synopsis: nct dream and you buried a memory capsule filled with letters on the day of your high school graduation. you guys finally open it after receiving letters from mark to meet up at the location of the capsule, but after years of not communicating with each other everyone becomes tense at the reunion.
genre: fluff
a/n: i suddenly remembered a scene from the anime Orange and so this story was inspired by the scene where the adult version of the characters read the letters they wrote in the past which they placed in their memory capsule. itâs also a bit long :)
you checked the mail due to your motherâs request and shuffled through the letters, not expecting anything to be addressed to you. however, you spot a letter with your name on it in familiar handwriting, but you couldnât recall who it belonged to.Â
sitting down on your bed you open the letter with curiosity.
âdear y/n,
i know it has been a while since we graduated high school, but itâs me, mark lee. since we're all on summer break from college, i thought why not finally meet up as the group has drifted apart since our graduation and i hope it doesnât seem weird but i would sometimes remember our silly shenanigans afterschool, the places we went to, and being scolded by our parents for getting home late. remember that one-time haechan got grounded because he got into an argument with his parents and we had to sneak him out of his house because he was begging us to let him go with us to a concert? oh, and that day chenle tried to learn how to skate but ended up falling and his phone went flying and got shattered. i canât even forget how on prom night we left the dance early and went to the beach near the amusement park. but, of course, you donât have to come but i hope you do. the meeting place is where we buried our memory capsule and the date is saturday at 5PM. after all, we did promise to open it before we graduated college.
sincerely, markâ
you didnât realize you were tearing up until you finished reading the letter. you didnât want your group to drift apart but as time went by everyone changed and so one by one the group no longer talked to one another. everyone was simply busy with their own lives and some living in colleges far away from home and eventually, we replaced one another with new people.
of course, you dearly missed them and wondered how much everyone has grown with the fear of how much everyone has changed as well.
saturday arrived and now you were at a park, in front of your childhood friends who no longer looked like kids. mark lost a lot of his baby fat from his face and no longer looked as innocent as he was. renjun dressed up neatly and no longer had his snaggletooth but his height remained the same. jeno became more physically fit and had a growth spurt. jaemin remained the same handsome kid from high school but his style was quite different. haechan still had the same mischievous face with an air of charisma around him. chenle didnât change much besides his height and losing some of his baby fat. jisung remained freakishly tall with his face being more defined.
âso should we start digging,â mark finally breaks the silence, as he holds up his mini shovel.
âyes, shall we dig our graves while were at it?â haechan adds.
âglad to know you havenât changed,â jaemin comments, smiling.
we all awkwardly grab a mini shovel and start digging until jisung starts screaming, âthereâs a bug!â
âhow do you live in a dorm by yourself, geez,â jeno remarks, flinging the bug somewhere else.
âhe probably eats instant ramen,â renjun chimes in.
âi mean instant ramen is quite delicious,â i reply with jisung nodding in agreement.
âwhy did we have to bury our capsule so deep down like this is gonna take us ages,â haechan sighs.
âoh quit complaining you just donât want to help,â mark replies, âbe more like chenle whoâs quietly digging.â
chenle just turns his head towards us in confusion.
we finally finished digging after lord knows how long.
mark shakes the dirt off the metal box and takes off the lid, revealing a pile of letters.
on the day of your high school graduation, the group decided to write a letter that consisted of their favorite memory with the group and placed it in a memory capsule.
âokay, so the first letter is renjunâs!â mark exclaims, handing over renjunâs letter to him.
he clears his throat and starts to read.
âi have too many fun memories with everyone but the most memorable to me was the day i arrived back home from my study aboard program. i can still vividly remember getting off the plane and entering the airport and seeing a huge sign that read âwelcome home our renjun baby!â and to say i was embarrassed is an understatement, worse was the fact that you all shouted, âour baby is here!â and i ran quickly to you guys to shut you all up, but instead i got bombarded with hugs. despite the embarrassment, i felt so grateful for you guys and realized how lucky i am to have such supportive friends who picked me up from the airport at 5 in the morning and showered me with affection,â renjun finishes reading, becoming teary-eyed.
âi remembered you cried that day too,â haechan teases, giving him a smile.
âdonât remind me,â renjun retorts, smiling with tears in his eyes.
âaw our baby!â jaemin exclaims, pouting a little, causing renjun to roll his eyes.
âitâs okay we can be babies together,â jisung says, trying to comfort him.
âit isnât,â renjun comments, shaking his head.
âalright, next oneâs hae- next oneâs chenleâs,â mark announces skipping haechanâs letter.
âhey!â haechan shouts, tackling mark causing everyone to laugh watching the two play fight.
âalright alright you can go,â mark says, pushing haechan off him.
âalright itâs my turn!â he exclaims.
âunfortunately so,â jeno mutters.
âshut up jeno lee. anyways, my favorite memory was, of course, the time you all had to sneak me out of the house so i can go to the music concert.â
âthat was hilarious. you were so scared to jump from your window,â renjun comments.
âi prioritize my well-being, i could have broken a rib or two.â
âyea yea.â
âokay so i remember-,â haechan continues.
âyou remember when haechan did break a bone from falling down a flight of stairs at school. he just kept rolling like a pebble down the stairs,â mark mentions.
âthat was so funny for some reason,â y/n says, as everyone starts laughing except haechan.
âcan yâall stop interrupting me! geez, give a kid a break.â haechan says, bitterly.
âalright continue pebble,â chenle remarks.
âdonât try me chenle. so as i was saying that night i was struggling to get out of my window without making a sound. you donât even know how scared i was when i accidentally knocked over a book. after i finally jumped down from my window-â haechan says.
âmore like toppled down, but continue,â jisung comments, receiving a playful glare from haechan.
