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synopsis: nct dream and you buried a memory capsule filled with letters on the day of your high school graduation. you guys finally open it after receiving letters from mark to meet up at the location of the capsule, but after years of not communicating with each other everyone becomes tense at the reunion.

genre: fluff

a/n: i suddenly remembered a scene from the anime Orange and so this story was inspired by the scene where the adult version of the characters read the letters they wrote in the past which they placed in their memory capsule. it’s also a bit long :)

you checked the mail due to your mother’s request and shuffled through the letters, not expecting anything to be addressed to you. however, you spot a letter with your name on it in familiar handwriting, but you couldn’t recall who it belonged to. 

sitting down on your bed you open the letter with curiosity.

“dear y/n,

i know it has been a while since we graduated high school, but it’s me, mark lee.  since we're all on summer break from college, i thought why not finally meet up as the group has drifted apart since our graduation and i hope it doesn’t seem weird but i would sometimes remember our silly shenanigans afterschool, the places we went to, and being scolded by our parents for getting home late. remember that one-time haechan got grounded because he got into an argument with his parents and we had to sneak him out of his house because he was begging us to let him go with us to a concert? oh, and that day chenle tried to learn how to skate but ended up falling and his phone went flying and got shattered. i can’t even forget how on prom night we left the dance early and went to the beach near the amusement park. but, of course, you don’t have to come but i hope you do. the meeting place is where we buried our memory capsule and the date is saturday at 5PM. after all, we did promise to open it before we graduated college.

sincerely, mark”

you didn’t realize you were tearing up until you finished reading the letter. you didn’t want your group to drift apart but as time went by everyone changed and so one by one the group no longer talked to one another. everyone was simply busy with their own lives and some living in colleges far away from home and eventually, we replaced one another with new people.

of course, you dearly missed them and wondered how much everyone has grown with the fear of how much everyone has changed as well.

saturday arrived and now you were at a park, in front of your childhood friends who no longer looked like kids. mark lost a lot of his baby fat from his face and no longer looked as innocent as he was. renjun dressed up neatly and no longer had his snaggletooth but his height remained the same. jeno became more physically fit and had a growth spurt. jaemin remained the same handsome kid from high school but his style was quite different. haechan still had the same mischievous face with an air of charisma around him. chenle didn’t change much besides his height and losing some of his baby fat. jisung remained freakishly tall with his face being more defined.

“so should we start digging,” mark finally breaks the silence, as he holds up his mini shovel.

synopsis: y/n watches as her seven friends grow distant. as more conflict arises as the streets become vacant in broad daylight. as months pass by without direct contact, jeno becomes a person that only appears in their memories. haechan becomes more and more irritable even with mark. jaemin no longer sends his photos asking the group to pick a filter. while mark reevaluates if his friendships are genuine or out of convenience as classes shift online. chenle only seems to cause more conflict as renjun enters and exits the chat continuously in which y/n has to add him back in everytime. jisung joins jeno as a ghost participant in the dream chat. the group suffocates even without their masks. friends with a distance caused by a pandemic struggle to understand each other. will they remain loyal or haunt each other's memories?

a/n: i said blue bird would get a sequel but as i was writing it i felt it was better left without one. so i apologize for not keeping my promise. i also have no idea why i thought of this but romance animes have a funny amount of tropes so why the heck not. also please take this with a grain of salt. it was purely made for entertainment. also if you didn’t watch any romance animes then there’s a lot of spoilers. yes, i am still on hiatus. i’ll probably be back after all my college decisions come out :)

mark: he reminds me of tohru just a tiny bit. since tohru always looks out for others and keeps her problems to herself. like when she silently cries over her mother’s death without relying on others. mark in dream was a leader to the members and he always tried to look out for them not only because he has to but because he wants to. mark is the glue of nct dream as tohru is the glue to the sohmas.

renjun: the tsundere trope. there’s so many tsundere main characters in anime and i thought it was befitting of our boy, renjun. often times trying to fight his members is his way of showing “love”. a prince tsundere in the making. like a mild kyo in my opinion, mild because kyo’s character is more violent than renjun but they’re both very sensitive with certain topics.  the kyo to mark’s tohru. tsunderes aren’t just people with unjustified anger (some are tho). they’re people who don’t fully understand how to channel their feelings in a better way and tend to protect themselves by being strong and sometimes distant.

jeno: is very patient and calm almost like those black haired male leads minus the rudeness that some of them have. kind of gives me sakura vibes from horimiya. how she’s kind and calm amongst most of the characters and doesn’t really show her feelings much at the beginning. he also reminds me of miyamura because like jeno miyamura is seen as quiet and gloomy but once he befriends hori he starts showing his feelings and becomes a more dynamic character, being aggressive with my friends. the members represents hori and her friends because jeno at first seems quiet, but once you watch more nct content jeno is much more than just a quiet person. he can be aggressive and funny at times as well because people don’t have flat personalities. (oh lord this got so long, my bad)

donghyuck: that funny guy in the group of friends. you know what i mean? there's the stoic main character and the kind heroine and then there's that one brightly colored hair guy that’s making fun of people and is the extroverted friend of the stoic male lead. i don’t know how to explain this. been ages since i’ve watched a good romance anime. chenle and him kind of remind me of the twins from ouran highschool host club.

