CORE ZONE

Ahh, the rain and the drops stuck on the leaves. The nature is best healing mechanism for me. Every day I wake up, I can't thank you enough for your supreme power I am alive to see this heaven you built on the earth. It has the most mesmerizing beauty one would ever have. It has the power to heal all the sorrow and damage in this world. #blessed#to#be#alive

Broke up with my ceiling fan. Now air cooler is my best friend.<3

Awwwwwwwwwwww ( I know it's weird.)

Such a loud but peaceful relationship. <3 UwU

사랑해 공기 냉각기 오빠. 난 정말 당신을 좋아해요.

I love you air cooler. I really like you.

Te quiero air cooler. Realmente me gustas.

It was the first time I felt love. It was pretty and peaceful. The circumstances made us leave each other with an unavoidable void. I tried to fill it up with every emotion possible. It was so impossible. It just grew bigger and bigger every day. It has been two years, and my heart still aches.

It started when we barely knew each other. The differences we had were kind of just another level. Somehow we managed to pass from that phase. To be honest, it wasn't that difficult for us, but for others, it was.

 He was the cutest individual I would ever meet. He made a collage out of our photos the day I asked him out. He was so excited, like a cute puppy waiting for his master's appreciation ( a weird example). At the start, it was pretty burdensome for me to always keep smiling and being lovey-dovey, not because I have never been in a relationship but because I am a kind who never takes a love relationship so seriously. I was popular in my school and always had a lot of options. That may be the reason for my specific kind of behavior. On the first day, I told him to please get mature because I couldn't tolerate this kind of behavior. ( I wish I haven't done that). 

Time passed. Unexpectedly he said he wanted to introduce his sister to me. That is where the problem arose. Within a week, my best-ever relationship was ended. His phone was taken away from him ( it was the only way we were in touch during lockdown). In short, we lost touch.

After a month, I saw he was online. I didn't dare to message him. I was so angry at him. Even after a month, he doesn't feel the need to text me. The nothingness which was created after he was gone got filled with anger. I thought, at least now I can forget him, but I wanted to know why he ain't texting me. I asked my friend to call him. His sister picked up the call. We found out that his phone was taken away, and he might not get it for a year. 

The void in my heart filled with anger got empty again. 

Everyone is the protagonist of their own story named life . so I am . walking through the alleys , narrow lanes, highways and  corridor of the school I felt like I am at the center of the screen and center of attention . I always felt that a cute boy/girl in my class would be dying to be my friend . whenever a problem arises he/she will be by my side. (let's keep it gender neutral, so I'll say they ) . always thought that whenever I will feel lonely they will be by my side just like the side characters of any movie but that never happened . I used to be in problems but I got no side characters in my movie , I used to fight alone , cry alone but no one  was standing there with the  box of tissues and words of affirmation. Many times the antagonist used to win . I felt like I am the side character of my own movie , and now there will be the entry of the real protagonist and he/she will save me but that didn’t happen either . duhhhhhh .