Beni

I want to make a look update but I can't...

I hate my life...

I have become a borderline alcoholic...

Would anyone care to see updates on me? Like in another blog site or something?

My account is a mess.

I don't know what I want to do with this account because I think I have different kinds of followers.

Just a warning. I do tend to try new things that I haven't been able to before. I like trying out new styles and stuff like that.

My purple hair has faded quite a lot... It was so pretty at first... Now it's dark brown-ish but it still looks nice.

Henlo it me again (⁠ꏿ⁠﹏⁠ꏿ⁠;⁠)

Tried fake lashes for the first time. I feel like I can't live without em now (⁠´⁠；⁠ω⁠；⁠｀⁠)

(btw I have huge dark eyes and I covered em with little bit pink concealer and tiiiiny ammount of liquid concelear. Plus I have a colour and blurring filter on. Not everything you see on the internet is real <3)

I've also started doing pilates at home.

I am done hating.

Meow (⁠っ⁠˘̩⁠╭⁠╮⁠˘̩⁠)⁠っ

I hate literally everyone.

But oddly, I am not sure wheter I hate or love myself.

Because I keep thinking how I am the only one who does stuff for me.

But at the same time I think I am too weak and undeserving of anything.

It's like I am in an abusive relationship with myself.

Not like I can leave and ignore myself because I am literally me.

I am never anyone's number one.

I want my bf to do stuff without having to ask.