âand we got into markâs rusty ford car with y/n still sleeping in the back seat. i remember jaemin shouting so much at the concert my ears started to hurt. but my favorite part of that night wasnât the concert but it was us going to a diner afterwards. we all just threw our bodies onto the seats. i remember jisung ended up choking on his milkshake, like three times that night, and renjun was struggling to open the ketchup bottle. it kind of sounds boring because weâve been to many other fun places but it felt nice having a very late dinner with everyone and everyone just laughing together like nothing else mattered in the world and the fact that you guys actually decided to help sneak me out was weird to me until i asked mark about it, because mark is such a goody-two-shoes so i thought he wouldnât like me sneaking out. so, when i asked he simply replied, âi donât know. everything just seems so much more fun with you, itâs like you have this ability to make people laugh and forget about their worries so i thought a concert with you would be quite fun,â and those words stuck to me,â haechan finishes.
âfirst of all my car back then was not even rusty and second of all i canât believe you remembered that,â mark comments, ruffling haechanâs hair.
âi honestly thought i was going to die the moment i choked,â jisung adds, shuddering a little.
âso dramatic,â jeno remarks, playfully smacking the back of jisungâs head.
ânext oneâs me, right?â chenle asks mark.
âyep, here you go,â mark replies, handing over the letter.
âmy favorite memory was the day renjun introduced me to the rest of the group at lunch. i was so nervous when i transferred into the school and didnât make any friends for a few weeks until renjun dropped his art supplies in the halls and i helped him collect his things-â chenle starts, smiling to himself.
âthat was so embarrassing and some of my paint spilled on me so i ended up walking around with painted pants,â renjun comments.
âquite fashionable,â you tease, giving him a playful smile.
âanyways, so after that, we realized we were going to the same class and we ended up talking about how the class was so boring we were also so close to just turning around and skipping class. renjun decided to introduce me to you guys and i honestly made the right decision to sit with you guys. at first, you all seemed a bit crazy and loud so i was kind of annoyed by you guys so i avoided you all. but, after sitting down with you guys i wished i had tried to get to know you guys earlier because afterwards my life became so much more exciting and i felt so accepted by you all. you guys felt like a new home to me and friends i would never want to leave,â chenle ends, the last line made everyone a bit uncomfortable because that was exactly what we all did, we all left each other.
âum so i just wanted to say iâm glad we all showed up and i donât know about you guys, but i really missed every one of you. sometimes i would go to cafes and think about how much renjun would love this place or i would go to a vinyl shop and find vinyls haechan would die for. so basically, i wished we all were still close but everyone changes so i canât do anything about it,â you say, breaking the silence, looking down at your hands, avoiding everyone's glance. you thought to yourself âwas that too much?â
âiâm glad i wasnât the only one,â jaemin sighs in relief, âi would think of you guys from time to time as well, but when one by one everyone abandoned the group chat i felt like it was too selfish of me if i asked why we were all drifting apart because i donât know what you all were going through.â
âiâm sorry. i was the first one to stop communicating with you guys after that argument with haechan. i had failed a final and i got fired from my part-time job and i was just so stressed that i blew up on haechan,â jeno speaks up, looking guiltily at the ground.
âyou shouldnât be sorry i didnât know what you were going through and i should have been more understanding,â haechan reassures him.
âthis is getting too melancholy let us read the next letter,â renjun says.
âjaeminâs next,â mark announces.
âalright my friends, since you opened this we must be quite different. i hope renjun can grow taller like he wishes.â jaemin reads, laughing as renjun sends him a glare, âanywaysâ jaemin clears his throat, âremember the day when i found out i got cheated on by my ex?â
âi couldnât believe she cheated on you like she looked so innocent,â haechan comments, shaking his head.
âi mean renjun looks innocent but is he?â you reply, causing renjun to pout saying heâs innocent and all that stuff.
âokay so, i can still vividly remember how everyone realized i was upset and you all showed up to my house with a bunch of my favorite snacks and just barged in. i remember how y/n grabbed a blanket and wrap me in it, how mark was stuffing me with food and how haechan was making jokes to cheer me up. we even watched my favorite horror movie despite renjun hating them. that was my first time being vulnerable in front of you guys and i was worried about how you all would react when you saw me in that state. but, i remember how we all sat down on the floor after the movie and you all kept telling me it was okay to cry, that there was nothing wrong with it. i really felt at home with you guys and how we were all ride or die for one another.â jaemin continues, folding his letter.
âyour crying face is something else,â haechan teases, earning him a playful jab from jaemin.
âalright, jisungâs next,â mark announces.
âmy favorite moment was when i had a dance competition coming up and i was struggling to balance dance practice with school work. i was also behind on the dance and slowed my team down. i remember i walked into school sleepy and chenle asked if i slept last night and i answered no. so i ended up spilling the beans and told him everything and how i was so stressed and inundated by all the work and practices. so you all decided to help me with my homework and even sent me study guides for upcoming exams. i remember you all showed up to the competition and cheered like crazy. i almost made a mistake after hearing chenleâs high pitched scream. jaemin and haechan were holding such big signs to cheer on our team like they were at a concert for just my team. it was so funny because afterwards chenle lost his voice after all his yelling and renjun would tell him to shut up every time he tried to talk after losing his voice,â jisung shyly finishes and glows red.
âwe really went everywhere with one another huh?â jeno mentions.
âyeah we were pretty inseparable at that time,â jisung says, muttering the last three words.
âjeno, youâre next,â mark says, tossing the letter to him.
âthatâs our baseball star,â renjun jokes, as jeno catches the letter with ease.
