The Devil Works Hard But Fic Writers Work Harder

My head had been trying to kill me for just under 4 hours now. I very much do not like how bad the sounds of my own keyboard hurts my brain.

saw another Phighting fic author send an ask, and it inspired me to send everything that happened to me between a SINGLE chapter update of my Phighting fic(~1-2 months, usually)

My mom got in a car crash(i wasn’t in the car at the time, and no one was seriously hurt, thankfully)

One of my teachers got fired for showing her class material so gory that for the five seconds I looked at the screen in total, I was genuinely about to vomit

Was in a large online friend group which. Hoo, and I cannot stress this enough, Fucking Boy. To sum up the shitshow that happened there in three points:

Someone I care about got told, without a hint of humor or sarcasm, to kill himself

Got flirted with by someone I despised(granted, it was in-character, but I was still WILDLY uncomfortable)

Most of that friend group turned on me, most of my best online friends, and a couple acquaintances/friends of friends

also this one is less severe but after posting the final main fic in my series, i got horrible writers block. like so bad i havent touched any form of my writing in a month LOL. also the concept of writing a fic got me sick sooo. life is beautiful amirite

i was living with abusive relatives for years until i snapped and ran away, and then i was homeless for nearly 2 years, and it's been at least 3 years since i started thinking about this fanfic I've been writing, and probably close to 3 since i last updated.

I still think about it every goddamn day. I am going to write it if it's the last thing I do. I am going to do this. I did not nearly die multiple times to not put my sad gay chaos blorbos on ao3. they are still rotating. so much rotating.