also its important to me that shane Knew he was gay the whole time, it was this Thing itches in the back of his brain, something he couldn't look at head on or really think about. bc admitting it was like giving up. but its not that he didn't Know. shane hollander didn't have to have rose tell him hes gay for him to be like "oh huh really i hadn't noticed" bc he Knew. and you can see it so clearly on his face in that scene how he knew. how thinking about it scares him, how Really looking at this part of himself feels impossible. but again shanes not just completely unselfaware, he knows this about himself he just Hopes he can make it work. that it doesnt really matter. he likes rose Enough, he likes girls Enough, it can be Enough

i don't think we as a fandom talk enough about how Ed and Stede can canonically wear each other's clothes comfortably. absolutely they share their closet and wear each other's clothes all the time (and in fact only still call some clothes "Ed's" or "Stede's" so they can get a kick out of swapping sometimes) and encourage each other to try new fashion they're nervous about by saying "that would be a great addition to our collection!" and they're so sweet about it. there's something so intimate and sweet about these two guys who both really enjoy clothes getting to share and enjoy fashion with each other to the point where all their nice clothes are just theirs instead of belonging to one of them

the scene on the rooftop in vegas says So Much So Quickly about both characters + their relationship + the ways that shane and ilya are different personally and structurally if ur talking about who was in the right i feel sorry for u seriously . Theres a whole beautiful meal there

This kind of who is right who is wrong way of looking at heated rivalry specifically creates such boring + uncurious conversations . Why was shane being self centered? Why was ilya being cruel? Why did they love each other through it? Why do people miscommunicate? (its not because theyre Evil) . What was missing on both sides that prevented them from communicating properly? What was standing between them structurally? ALL OF THESE ARE QUESTIONS THE SCENE IS ASKING U TO THINK ABOUTTT

and then in tampa They dont even establish that theyre exclusive . Thats shane letting himself like ilya “a little too much” thats him saying Ill do anything to have you Thats what i want . 😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍😍

Sleepy fucked out happy happy subspaced Shane whining a little everytime Ilya pulls back from a kiss. His arms around Ilya’s neck keeping him close close close when he needs to breath he just keeps his mouth resting on Ilya’s, nuzzling them together over and over. Ilya says they need to sleep and Shane is like “ok kisses till I go to sleep” and Ilya just nods because that’s his Shane and whatever he needs