âanyways,â jeno says, shrugging off renjunâs comment and opens his letter, âthis is like my 20th time rewriting this letter because i couldnât decide which memory was my favorite because theyâre all so special. on a certain day, my mother fell ill and had to be taken to the hospital and out of desperation i called jaemin and he immediately rushed to the hospital. he kept reassuring me that everything will be fine and that the doctor would be able to take care of it. then a few minutes later chenle rushed into the hospital, then haechan, eventually, you all arrived, breathing heavily. everyone was trying their hardest to cheer my family up, y/n was comforting my sister and you all even tried to calm down my dad. fortunately, my mother was well and i can still remember how everyone finally relaxed.â
âi couldnât even imagine how scared you were,â you say, with everyone silently agreeing.
âi still remember how you were crying tears of joy when you heard your mother was fine,â jaemin mentions, eyes filled with nostalgia.
âi really appreciated how you guys immediately came to the hospital after hearing the news,â jeno says, a soft tone in his voice that was rare from him.
âitâs what we should do. weâre friends after all,â jaemin replies, smiling fondly causing jeno to smile back in gratitude.
ânot to ruin the lovely atmosphere but my letters next,â mark says, already opening his letter, well more like ripping it open.
âi forgot you were here,â haechan jokes earning him a jab from mark, poor kid gets jabbed so much.
âto get to the point my favorite memory was when we left prom night early because it was painstakingly boring. we all just stood near the food station and drank a ridiculous amount of fruit punch. then we all came to a concord that we should just leave and go to the beach, where they were setting off fireworks that same night. we brought some light sparklers on the way and just sat on the sidewalk of the beach, playing around with our sparklers. i remember how haechan kept chasing after me to get me into the water. i also remember how the amusement park next to the beach was open that night. so we got on a ferris wheel and i was sitting with haechan and y/n. i remember how we all expressed our sorrows of graduating high school, how much we were going to miss one another. once we reached the top of the ferris wheel, haechan made the three of us pinky promise to never lose contact with one another and i want to ask if we did keep this promise,â mark reads, the last line causing the atmosphere to decline.
âat least all of us are here. doesnât that mean weâre willing to start over again?â haechan speaks up, with the same hopeful smile he would always have.
âyeah,â we all mutter.
âum anyways, y/nâs letter is the last one,â mark says, clearing his throat to change the topic.
âi couldnât pick a favorite memory. just being with you guys made every memory beautiful. i felt at home when i was with you guys. i hope that weâre still friends when we open these letters. if we're not, i hope reading them made us closer and i hope it doesnât seem like a dumb wish. i hope it isnât an impossible wish either,â you read, with bated breath.
no one said anything but instead looked away from one another.
âare we going to make my dumb wish true?â you finally say, smiling and a bit hopeful.
âi wonât grant your wish,â renjun replies, shooting you down.
âwhy?â you ask, despite being scared of his reply.
âbecause that wish has already come true,â he replies, smiling at the others.
âthatâs cheesy as hell,â jeno says, âbut i agree. i missed you all.â
âso...â haechan says, turning to mark with a playful look.
âfineâ mark sighs, âride or dies?â
âride or dies,â everyone replies.
haechan looks at mark again causing him to sigh once more.
âyouâre annoying haechan,â mark says before exclaiming, âyo dream!â
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synopsis: y/n watches as her seven friends grow distant. as more conflict arises as the streets become vacant in broad daylight. as months pass by without direct contact, jeno becomes a person that only appears in their memories. haechan becomes more and more irritable even with mark. jaemin no longer sends his photos asking the group to pick a filter. while mark reevaluates if his friendships are genuine or out of convenience as classes shift online. chenle only seems to cause more conflict as renjun enters and exits the chat continuously in which y/n has to add him back in everytime. jisung joins jeno as a ghost participant in the dream chat. the group suffocates even without their masks. friends with a distance caused by a pandemic struggle to understand each other. will they remain loyal or haunt each other's memories?
a/n: i was supposed to write this 2-3 years ago but forgot about it after closing my blog. so it's just a story idea!
a/n: i said blue bird would get a sequel but as i was writing it i felt it was better left without one. so i apologize for not keeping my promise. i also have no idea why i thought of this but romance animes have a funny amount of tropes so why the heck not. also please take this with a grain of salt. it was purely made for entertainment. also if you didnât watch any romance animes then thereâs a lot of spoilers. yes, i am still on hiatus. iâll probably be back after all my college decisions come out :)
mark: he reminds me of tohru just a tiny bit. since tohru always looks out for others and keeps her problems to herself. like when she silently cries over her motherâs death without relying on others. mark in dream was a leader to the members and he always tried to look out for them not only because he has to but because he wants to. mark is the glue of nct dream as tohru is the glue to the sohmas.
renjun: the tsundere trope. thereâs so many tsundere main characters in anime and i thought it was befitting of our boy, renjun. often times trying to fight his members is his way of showing âloveâ. a prince tsundere in the making. like a mild kyo in my opinion, mild because kyoâs character is more violent than renjun but theyâre both very sensitive with certain topics. the kyo to markâs tohru. tsunderes arenât just people with unjustified anger (some are tho). theyâre people who donât fully understand how to channel their feelings in a better way and tend to protect themselves by being strong and sometimes distant.
jeno: is very patient and calm almost like those black haired male leads minus the rudeness that some of them have. kind of gives me sakura vibes from horimiya. how sheâs kind and calm amongst most of the characters and doesnât really show her feelings much at the beginning. he also reminds me of miyamura because like jeno miyamura is seen as quiet and gloomy but once he befriends hori he starts showing his feelings and becomes a more dynamic character, being aggressive with my friends. the members represents hori and her friends because jeno at first seems quiet, but once you watch more nct content jeno is much more than just a quiet person. he can be aggressive and funny at times as well because people donât have flat personalities. (oh lord this got so long, my bad)
donghyuck: that funny guy in the group of friends. you know what i mean? there's the stoic main character and the kind heroine and then there's that one brightly colored hair guy thatâs making fun of people and is the extroverted friend of the stoic male lead. i donât know how to explain this. been ages since iâve watched a good romance anime. chenle and him kind of remind me of the twins from ouran highschool host club.
