Kurt Cobain✨

"At the core of many of Kurt's internal struggles was his disassociation with the masculine ideal. 'I've always had a problem with the average macho man they've always been a threat to me,' he once said. Growing up in Aberdeen, Washington, he always felt at odds with the gruff culture of loggers and lumber mill workers, the jocks at school who he felt 'just wanted to fight and get laid'. His father tried to make him play baseball and go hunting; he would spend the whole time brooding silently, waiting until he could go home and listen to cassettes and draw pictures. In an environment where being male meant being aggressive and macho, this introspective blond kid - barely five foot seven, so skinny he would pile on extra layers of clothing to look bigger - was never going to fit in. He grew to look at masculinity from an outsider's perspective: 'I definitely feel closer to the female side of the human being than I do the male or the American idea of what a male is supposed to be.'

can you feel my love buzz?

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“I wish there was someone I could ask for advice. Someone who wouldn’t make me feel like a creep for spilling my guts and trying to explain all the insecurities that have plagued me for oh, about 25 years now. I wish someone could explain to me why exactly I have no desire to learn anymore. Why I used to have so much energy and the need to search for miles and weeks for anything new and different. Excitement. I was once a magnet for attracting new offbeat personalities who would introduce me to music and books of the obscure and I would soak it into my system like a rabid sex-crazed junkie hyperactive mentally retarded toddler who’s just had her first taste of sugar.”

you’re beautiful.