holding area

it used to (as of 4 minutes ago) make me really self conscious and distraught how everyone in my immediate family thinks i'm this mean, hyperaggressive, reactive person because that's in complete opposition to how i view myself and it hurts my feelings a lot, and i was working myself up about it just now and then i suddenly realized they don't know me at all and i can just totally ignore their opinion on my personality. it's so funny how you have to physically realize stuff like that, you can try and tell yourself stuff for years, but it will click when it clicks and there's no getting around it, you have to have the moment of realization where it sinks into your body and your body integrates the idea into your whole being idk!

not only is my intellectual life richer, but ever since I started listening to lectures while doing household chores my house is a lot cleaner too

just received notice that I am hosting a dinner party for 7 people in 6 hours I feel like I'm on a reality TV competition WISH ME LUCK XO!