jaemin: reminds me of shouta kazehaya, the nice guy in romance animes, who most of the time never gets the girl. jaemin is extremely popular even before debut and was always nice to people. jaemin is also seen to be very caring of the members and not partaking in donghyuckâs bets and games. like that time renjun lost and had to clean the table, but jaemin kindly tried to help him. similar to how kazehaya defends and helps sawako. kazehaya is also popular and outgoing. heâs the male lead to our heroine, jisung.Â
chenle: his personality is similar to donghyuck, being the bright haired and cheeky character. the one saying the wrong thing that leads to the female lead misunderstanding the male lead, but of course unintentionally. reminds me of those boisterous female characters; the oneâs that are always smiling and befriending everyone like a deredere. of course, chenle isnât a 2D character and has his bad days or quieter days.
jisung: he feels like kuronuma sawako from kimi ni todoke. the whole shy and bad at communications that sawako struggles with is similar to jisung. since he isnât good with strangers and is pretty shy with them. minus the whole creepy vibe sawako would be portrayed to have. however, instead of a male lead helping her, jisung has the members. i also feel like heâd have that cliche falling scene. the one where the girl falls and lands on the male lead. jisung just has the innocent trait that most heroines have.
a/n: requested! please be safe and take care of your health. i wonât be posting for a while until i feel motivated again. thank you to everyone who spent their time reading my stories even if it was only this one. happy new years! âĄ
jaemin and you were stuck at home watching the annual new years ball drop, which was pretty uneventful, and involved a lot of channel switching and complaining about how long the wait is.
âi thought 2020 would be a better year,â jaemin sighs as he opens another bag of popcorn.
âdidnât we all?â you sigh along with him.
â2020 was such a mess.â
âhey! we started dating in 2020,â you exclaim, lightly shoving him.
âletâs be honest weâre a mess too.â
âbut iâm glad iâm stuck in this pandemic with you and grateful weâre both healthy. that we got through this year despite our occasional fights,â you say, slumping back onto the couch.
âdonât get me wrong i donât regret this year. a lot of people fought for a better society and a lot of things changed. of course, i got to get closer to you and-â jaemin replies.
âoh 2 minutes left!â you exclaim, cutting off jaemin.
âwow. itâs okay cut me off,â he says sarcastically.
âokay okay iâm sorry, but you got a minute to say whatever you want,â you chuckle.
âwhat? do you expect me to kiss you?â he scoffs.
âless than a minute left,â you announce, watching the live countdown.
âugh fine. iâm glad youâre the person i ended up quarantining with because youâre someone i just canât seem to get tired of. also thanks for staying with me while i had mental breakdowns. thanks for always being the fun person you are and for just being you. i love you most and happy-â jaemin quickly responds as he races against time, but before he could finish his statement your soft lips gently presses against his as the ball drops.
âi love you always and happy new years, jaemin. youâre using chapstick; iâm surprised,â you say, dramatically covering your mouth in surprise.
âcome here,â jaemin replies with a sigh. but, of course, you run away.
âHEY! where are you going?â jaemin shouts, running after you with a pillow.
hi! i just want to say that you're the cutest! i want to be your friend :(
i don't know if your request are open but i hope that you could do some scenarios with jeno or jaemin! christmas party or maybe something like kissing in the new year (is my birthday on 02/01 and i think is sooo romantic kissing while is turning a new year
of course! iâll try to write your request before new years! sorry for replying late :(
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a/n: iâm still working on the sequel to blue bird, but iâm struggling with the story line and i donât want to rush it. so, itâll take me awhile! for now, I wanted to write a short story :)
renjun patiently waits for you at your local diner. sipping on his milkshake, watching the rain fall on the window pane.
âoh, youâre early too,â you say, slumping down onto the seat.
âyoung lady, you shouldnât sit like that,â renjun teases, pointing a finger as he reprimands you.
âah, youâre annoying,â you reply, slapping his finger away.
âyour dear best friend is annoying? iâm offended,â he replies, hands held dramatically against his chest.
â just hurry up. what do you need that i had to walk through the heavy rain for?â you sigh, ordering a milkshake.
âiâm going to an art school out of state,â he says.
âout of what?â you exclaim, dropping your wallet.
âout of state,â renjun clarifies, chuckling at your reaction.
âi mean itâs cool with me, but you better not ghost me afterwards. iâm your âdear best friendâ after all,â you mock as you thank the waitresses for the milkshake.
âhmm, that wasnât the reaction i wanted,â he replies with a pout.
âiâm not crying over you going away for school. itâs not like youâre breaking off our friendship,â you reply with a shrug, chugging down your milkshake.
âyouâre gonna choke if you drink so fast.â
âno iâm not-,â you choke on your words.
âdumbass,â renjun laughs, handing you a napkin.
âis that all you wanted to say?â you ask, wiping your lips.
âi have a present. i was gonna give it to you when i leave, but thatâs still months away,â he answers, taking out a sketchbook.
âwhatâs this for? youâre giving it to me?â you ask, taking the book from him.
âmmhmm.â
opening the book, you see the various sketches he had drew with dates labelled under them.
âare these-â you ask.
âyes, theyâre our memories,â he replies, cutting with off.
âis your mission to make me cry?â you sniffle.
