Single lesbian is single and depressed, y e e t -
But I guess this just happens.
I'll get over it eventually.
But for now, I'm not very happy.
I cried for almost an hour straight last night. It really, really sucked.
But the best thing I can do is move on, yeah? So I'm gonna try to do that.
I'm happy my best friend was there to listen to me cry for a whole hour (she's amazing), and cheer me up by talking to me afterwards-
Because while not many words were exchanged while I cried, she'd guessed what was up- I probably sounded heartbroken with the things I said while sobbing, like "Fuck", "It's my fault, maybe if I hadn't have said that things would be fine", "I hate this", "It hurts so much".
A bunch of other people tried to help me through it, too, which I'm grateful for, even if I couldn't seem like it while I was crying, because my hands were shaking, and my thoughts were so scrambled that all I had the mind to say was "Thank you".
I had thought we could fix things, and I had thought the message she sent me was going to be okay, because the first few lines weren't that bad- but then it took a turn for the worse, and that probably shook me up.
I just want to say, I'm very grateful for the people who tried to make me feel better. It makes me happy that you care about my feelings, and you're all so sweet. I wish I could have thanked you properly, but I was so in the moment that I just couldn't. I'm feeling okay right now, though a little sad- but I just wanted to say that your kind words meant and mean a lot to me.
And Pastel- if you're reading this, I'm not sure if we can still be friends yet, but just know that you mean a lot to me as a person- I'm bad at dealing with breakups, and often hide from the person after them, but maybe, at some point later on, we can start talking properly again. You're a lovely person, and I don't hate you for anything you've done or said. I would never yell at you for stating your feelings, but you should have told me you weren't ready sooner- and, maybe ease it in and let us talk about it instead of suddenly smacking me in the face with a message dkfjsjsjdjfjsj
It's okay that you did, though. I understand. I want you to know that it's okay that you don't feel ready, and that it's okay if you never will. I just hope you're alright, and that this doesn't add more stress to your plate.