admittedly got a little salty over. Marm has lashed out over small disagreement or "callouts" before, making me feel like I was the bad guy in every one of them. After a while she stopped talking to me as a whole except for SBK interactions we couldn't avoid.

I was somewhat of a personal therapist/social worker for both of them, worrying about them, working with them and at some point even having scheduled meetings with them, yet I didn't see this side of them for way too long. I am not the only person he affected negatively. I am not the only person he attacked and definitely am not alone in having your entire character and story misconstrued, lied about and manipulated to fit his narrative of being a victim. I wish everyone that was affected by his actions to be able to heal from this. I know I have gotten closer to some people despite, no probably because, of this and they are all such wonderful and strong people.

Be kind to yourself, this is all you owe yourselves especially now <3

~Marina / Rubyco

this is the text I have come up with, if you have any questions, thoughts or whatever let me know. Much love to y'all <3

I know a lot of people are having a hard time right now with the avid and marm situation but I do want to say this, please don't let this ruin the MCYT community for you.

I know a lot of people were drawn in by avids characters both from in and out of the MCYT space and while he wasn't a good person, that doesn't mean his community was bad. It was great while it lasted and honestly we need to bring the open mindset into the bigger MCYT sphere. A lot of systems felt seen and welcomed in avids community and they should feel seen and welcomed in any community.

Sadmilkman part 2

Piepiesamurai

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Zombiecleo (I have seen a discord message of theirs also around but I don't know the source and was also told they did not intend for it to be public, so I'm not including it)

Mythical Sauage (Not my screenshot)

Jay draws (I have too many images in this post again so I can't post the screenshot proving it is their tweet sorry)

(repost) requested ace shubble!

I personally remember them having that break up with Scott and then Scott Drift Shelby and Cam being removed from sbk. Which fits exactly with the "made up lies about bigger youtubers to isolate the sbk players".

Then at vidcon all this youtuber started talking and those lies fell apart, screenshot were shared of Avid shit talking the other sbk players behind their backs to eachother and the truth was found out. Then Avid and Marm panicked and tried to run off the platform to escape the consequences which is why they quit.

Cleo basically said they were asses and that they quit in a "you can't fire me I quit" kinda way and that she's glad they are gone forever. In much the same way others have said that them using stress as an excuse is what they would use to lie and manipulate.

Water also said she's not going to be the same for a long time.

Cleo also said that they saw screenshot of Avid talking about how much he wished death on her friends and fellow cc's.

When Pomni pulled out the fucking GUN. People were going wild. We legit thought she was gonna shoot Jax like a sick dog

AND THEN WHEN SHE STARTED SHOOTING THE LIGHTS. OH MY GOD IT WAS INSANE

The Gangle/Maid Jax scene. Everyone lost their fucking minds when Maid Jax first showed up and then the REST OF THE SCENE happened and we were HOWLING

"REALITY'S GAY" IS POSSIBLY THE LOUDEST I HAVE EVER HEARD A THEATER. WE MISSED THE NEXT TWO LINES BC EVERYONE WAS SCREAMING LAUGHING SO HARD. AND THE AWARD GOES TO

When Ribbit put the bow in Jax's "hair". People gasped. I know I shouted something but I don't remember what. Most of us were thinking trans!Jax going in, especially when he said he confessed "something" to his Mom, but we weren't sure Glitch were brave enough to actually do it. The bow? "Isn't she lovely"? The pink streetlamp? We witnessed a Fucking Moment and it started with that fucking hairbow.

WHEN CAINE SHOWED UP. WE SCREAMED. Everyone was like "WHAT???? WHAT???? WHAT???????"

When the slideshow started. Ending with Pomni accepting herself as she is. Crying sobbing throwing up theater

Okay I fear some of us are missing the point.

Yes there was a lot of misogyny and transphobia in jax's inner thoughts. It's because he has a lot of internalized misogyny and transphobia that he needs to work through. It wasn't character assassination.

Jax grew up in an environment where masculinity was violent and hated, and if he was anything less then a man then he was shamed and punished. He was forced into the shadow of his father and any choice he made (embrace it or fight it) was punished. His inner selves reflected that.

You had the trans femme side that couldn't let people know the truth, that she enjoyed being in the dress, in fear of ridicule. Because she never had a safe place to come out, because if she was less then a man she would be punished.

You had the sexist side that objectified women because that's what a man is supposed to do. That's what Jax is supposed to be. If he wasn't then he was punished by his mother. That was the part he was expected to play in the society that he grew up in.

Then there's the soft part that plays the piano. The closest to the real Jax, the one who gives Pomni the key, the one who is still chained. They're softer, kinder, and they're abused by the other sides of Jax. They aren't allowed a voice, just there to provide entertainment to the others.