âmaybe? read the last page,â renjun smiles.
dear idiot,
i guess itâs messed up for me to tell you this when iâm moving away soon. but after spending middle and high school with you, i started to realize some feelings. my insults became an endearment towards you and no longer in a friendship way. if you really canât understand what iâm trying to say by now, youâre really something else y/n. if you donât understand then ask me :)
âare you confessing to me?â you bluntly ask.
âhmm, maybe your dumb,â he replies with a smirk.
âso, youâre not?â
âi was joking, y/n. my lovely y/n, i like you,â he confesses, despite his confident face you could see his ears redden.
âdid you ask jaemin for advice on how to confess? because âlovely y/nâ, you must be out of your mind,â you chuckle, playfully pulling his red ears.
âit still weighs on me heavily,â renjun says, looking out the window.
âwhat?â
âhow far iâll be from everyone. i know iâm not moving away permanently, but it still feels sad. like we used to be so excited to just graduate, but now that we actually are is something that feels bittersweet. perhaps iâm being too sentimental,â he says, drawing a heart against the cold window panes.
âhmm, for me i just like being a teenager. where i could still stay a little confused and lost,â you reply.
âhey, i got a great idea!â he exclaims, turning to face you with excited eyes,
âoh no...â
âitâs not a bad thing,â he protests.
âsure sure,â you shrug, swirling your straw.
âa memory capsule with the whole group and then we come back to visit it when we turn a certain age or for a certain event,â he announces.
âif the rest of the group would even do it,â you reply sarcastically.
âcome on. we could put a cute dream sticker on the box. decorate it with stickers or paint it. doesnât that sound fun?â
synopsis: the budding friendship of renjun and y/n who seem to be polar opposites.Â
genre: fluff + angst
warning: mention and acts of abuse (iâll make a note before and after the scene!)
a/n: i hope everyoneâs okay and signing petitions! iâve also missed a bunch of the dream memberâs birthdays because i havenât been motivated to write anything and post. again please sign petitions, wear masks, and stay safe!
UPDATE: will not be getting a sequel. i apologize for the request.
âstop acting like you understand me,â you yell at the slender boy.
âthatâs because youâre not letting me,â he yells back.
ârenjun donât you know how not to be nosy,â you ask, seething.
âitâs not being nosy itâs called i donât want you to go through all this alone,â renjun replies.
âeven if i told you, you wouldnât understand.â
âand why is that?â
âbecause god damn it, renjun youâre a golden child. a damn prince and iâm someone my family could care less about. an angel and a devil arenât meant to understand each other,â you yell leaving the boy flabbergasted as you walk away.
***
âmother,â renjun calls out as he arrives home for winter break.
âoh my, i see my baby has grown a bit,â his mother comes to hug him.
âyouâre just being nice. my height has remained the same for a whole year already,â he replies hugging her back.
âhowâs y/n?â she asks causing renjun to pause for a moment.
âis it possible for parents to not love their own child?â he asks as he takes off his coat.
âiâm sure most parents love their child but there are some that donât. why? did something happen?â she asks with a worried look.
âno nothing happened. iâll go wash up,â he replies with a faint smile and takes his suitcase to his room.
***
âi donât really see why you had the audacity to come back home,â says a woman.
âthe academy told me i had to come home mother,â you reply as you stare down at your feet.
âwe pay so much for your tuition and yet they canât let you stay there for break?â
âit seems so.â
âjust get out of my sight and stay in your room like you always do,â your so called mother says in annoyance as she lights a cigarette.
âyes mother,â you reply in a monotone voice as you quietly walk upstairs to your room.
***
âoh weâre having hot pot?â renjun asks as he comes downstairs for dinner.
âof course, itâs your favorite after all i havenât seen you for awhile,â his mother says.
âwhenâs dad coming back from his business trip?â he asks as he sits down at the table.
âin three days,â she replies as she plates some food for him.
âthanks and you need to eat too,â renjun chuckles as he takes the plate.
âmy son needs to gain some weight and grow up strong,â she replies with adoration.
***
âmiss can i come in?â a maid asks as she knocks on your bedroom door.
âis it dinner?â you ask.
âyes.â
âthen come in.â
the maid quietly walks in and places the food on a table then quickly walks out.
you roll off your bed and sit yourself down at the table.
âthey always forget iâm allergic to peanuts,â you mutter as you notice the cake topped with them.
the loud chatter of the floor below could be heard as the rest of the family enjoy dinner together.
âbrother must be home too,â you say to yourself as you pick at your food.
***
you ignored all the messages renjun would text you during winter break which led to renjun having a whole conversation with himself as he wonders why you became so enraged that day.
winter break finally came to an end leaving both you and renjun to start packing for the academy once again.
***
âthe miss is leaving today madam,â the maid informs your mother.
âdidnât i tell you not to report useless things to me?â she asks in annoyance.
âi finally have a few days left of my break without her being home,â a young male says as he focuses on his game.
âwe should have sent her out of the country for schooling,â she sighs.
âfather said sheâd might be in trouble if she went by herself.â
âyour father has always been soft-hearted.â
you try your best to carry your suitcase without making any noise but it was no use.
âcanât you be more quiet!â your mother scolds.
âsorry,â you say as you heave your suitcase down the stairs, but another thud could be heard.
[act of abuse ahead]
as if already knowing what was to occur next, you shut your eyes tightly as a hand lands harshly on your cheek.
âsuch a nuisance,â your mother says, as she grabs your hair and pulls you down to the floor.
the beating continues as you try to protect your face, which angers your mother more as she grabs hold of them and throws your body towards the floor once more. opening your teary eyes you see a blurry vision of your brotherâs shoes. your eyes meet a amused expression on your brotherâs face as your hair gets pulled by your mother. you could no longer hear clearly what she was yelling about. eventually you stopped crying and became numb to the seemingly never ending smacks.
