ophelia

"...Princess" (Derogatory)

"Princess." (You have disproven several of my previous assumptions but I'm still guarded and critical.)

"Princess," (Mildly impressed but still snarky)

"Princess," (I am coming to terms with how much your office has demanded of you and am finally considering you an equal)

"Princess," (I genuinely respect you, your office, and how much you have grown beyond it since we have met.)

"Princess." (Uh oh I've started catching feelings and am now using your title to remind both you and myself of the distance between us.)

Screw fear. I’m telling my own damn story.

I assume this is about 'Little steps'? Well I'm not sure what kind of ending it is, I haven't written it, I haven't written for that story in a bit though I do intend to go back to it one day...I'm not sure when. I am writing another Bellamy-centered fic right now but I haven't given up on this. It is a blessing and a curse this story and I often think about just deleting it from Ao3 especially with the way readers are lately and how they don't leave comments, tell me how to write the story and discuss it in private groups that authors aren't privy to.

I'm not sure what I can tell you but I think that I've never intended for it to be with a sad ending even though most of my stories aren't too happy. If I have to pick up, I'd say it'll probably have a decent, happy ending. I don't plan on killing anyone I guess...again, I haven't thought about it much because people have been killing my buzz for this story from the start. I've had a few nasty, horrible comments which is why I didn't even want to post it on ao3 and I regret I ever did.

I do realize it's my most famous one, though and since I generally write only whump familial stuff that people aren't attracted to, this is something I am grateful for.

AO3 WAS CREATED BY FANS, FOR FANS

AO3 IS RUN BY FANS (VOLUNTEERS, NO LESS)

AO3 IS PART OF THE NON-PROFIT, ORGANIZATION FOR TRANSFORMATIVE WORKS

AO3 IS NOT OWNED BY ANY COMPANIES AND DOES NOT EARN REVENUE

AO3 OPERATES ON DONATIONS FROM FANS

again:

Omg omg omg I am 😍😍😍 Thank you for loving my story! 🥰🥰🥰💖

I am sorry I am not writing right now... I am stuck at work most of the time (I am an accountant - I mean a real one 😂 - and at least here in Italy this month is tax season - you have to submit your taxes asap, you have until the end of november) so I am extra busy! Also I have some wip (not dark Snily I am sorry) that I try to write when I can... But I plan to write more Snily! Dark or otherwise (hope you will like that too!).

For now I just have one more little short Snily fic posted... "Mine", you can find it on ao3. It is not dark but you have more dominant Lily (?)

Stealing things as a 10 year old in an orphanage where you had a miserable life and were ostracized and despised

Things Dumbledore thinks do not predestine someone to become an irredeemably evil dark lord:

Stealing a remembrall for attention

Joining the Death Eaters, and engaging in various failed assassination attempts that nearly lead to the deaths of several other students

Hanging a student upside down and stripping him naked in public

Luring a classmate to his death via werewolf

Plotting with your boyfriend to take over the world and brutlaly subjugate all the muggles

has it ever occurred to you that he was well in his rights to do that??? like, sure, love remus n all- but it was EXTREMELY dangerous to have him at hogwarts.

Bullshit.

Snape: Respects Lilys boundaries and stays away from her after the mudblood incident.

Does not stalk her.

Does not give her a love potion etc. eventhough he could.

Lets her go.

James: Literally threatens to hurt Lilys friend, if she doesn’t go out with him.

Hurts Snape out of sexual jealousy and to get Lilys attention.

James patronus doesn‘t match Lilys, it was a stag before he got together with her- it didn’t change to match hers. Snapes changed to match her doe- must be obsessed. Couldn‘t possibly be because he just loved her so much. No- must be an obsession.

Is noone gonna talk about the fact that Tonks patronus changed to match that of her husband?

Or agreed to spy on the most dangerous person on earth withoutht gaining anything.

With the prospect of being tortured and killed if they were ever found out.

