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The owner of the drone was so impressed by the brilliant attack that he suggested organizing a competition for bringing down “dragons” with short spears next year.

weak. same goes for dick.

girl i got that good…that good for nothing

If things go for you the way they did for me, you’re part of what kills her. Also Heidegger. And Hojo. Repeatedly Hojo. It’s frustrating, honestly. Honestly it was a little satisfying to be that amount of a pain in the ass for them. Even if most of the time it felt like we were scrambling to keep up and barely scraping through things.

Speaking of, if Heidegger is getting yelled at, make yourself scarce. I’m pretty sure that goes without saying, but there’s no positive outcome to hanging out around then. Best case scenario you get punched and yelled at while he vents. Worst I dealt with is the same as the worst I dealt with where Scarlet’s concerned, which is to say reduced rations and a trip to the med ward.

Well, it’s… something to look forward to, I guess.

Still doesn’t change the fact that I hurt and this is probably going to be what I continue to deal with in the near future.

I know. I’ve worked under him for almost a year now. It doesn’t really matter if I stay scarce, he could still be angry about it hours later, or even if he’s not, you know he has both high and absurd standards.

You ever not laugh at the same time he does? He beats the shit out of you for it.

Just… I know what Heidegger is like. I’ve been stationed back in Midgar since the whole thing with AVALANCHE. I get to see a lot of him now, unfortunately.

They all fucking suck. I'd offer suggestions on how to handle the aftermath of shit, but I remember what your salary looks like, and the only thing you can probably afford that I can think to say is 'don't sleep on your back for a while and do extra stretching. No, not the way they teach you in the sorry excuse for boot camp, that's not actually stretching, that's warmups. That shit you do to pop your back and help work muscles loose, do that.'

Guess who wanted me to be her personal footstool today and had me crawl on all fours after her.

Am I missing something?

I… don’t think so? That’s just something that’s kind of always on the backburner of my mind for going “not all people are horrible” because I feel like that does a disservice to a lot of people and places acting shitty as the norm and something that just simply cannot be helped.

I'm sick! went to the ER three times because i just kept getting worse, had two Covid tests done (including the brain swab, do not do the brain swab) that both came back negative, and am generally absolutely miserable. rough cough that is no longer producing anything besides pain, throat is absolutely worn raw, my head is stuck halfway between 'too hot, can't think' and 'vacant staring at the wall while inappropriate music plays,' chest and back pains that come and go, fever and chills that come and go, laying down makes breathing difficult and sometimes just straight up makes me shoot straight up awake wheezing and coughing, inside my ears stings, and where my jaw under my ears meets my neck feels like a stupid amount of pain is going on.

I am kind of barely functioning. as in 'I go to the bathroom when I need to do so and realize it, and I stick food in my face if it is given to me' functioning. rarely manage to MAKE food, have only done so twice since this started like a week and a half ago. I am so exhausted I am surprised I'm writing coherently. I am not coping, I am BARELY feeling better on some things than I was previously, and I kind of spent a long time in a cough syrup sleep haze. if we still had it, I would still be there. that's the closest I could come to being comfortable, is being zonked out on nighttime cough syrup.