[scene ends]
***
âmother iâm leaving,â renjun says as he puts on his shoes.
âwait take some food with you,â his mother frantically says as she hands him a lunch box, âdid you make sure you didnât forget anything?â
âyes i made sure,â renjun chuckles and gives her hug before leaving for the train.
as he walks to the railroad center he checks his phone to see if youâve replied only for him to see that youâve left him on read.
renjun: hey iâll be taking the 6AM train tomorrow in case you wanted to meet. i have seat 20.
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***
the train arrives at your stop causing renjun to look outside the window for you, but to his dismay he doesnât find you as the train starts to leave the station. until he hears someone plop down in the seat next to him.
ây/n!â he exclaims with a wide smile until he sees your bruises, âdid she hit you again?â
âi just got assigned to this seat coincidentally,â you say, ignoring the question he asked.
âalright, i wonât pry it out of you, but iâm always available to talk,â he smiles, âalso at least let me treat the bruises.â
you donât say anything which prompts renjun to treat them anyway. his fingers gently apply the medicine, trying not to hurt you.
the train ride remained silent for awhile until renjun breaks it by saying, âiâm sorry. are you ignoring me.â
you simply reply with a hum.
ây/nnnnn,â he whines.
âshut up,â you reply, glaring out him which causes him to pout.
âitâs fine,â you nonchalantly say.
âreally?â
âyes,â you frustratingly reply.
âgood, did you bring lunch?â he asks taking out his lunch box.
âno.â
âalright weâre sharing then.â
âthereâs only one chopstick.â
âi knew you wouldnât bring lunch, so i, of course, brought an extra one,â he replies showing off another pair of utensils.
âwhy are you smiling like that, but thanks,â you tease.
âhey!â he exclaims causing you to laugh a little.
***
âtell me again why your friends with y/n,â a young male asks renjun as they walk to their next class.
âbecause sheâs a nice person,â he says.
âwell it seems like your her only friend,â the boy replies as he notices you alone in the school garden.
âyeah.â
âhey, youâre y/n right?â renjunâs friend asks as he walks up to you.
âyeah why?â you ask, confused as to why the boyâs talking to you.
âiâm chenle. renjun seems to think youâre nice,â chenle smiles.
âoh.â
âhey leave her alone. sheâs shy,â renjun says as he tries to take chenle away.
âwhy? i wanna know why you think sheâs nice,â he says, shoving renjunâs arm away.
âweâre going to be late. letâs just go,â he pleads.
you close the book youâre reading and walk away before saying, âi donât think iâm nice. so thereâs nothing for me to explain.â
***
ây/n?â renjun asks as he approaches a figure in the schoolâs greenhouse.
âhey,â you reply.
âitâs late,â he says as he seats himself down next to you.
âthen why are you here?â
âsomethingâs been bothering me lately.â
âwhat is it then.â
âwhatâs really going on in your family?â renjun finally asks as he makes eye contact with you.
âi wouldnât consider them family,â you sigh, âyou heard of my brother right?â
âyeah the genius of the l/n family.â
âwell thatâs the problem,â you gaze up at the stars.
âis it because youâre not like him?â he asks as he continues to look at you.
âbingo!â you smile.
ây/n...â
âlook renjun iâm okay with it. i know iâm not good enough for them. i lost the desire to be loved.â
for some reason it hurt renjun to hear those words from you, âi think you deserve to be loved,â he says.
âhmm?â
âeveryone deserves to be loved, but most of all you do. i know i have no say in your life because of how loving my parents are and i know i wonât understand what you have to go through but...â he looks away from your gaze as he stops his sentence.
âbut what? donât leave me hanging,â you jokingly say making the boy a little flustered.
âiâll give you all the love your family couldnât provide,â he finally says after a moment of silence.
âand why is that?â you sigh.
âbecause you donât see yourself the way i see you. youâre a good person and youâre important to me.â
âif you phrase it like that i canât really refute it, can i?â you smile.
âi wonât let you either way,â he says with hands at his waist as if heâs mad.
***
âplease stop,â a blonde girl whimpers as she falls to the ground.
âi donât want to. itâs funny seeing you scared,â a brunette says as she looks down at the girl.
âwhy are they so loud,â you mutter to yourself as you try to read your book.
the rest of the girls surround their victim as they burst into laughter.
âsay belle, why do you think everyone hates you?â the brunette teases.
belle doesnât respond.
âbecause youâre useless and a good for nothing,â the brunette answers herself while the rest of her friends laughing along.
âhow annoying,â you say.
âwhat?â the brunette says as she glares at you.
âarenât you the good for nothing?â you ask, closing your book with a sigh.
âwho do you think you are?â she seethes.
âiâm just saying youâre a good for nothing because who spends time bullying other people. shouldnât you get a hobby or something? boxing could help with your frustration, you know?â you say walking up to her.
âi remember! youâre the girl from the l/n family.â
âwhat about it?â
âthen shouldnât you be the good for nothing?â she mocks as her friends snicker as you pick the girl up, âdonât you feel bad for your parents? they have such an amazing son but ended up with another child that isnât a genius like him. doesnât that hurt your motherâs pride, having a useless daughter. isnât that why they never visit you when youâre at school?â
âwell arenât you annoying,â you sigh with no change to your expressionless face.
âwhy you little-â she says as she slaps you across the face.
the loud sound of the impact startles the other students.
you could feel the pain stinging at your cheek and for some reason you lose it as you pull the girl by her hair. someone leaves to get the dean while the others try to stop the fight.
***
âisnât that y/n?â chenle asks as he notices a familiar figure.
