Don't Move, Honey.

We were supposed to be mourning our 1D boys in our 80s. Not now. I’m speechless.

I just know it’s gonna really hit me the moment one of the boys says something and then I’m gonna lose it.

back in the day, i was 16 and the happiest moment of the day was logging in tumblr and reblogging new 1d stuff and being friends w people all around the world because this 1d thing just /connected/ us. and now i am 28. grieving a 1d member and feeling numb and nostalgic and confused and emotional. somehow that 1d connection never goes away. but i never thought it would join us all back together for such a fucked up tragic thing. it's insane.

it's crazy to think that memories you've had for years will just never look or feel the same again. all those memories from 2012 when i first got into 1D, all the concerts, all the songs and the first time hearing those songs, the first time watching music videos, the posts and memes here on tumblr... like none of it will ever feel the same. it'll always be tinged by loss and a degree of emptiness from here on out.

you know the post that's like: one day I'll be 45 at a party and ill hear a one direction song and ill be dancing my heart out because I never learned to love anything as much as I love one direction?......... yeah.......thinking of that right now

I hope the other four members are able to express their grief and sadness when and if they choose to without being met by anger because of the kind of person he was

Mood

also Mood: let’s drink wine and talk about how depressed we are

you still have so many years to meet so many people you never knew you could love so much