•yoshiki •

⭐️intro⭐️

yay it's el gee bee tea month

being from a newer, more "niche" source has been so isolating.

it's kind of awkward originating from a source about a romance when you have a girlfriend

people tell me I am not hard to love because of my depression

being me is all fun and games until your coworker comments on how you've "lost the sparkle in your eyes"

sleeping is so hard because I'll see him in my dreams and run to him only for him to already be cold and gone

I feel like most of my kin memories are formed from my brain trying to fill in blank spots in my memory. I have some medication (and then trauma from the effects of the medication) induced memory loss and so I guess my mind is trying to fix the blanks left from that with "memories" from my source.

its really weird to feel like my family and friends from my canon are real, but consciously knowing they're not. I had the thought that I wanted to go hang out with Kaoru, but I don't have a sister. I almost called my actual dad Toshinori in front of my girlfriend. I feel like I see Yuuki and Asako in the hallways but obviously I'm mistaking them for somebody else.

I feel so silly hiding my fictionkinnity from my girlfriend like she doesn't already know everything about me lmao

who knew that experiencing extreme trauma and then watching an entire anime the day of would make my brain latch onto a character who I already deeply associated with