âhuh?â renjun replies as he looks at where chenleâs facing and is left befuddled as to why you were with the dean and gen.
âi heard gen and y/n got into a fight,â a girl whispers to her friend as they walk past renjun.
***
as you exit the principalâs office with your parents you notice renjun waiting near the door. you give him a glance, silently telling him not to talk to you since your mother was here and was already mad enough. you give him a little smile telling him that youâre okay.
renjun has no choice, but to leave. he never met your parents until today. he could notice the cold presence your mother exudes as she sends him a glare.
***
the next day, news went around at the academy that you got suspended as you refused to apologize to gen. therefore, you packing your bags didnât surprise renjun, however, you started to avoid him and he didnât understand why.Â
***
the day after, you finished packing everything from your dormitory before the rest of the students woke up, as you didnât want to say goodbye to renjun.
***
renjun wakes up a little bit early today as heâs expecting a letter from his mother, so he hurries down to the schoolâs mail office. excitedly opening his mailbox, the first letter he sees has your name plastered on it. confused and worried at the same time, he hurriedly opens your letter.
dear renjun,
   youâve been the first true friend iâve made, though it took awhile for me to open up. i know that you wouldnât understand my family situation, but despite that you chose to stay with me and try to lighten my mood. you became a sense of comfort.
renjun clenches the letter in his hand and runs out the place in hopes of being able to say a goodbye.
   you made me believe in things i didnât believe in. you made me realize that someone is willing to stay with me. that someone would hold me in their arms when i cry. tell me everything will be okay, and that iâm worthy of my existence. unfortunately, itâs been decided by my parents that iâll be studying aboard from now on. when iâll be coming back is something i donât know either.
he sees you loading your boxes into the car near the school entrance. sprinting to the entrance, you can be seen entering the car. renjun runs as fast as he can but before he gets there your car has already started driving away.
   but thank you for all the times youâve checked up on me. for treating my wounds both the physical and emotional ones. simply being my friend made a big impact on my life. it made me look forward to going back to the academy. something about that stupid positivity of yours and your constant attempts to make a joke made my heart warm.
not giving up, renjun continues to chase after you. thunder could be heard as it signals future rainfall, but he refuses to give up chasing after his friend.
   iâm sorry for not being able to do the same and for not being able to repay you back for all those fond memories and pretty laughters. i only wish the best for you. for the first person iâve learned to love and value close to my heart.
***
âdo you want to stop the car?â your father says, signaling to the figure of renjun running in the rain after your car.
âno,â you reply, closing the window as another loud âstopâ could be heard from your friend.
you couldnât say a farewell to your friend, your heart just couldnât handle it.
***
as renjun witnesses the car continuously getting smaller and smaller in the distance, his legs give out and his breathe struggles for air. coming to a stop, he breathes heavily as rain continues to pour down on him.
   i promise iâll see you again in the future. i donât break promises, renjun. itâs your choice to wait for me or to forget me, but for me i would always remember you as my first friend and my haven.
                                            thank you,
                                            your friend, y/n
a/n: i hope everyoneâs safe and doing well. i understand social distancing can be hard but letâs hope for the best. letâs look forward to nct dreamâs comeback with reload. itâs released on my birthday too so iâm even more excited. if anyone wants to request anything please feel free to do so since iâm having a hard time writing a story. iâm sorry this a/n turned out to be a little long. anyways, stay safe! :)
your bestfriend jisung facetimes you to do the online assignment together and you hurry to put on a hoodie over your pajamas.
âhi,â you answer.
ây/n did you just wake up or something?â jisung asks.
âno why?â you ask.
âyou look like a mess,â he comments.
âoh shut up you donât look any better,â you retort addressing his bed hair.
âi havenât gotten ready since school got closed,â he replies laughing at your remark.
âme either, i jumped to put on something decent. anyways, letâs get this stupid assignment over with. iâm tired of looking at my laptop,â you reply with a sigh as you feel your headache worsen.
âit feels like the teachers give us more and more work with online schooling,â he comments as he tries to fix his hair.
âyeah, i still have lessons to catch up to. anyways, how are you holding up?â you ask as you start your assignment.
âiâm doing okay but i do miss everyone. calling is different than talking to someone face to face. ah, whereâs my papers?â he replies, leaving to look for his notes, âah ha, found them!â
âi see your holding up well,â you say sarcastically.
âwhatâs question 1 asking?â jisung asks.
âyou havenât started?â you exclaim as your near the end of the assignment.
âyeah no...â he replies causing you to sigh.
you guys finally finish the assignment and submitted it until jisung says, âoh no.â
âoh no?â you ask already sensing how much he screwed up.
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note: iâve been so inactive that i didnât even mention jisungâs birthday. iâve also ran out of ideas so here's a bottle of tears :)
renjun held you in his arms as you silently cried into his chest, you could feel him gently rubbing your back.
âiâm scared,â you say as you try to calm your breathing.
âwhy,â he replies, confused.
âwhat if people continue to leave me, i donât want to be alone. i know i shouldnât be greedy but i just want to know that i have a person to call home,â you explain, looking up at him with tear stains caressing your face.
âyou have me. you can run back to me when it gets cold and when the world fails to love you. people will come and go like the seasons only those who change with the seasons will stay because they love you and they are the foundation of the home you fail to see.âÂ
synopsis: your close friend has a crush on mark lee but so do you, of course, they donât know.
genre: angst
note: really short! after christmas, all i write are sad shorts. i donât know what has gotten into me :(
your friend continues to rave about how beautiful mark is, their crush, and unbeknownst to them, your crush as well. every time, your friend would mention him you would see how theyâre genuinely in love. the sparkles in their eyes, constantly made you feel guilty for having feelings for the same guy.