Who risked being exposed by trying to save Lupins life at the battle of the seven Potters- eventhough they hated that man.

Who ignored forbidden activities their students did so they would not be punished by the deatheaters(,the carrows).

Or who lept out of a window so they wouldn‘t have to hurt his colleagues.

And still Severus remains the most hated.

To quote another post i can‘t find anymore:

„These are not the actions of someone who does not care.“

His actions show, that he cared deeply for the safety of his students and colleagues.

And still he is treated worse that Bellatrix or Barty or Regulus or Draco or Lucius.

When he was the most caring and devoted and human all of all of them.

Make it make sense.

1. It is his armor against the rest of the world, a physical way to represent the shutting out of others, a kind of bodily Occlumency that makes him feel safe.

2. It is impossible as an adult to do to him what the Marauders did to him as a child, I.E strip off any part of his clothing. There are so many layers and buttons I image it makes him feel physically and sexually safe as well. No eyes where he doesn’t want them. No hands where he doesn’t want them. No Wands to remove what he doesn’t want removed. (Could he possibly enchant his clothing too; to make it impossible for someone besides himself to undress him?)

And at the risk of getting a lot of hate, I have to ask if the Marauders had done the same thing with one of the Slytherin girls would those people still downplay it? Or is it that because it was Snape, everything is justified?

Sabiendo lo que vivió, aunque no sé vea realmente como lo desnudaron para burlarse ante tanta gente... ¿Cómo alguien le puede quitar importancia? ¿Cómo alguien puede ignorar este hecho?

Snape is the definition of angst.

Getting him to be your lover is hard, but becoming friends isn’t any easier. If you even suggest that you might be, his reaction is, “You are under the false impression that our relationship is more than colleagues/acquaintances. I am not your friend. It’d be silly to think otherwise,” but he doesn’t mean any of it! He’s just scared of showing his feelings to others and doesn’t want to burden you with his existence, so he retreats.

But he still cares for you. If you accidentally hurt yourself or get into a sticky situation, be prepared for a lecture. It doesn’t mean he thinks less of you, even if he may sound condescending; he is just worried for your well-being.

He is a massive hypocrite, though; if you ask him if he’s okay or needs help, he snaps back. “I am not a child. I am more than capable of looking after myself!” (is he, though?)

If you give him a gift, even if it’s such a small thing that requires practically no effort or thought, he refuses it until you insist multiple times because he’d “do anything for you to stop whining.” But in reality, he feels so touched. He cherishes it forever.

The above point holds for any kind of affection. If you ask for a hug, he rolls his eyes before embracing you in the most awkward way possible (but only once he is comfortable enough with you).

Don’t bother giving him compliments. He will only downplay his talents/skills/intellect at best or reply with self-deprecating remarks at worst.

If you catch him staring at you, he doubles down by glaring at you, almost as if you are in the wrong for just looking in his direction.

The only way to get him out of his shell is to confront him one-on-one, forcing him to come to terms with his feelings. He tries to get you to leave, but you have to stand your ground. If you tell him you care about him and want the best for him, he can only say, “I never asked you to!”

If you apologize to him for a small wrongdoing, he pretends he doesn’t care. He forgives you but doesn’t explicitly say it (he might let out a heavy sigh and suggest you two simply move on.) On the inside, though, he admires your humility and care for his feelings.

But if you really wrong him…let’s just say, don’t expect the same reaction from him. Yes, he’s used to people hurting him, but it doesn’t make it any easier when it happens again. If he comes to love you, he will find it in his heart to forgive you eventually. It won’t stop him from loving you, but he may need his space.

If you yell at him, even if you are not angry at him but are stressed out or had a bad day, he will leave you alone. He won’t speak to you unless it’s necessary, and not just for that one day. He’ll only continue talking to you once you give him the okay. But it’s not out of pettiness; he hates being a bother and is convinced any conflict means whatever relationship you have is doomed.