The Night has a Thousand Eyes

Fuck I never post on here anymore. Maybe I just grew away from it. But I do consider this my online journal that nobody knows about. All I can say is I’m pretty fucking lost and heartbroken. I am not going to get into details because that would be about a books length long. All I can say is it’s getting easier and easier everyday. I lost my house, my car, and everything. I moved back to my parents with NOTHING. I still have nothing but I have to start again because I let to some man (manboy) take it all away from me because I gave it all to him. Stupid stupid stupid. I’ve known him for almost 10 years and I would have never expected him to do me dirty.  Don’t trust anyone. The mf told my MOM he wanted to MARRY ME!!! My parents loved this guy and so did I. Guess I didn’t know him at all. It’s getting easier to forget him and not think about everything and be in a state of shock everyday. The nightmares are getting less and less but still there often. The thought of me losing everything I worked hard is getting less devastating now, still fucking hurting about that. but im not a lost cause.