gay loser

it’s actually killing me inside that knowledge of ao3 has become mainstream. between that and ai over running fandom spaces it actually feels like my world is collapsing lol

i am so deeply in love with count ymir from elden ring

do you ever get so depressed and useless and the executive dysfunction is so bad that you genuinely and wholeheartedly think “man this would be a great time for a manic episode to hit” because at least then you have the energy to do something, anything

got super antsy bc i quit smoking and it’s rly getting hard and i started freaking out so i took a big edible to calm me down. good news, it worked. bad news, every time my partner tries to speak to me they morph into a giant floating cigarette

i am going to itch my skin off and start puking on the walls

fuck my stupid baka life

opened tiktok for the first time today to be greeted with the newly dropped trailer for the homestuck pilot. i feel like i am getting pranked. there’s no way. homestuck???? toby fox???? chat is this real???????

the depression has loosened its claws on me enough for the mania to slip through the gaps. my new hell isn’t that I can’t write, it’s that I literally can’t stop. somehow I ended up writing six dbz fics at once. none of them are finished but I have been possessed by the spirit of kakavege and it won’t let me go

getting hit with the beam of major depressive episode sucks. who keeps doing that to me