My name is Luna and i am 22 now, I use she/her pronouns. This blog is mainly a mix of journalling, music recommendations, and trying to make friends or support others with recovery. I’m on the spectrum and have bpd so human interaction and relationships can be hard <3 I love talking to people but sometimes i get burnt out and my emotional regulation sucks. I love getting asks and messages though! I really care about my friends and always try to help however I can. I am not necessarily in active recovery but working a harm reduction regimen. I am transgender and asexual so if thats a problem please kindly fuck off.
Favorite TV shows are-
Spy X Family
Madoka Magica
Mr. Robot
Mob Psycho 100
Curb Your Enthusiasm
Sopranos
Aggretsuko
Tokyo Ghoul
Naruto
It’s Always Sunny in Philadelphia
(Too many to list honestly)
I honestly don’t watch all that many movies, but music is my life. Favorite Artists are-
Lana Del Slay
Sabrina Carpenter
Arctic Monkeys
Marina 💎
Crumb
Olivia Rodrigo
Flipturn
Treaty Oak Revival
Interests:
-Helping others with recovery
-Spreading positivity
-Anime
-Trying to make the most out of this life we have 💖
-Pokemon & Mario Kart
-Music
-Being with friends
-Fromsoft games (talk to me about any omg i love Elden Ring)
Trigger warning in advance for posts although i am trying to keep it positive ✨ Have a wonderful day, and remember to drink some water!
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I made the music recommendation account! @cherryrecsmusic I don’t care if i only get 1 follower; sharing music is special to me and with over 16k songs in my library I’m really excited to share the stuff that makes me happy with others. I mean i’m on a lot of medications but to me music is the most efficient and I listen to at least 8+ hours a day but often like 12. It can really help with maintaining a positive mindset or dealing with emotions.
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i came out to my dad and feel like i’ve taken ten steps backwards.
Not only am i gaslighting myself with “maybe this isn’t really who i am because its not how i was born” but he said the exact same shit to me. After i said I have been struggling with gender dysphoria and my identity is female and i am going to transition he says “How. And why.” 😪
”God made you a certain way” so what. “You’re sad because you’re not a girl??” “so you want to die. Because you’re not a woman?? I don’t think thats your real problem.” “Yeah your depression does not come from feeling girly” “your life is already very fucking difficult and you seriously want to add this to it to make it a fuck of a lot more difficult?” “Stop being immature take those headphones out” “idk what you expect me to say! Do you want me to clap? Do you want an award? You’re just going to make life so much harder for yourself.” “You are not female, you were born male” “
Dude i put in headphones to avoid sobbing and so i could stay safe because you put me in crisis mode real fucking fast
Hey, I know it’s been tough lately… But you deserve good things and love and kindness… most of all you deserve to show them towards yourself because you’ve been through a lot. Big hugs 🫂
I don’t know how I didn’t see this earlier!! Whoever wrote this, I love you!! 🥹💖 thank you so much for blessing my day. This was very thoughtful and kind. I hope you are doing amazing 🩷🩷🩷🩷
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By the way, I don’t respond to hateful asks, much less ANONYMOUS hateful asks. It’s really sad and pathetic that someone hates themselves so much they feel the need to anonymously insult or invalidate someone elses identity without even having the decency or guts to do it without hiding?
It’s honestly just silly that I’m expected to take it seriously. I really am sorry that your life is so upsetting that you need to feel better about yourself by putting others down. I hope you find the inner peace you so desperately need!! (And not even misspelling but using the entirely wrong word? Come on now. Anonymous, grammatically incorrect, random attack on my identity and you didn’t even spell check? I’m sensitive but not THAT sensitive) Thanks for the laugh babe 😘
I am tired of being invalidated and told that I am not a woman and will never be due to my biology. Sure I don’t look femme right now but my identity is true to me and causes a great amount of strife with dysphoria. ALL I want is to find acceptance as a woman deserving of respect and dignity and live my life in peace. The dysphoria I feel is so bad I struggle with $uicidal urges on a daily basis. I am not a fucking man and yes i want to off myself for not being born female but the sole reason i’m still alive is clinging to the hope that one day I will be able to be ok with what I see in the mirror.
Also. My identity isnt a fucking kink. I’m asexual, zero part of my transition is related to trying to please ANYONE other than myself. I’m not an object. I am disabled and i am fragile and sensitive but NOT an object and deserve respect. Don’t message me asking for a slave. My low self esteem is not an invitation to be dehumanized.
Also, to whatever ignorant bigots that may stumble across this, transgenderism isnt a choice. Gender dysphoria is a real mental disorder and so many people die from it because the world is so hateful. I, along with many, many other people suffering from dysphoria, am chronically $uicidal and struggle on a daily basis to continue on. The CHOICE isn’t “oh i just woke up feeling kinky to be a woman, lets transition!” Its an long term or life time, deeply depressing, identity crisis, struggle to accept yourself knowing you are in the wrong body. The choice is to not fucking off yourself and to be BRAVE and decide that you deserve a future as the gender you truly are!! The concept of “transgenderism is a choice” in transphobia and bigotry is a misguided and hateful assumption. We can’t live life suffering from dysphoria forever and it takes a great deal of strength to even live and function, dealing with the indescribable dysphoria.