âi got partnered up with him and we exchanged numbers. y/n i think something might happen since heâs been asking to hang out,â your friend enthusiastically says.
âwow my friend out here snatching boys,â you playfully say, trying your best not to break.
âdo you think i should confess?â your friend asks the words youâve been dreading to hear. as if someone took your heart and viciously stabbed it.
ây/f/n...â you have this urge to tell your friend about your crush on mark, but how could you when you look up to see their eyes dance happily and their lips smiling ear to ear like a kid on christmas morning.
âyeah, go for it,â you finally say, because you value them more than a silly crush, but your heart was swelling from the pain and you wanted it to go away. it didnât for a while, it worsened a few days later when youâre seated at the same table with your friend and their new boyfriend, mark.
a/n: this may seem a bit cheesy and unrealistic, but i did that to my friend once to just tell them i love them, i know iâm weird. but i wanted to write something to cheer people up, and a reminder to myself :)
[2:44 PM]
you were waiting for your bus ride home, when you received a call from, jaemin.
âhello beautiful,â you hear him say.
âhey, is something up?â you ask, bewildered by his spontaneous call, as you just saw him a few minutes ago.
âyeah, everything's fine. i just wanted to say i love you. i know youâre been going through a lot lately and i just want to tell you that iâm here for you. iâm your friend, iâll be here anytime you need someone to cry to. i want to remind you, that you mean the world to me and all of your friends. donât feel like everyone would be better off without you, because youâre the reason why someone smiles. it might not seem so to you, but it really does. bye bye! i love you!â jaemin exclaims, ending the call before you can reply.
you get on the bus teary-eyed and smiling like a fool.
âhey, you probably wonât open this but i really hope youâre okay. even if you hate me now, iâll always be there for you, even if you shove me away. i just want to see you smile again. iâm sorry,â renjunâs soft voice can be heard coming from your cellphone, his voice slightly cracking.
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synopsis: in which you're told to write a letter to someone dear to you on the last day of school before winter break.
genre: fluff
note: i apologize for the cheesiness. it's getting cold so layer up :)
jisung stumbles into class late, with his hair in a mess and cheeks reddened from the winter cold. rushing to sit down next to you as the class laid their eyes on the latecomer.
you returned to write this letter to someone you love for christmas because your teacher didnât plan on teaching the day before winter break.
as the bell rings for dismissal, jisung taps on your shoulder, softly saying âi think you dropped something.â
before you reply that the paper on the floor wasnât yours, jisung bolts out the door.
you pick up the paper, incase it was yours, and enter the bustling hallway.
opening it.
âdear y/n,
iâm bad at these things, but i hope you have a happy holiday and enjoy winter break. but, thatâs not why i wrote this to you. the teacher said write it to someone important to you or someone you...love. i guess weâre too young to call what i feel love, and i know this may be unrequited but as chenle advised, âtake your chances.â hi, first of all im jisung. park jisung, the quiet dude that sits next to you during english, the guy that has the locker next to yours, the guy whoâs always dropping his stuff during history. yeah, well, this guy, likes you. oh my god i said it wow! anyways, god im cringy. but continuing, this guy likes you, the girl/boy thatâs always cracking a joke in english to their friend, the girl/boy who always picks up my pen in history, the girl/boy who smiles at me in the morning at the lockers. forget this if you donât feel the same way, but i like you, happy holidays. guess iâll have to wait til the break is over to get my reply, huh?
sincerely, jisungâ
âhey watch it,â a male voice says, as you were too busy reading the letter.
âsorry,â you apologize, realizing it was chenle, jisungs bestfriend, you look at the guy next to him.
jisung looks at you, blushing as he sees the letter in your hands, avoiding eye contact with you.
âguess you donât have to wait. i like you park jisung, the dude that sits next to me in english class,â i smile, before walking into class, leaving a shocked jisung behind with chenle teasing him.
synopsis: your school has this thing where you can buy a candy cane for someone and theyâll deliver it to the person you choose. unbeknownst to you, jaemin brought them for you.
genre: fluff
note: i just wanted to write a christmas themed one. i hope you guys have a happy holiday! get some rest, loves :)
as you were copying notes down during psychology class, a girl shyly enters the classroom after knocking.
âi have a candy cane for nicole,â she says, as you continue to copy the slide, unbothered.
until, âi have one for y/n,â the girl proceeds to say, causing you to give her a confused look, as you get up to get the candy.
âoh there's another one, and another one, and oh another one,â the girl continues on and on as she hands you, what seems like an endless amount of candy canes.
each candy cane contained little notes.
note #1: âhey, this surprised you, huh?â
note #2:Â âwondering who i am, huh?â
note #3:Â âbut first, iâll tell you why i sent these and why are these $3 each?!?!â
note #4:Â âit took me a while to realize this, but every time i see you in the halls or class, my heart pounds. wow, how cheesy can i get, right? it gets worse.â
note #5:Â âyou always made me feel important and i needed that, i needed you to smile at me, tell me that itâll be okay, and give me good morning hugs.â
note #6:Â âyou made my feelings entangled.â
note #7:Â âyou made me lose track of time, whenever i talked to you.â
note #8:Â âyou made me worried if you felt the same way as i did.â
note #9:Â âyou made me anxious, nervous, but happy.â
note #10:Â âeven from a mile away, okay im being dramatic, but i can recognize you from any distance, your voice, the way you laugh, and your cute little pouts.â
note #11:Â âyou know why? becauseâ
note #12:Â âi like you, so let's spend 12 days of christmas together? wow, i really brought 12 of these. love, jaeminâ
you snap your head to the back of the room, where you found a jaemin staring at you, smiling as you make eye contact.
you mouth a âyesâ to him, causing him to smile even wider if that was even possible.