Daydream

I’m so fucking scared you could realize I’m not what you want anymore and that I’m annoying and too clingy and that everything you said was not meant that way and oh my God I’m so terrified you could walk away that it leaves me as a nervous wreck and crying like an idiot, because why shouldn’t you, I’m a complete disaster and there is nothing to love about me and day by day I’m more convinced you could leave and I don’t know what to do or how to take this any longer

When you drop a glass or a plate to the ground, it makes a loud crashing sound. When a window shatters, a table leg breaks, or when a picture falls off the wall, it makes a noise. But as for your heart, when that breaks, it’s completely silent. You would think that for something so important, it would make the loudest noise in the whole world, or even have some sort of ceremonious sound like the gong of a symbol or the ringing of a bell. But it’s silent and you almost wish there was a noise to distract you from the pain.

The most important person you have to learn how to live with in this world is you.

Please do not tear her walls down if you do not intend to cross through the wreckage.

It’s real. It’s real because when other people hurt me I blame myself. I never think about the other person’s fault. I begin to tell myself, “‘You knew better. 
You shouldn’t have gotten attached.’ 
It’s happened so many times in the past why would you think this time it would change
? You let it happen. 
You knew it would happen and you didn’t do anything. 
You shouldn’t have even kept entertaining the conversation. 
You need to pull yourself back together and stop letting small things affect you so much.