I believe every transgender person who comes out is a beautiful angel and deserves an award for being able to accept themselves despite the world constantly putting us down and invalidating our existence. Transitioning is like fighting a war of staying alive despite hate and discrimination and is extremely challenging and anyone who has the bravery to do so is incredibly strong. We aren’t freaks, objects, or weird. We just want to be accepted 🩷🩷🩷
Sorry I’ve decided for my own mental health that I’m not coming back. Deleting all my accounts and leaving for a long time.
Thank you for being kind to me, I appreciate you a lot Luna.
Alex
This makes me very very upset. I understand protecting your mental health but I ALSO want to protect you and support you so deeply. You are one of my best friends….. i want want to lose you
That voice in your head telling you that you are not worth peoples time is a fucking insensitive liar and i am so upset she keeps being so mean to you. You are so, so much braver than you know. You are so strong and toxic ASSHOLES existing will NEVER determine your worth.
I only didnt respond to the other ask because I didn’t know if you wanted me to answer publicly or not I figured I would wait to see if you reached out. I sent you friend requests on Roblox. Please, please stay in contact. Im not going to be safe if anything happens to you because you were harassed by fucking ANONYMOUS FUCKING LOSER FUCKS. I need you to be supported and loved in this extremely overwhelming time.
NOBODY!!!!!! Has a right to bully you off the internet 😭😭🫂🫂🫂🫂
Help i used to read ffs as “for fucks sake” and now i just read “facial feminization surgery” everytime and it makes reading out sentences sound so silly mentally 🥲
“This is insane ffs” omg i wanna see!! *processes, realizes the context has absolutely nothing to do with what im thinking*
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I don’t think people really understand how severe borderline personality disorder is in everyday life. It makes day to day functioning extremely difficult, and emotional regulation/relationship management feel next to impossible. It comes with a very deep intense fear of abandonment and a desperation to try and stop that abandonment. Different symptoms manifest differently for people but it’s never easy. This isn’t an ableism post to offend people who are undiagnosed; this is because it impacts so many people and understanding the illness is important for everyone. Trigger warning for statistics involving suicide.
*The amygdala responsible for processing fear is more active, whereas the prefrontal cortex responsible for reasoning is usually less developed. Theres a scientific explanation to why we feel so scared all the time.
*Over the past 3 decades, the prevalence of psychotic symptoms among people with BPD has ranged from 26-54%. Delusions and paranoia are extremely common and we can’t just “talk ourselves out of it.” Thats a stupid thing to say to someone.
*10% of people with Borderline personality disorder die by suicide. It has one of the highest mortality rates of any mental illness.
*Around 70% of people with BPD attempt suicide at least once in their life.
*25% of people with anorexia also have BPD, and BPD and bulimia coexist with a rate of 28%.
*Between 40-71% of people with BPD report sexual abuse during childhood and physical is also quite common. Keep in mind this is an extremely sensitive topic and is likely under reported.
*Specific percents of people with BPD that experience specific conditions- alcohol use disorders 57.3%, PTSD 39.2%, specific phobias 37.5%, drug use disorders 36.2%, GAD 35.1%, Major Depression 32.1%, Bipolar 1- 31.8%, ADHD 25%, Panic Disorder 18.8%, OCD 15.6%
*BPD comes with an INTENSE fear of abandonment. We all too often feel like we will always be alone and deal with anxiety that relationships are in jeopardy or could suddenly end.
*Splitting is a core trait of BPD, where our feelings our so strong towards someone that they become overwhelming and morals kind of go out the window and obsession takes over. Our reason for being becomes this persons existence, we feel emotions extremely intensely, we want to be with them 24/7, and it feels impossible to imagine being without them. As a consequence, break ups are extremely dangerous and support following one is CRUCIAL.
*Hospitalization genuinely is not supported by any evidence to be effective or helpful for BPD symptom management and most (specific % wasn’t given) patients continue to feel suicidal upon discharge. Inpatient has actually been proven to be regressive in cases, with many BPD patients being repeatedly hospitalized creating trauma.
*A core aspect of BPD is basically chronic suicidal ideation and emotional instability combined with self destructive behaviors. Don’t judge your friend or family member for rapidly switching moods or having certain issues or being unable to emotionally regulate. Don’t blame someone stuck in a cycle for self harming behaviors but rather seek to understand and support. It takes us a lot to survive life as is.
Sources:
Borderline personality disorder (BPD) is a chronic and life-altering mental health disorder that affects mood, self-image, and relationships
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Borderline personality disorder (BPD) is associated with suicidal behaviors and self-harm. Up to 10% of BPD patients will die by suicide. Ho
I’ve gone by Luna with my sister for maybe like 8 months now or so and ums I really resonate with that name so I’m going to try switching to it on here and see how natural it feels 🩷 (the real question is if ill ever feel feminine enough physically to commit to it irl but nobody knows that yet ❤️)