jaemin: reminds me of shouta kazehaya, the nice guy in romance animes, who most of the time never gets the girl. jaemin is extremely popular even before debut and was always nice to people. jaemin is also seen to be very caring of the members and not partaking in donghyuck’s bets and games. like that time renjun lost and had to clean the table, but jaemin kindly tried to help him. similar to how kazehaya defends and helps sawako. kazehaya is also popular and outgoing. he’s the male lead to our heroine, jisung. 

chenle: his personality is similar to donghyuck, being the bright haired and cheeky character. the one saying the wrong thing that leads to the female lead misunderstanding the male lead, but of course unintentionally. reminds me of those boisterous female characters; the one’s that are always smiling and befriending everyone like a deredere. of course, chenle isn’t a 2D character and has his bad days or quieter days.

jaemin and you were stuck at home watching the annual new years ball drop, which was pretty uneventful, and involved a lot of channel switching and complaining about how long the wait is.

“i thought 2020 would be a better year,” jaemin sighs as he opens another bag of popcorn.

“didn’t we all?” you sigh along with him.

“2020 was such a mess.”

“hey! we started dating in 2020,” you exclaim, lightly shoving him.

“let’s be honest we’re a mess too.”

“but i’m glad i’m stuck in this pandemic with you and grateful we’re both healthy. that we got through this year despite our occasional fights,” you say, slumping back onto the couch.

“don’t get me wrong i don’t regret this year. a lot of people fought for a better society and a lot of things changed. of course, i got to get closer to you and-” jaemin replies.

“oh 2 minutes left!” you exclaim, cutting off jaemin.

“wow. it’s okay cut me off,” he says sarcastically.

“okay okay i’m sorry, but you got a minute to say whatever you want,” you chuckle.

“what? do you expect me to kiss you?” he scoffs.

“less than a minute left,” you announce, watching the live countdown.

“ugh fine. i’m glad you’re the person i ended up quarantining with because you’re someone i just can’t seem to get tired of. also thanks for staying with me while i had mental breakdowns. thanks for always being the fun person you are and for just being you. i love you most and happy-” jaemin quickly responds as he races against time, but before he could finish his statement your soft lips gently presses against his as the ball drops.

“i love you always and happy new years, jaemin. you’re using chapstick; i’m surprised,” you say, dramatically covering your mouth in surprise.

“come here,” jaemin replies with a sigh. but, of course, you run away.

“HEY! where are you going?” jaemin shouts, running after you with a pillow.

“into 2021!”

i don't know if your request are open but i hope that you could do some scenarios with jeno or jaemin! christmas party or maybe something like kissing in the new year (is my birthday on 02/01 and i think is sooo romantic kissing while is turning a new year

renjun patiently waits for you at your local diner. sipping on his milkshake, watching the rain fall on the window pane.

“oh, you’re early too,” you say, slumping down onto the seat.

“young lady, you shouldn’t sit like that,” renjun teases, pointing a finger as he reprimands you.

“ah, you’re annoying,” you reply, slapping his finger away.

“your dear best friend is annoying? i’m offended,” he replies, hands held dramatically against his chest.

“ just hurry up. what do you need that i had to walk through the heavy rain for?” you sigh, ordering a milkshake.

“i’m going to an art school out of state,” he says.

“out of what?” you exclaim, dropping your wallet.

“out of state,” renjun clarifies, chuckling at your reaction.

“i mean it’s cool with me, but you better not ghost me afterwards. i’m your ‘dear best friend’ after all,” you mock as you thank the waitresses for the milkshake.

“hmm, that wasn’t the reaction i wanted,” he replies with a pout.

“i’m not crying over you going away for school. it’s not like you’re breaking off our friendship,” you reply with a shrug, chugging down your milkshake.

“you’re gonna choke if you drink so fast.”

“no i’m not-,” you choke on your words.

“dumbass,” renjun laughs, handing you a napkin.

“is that all you wanted to say?” you ask, wiping your lips.

“i have a present. i was gonna give it to you when i leave, but that’s still months away,” he answers, taking out a sketchbook.

“what’s this for? you’re giving it to me?” you ask, taking the book from him.

“mmhmm.”

opening the book, you see the various sketches he had drew with dates labelled under them.

“are these-” you ask.

“yes, they’re our memories,” he replies, cutting with off.

“is your mission to make me cry?” you sniffle.

“maybe? read the last page,” renjun smiles.

dear idiot,

i guess it’s messed up for me to tell you this when i’m moving away soon. but after spending middle and high school with you, i started to realize some feelings. my insults became an endearment towards you and no longer in a friendship way. if you really can’t understand what i’m trying to say by now, you’re really something else y/n. if you don’t understand then ask me :)

“are you confessing to me?” you bluntly ask.

“hmm, maybe your dumb,” he replies with a smirk.

“so, you’re not?”

“i was joking, y/n. my lovely y/n, i like you,” he confesses, despite his confident face you could see his ears redden.

“did you ask jaemin for advice on how to confess? because ‘lovely y/n’, you must be out of your mind,” you chuckle, playfully pulling his red ears.

“it still weighs on me heavily,” renjun says, looking out the window.

“what?”

“how far i’ll be from everyone. i know i’m not moving away permanently, but it still feels sad. like we used to be so excited to just graduate, but now that we actually are is something that feels bittersweet. perhaps i’m being too sentimental,” he says, drawing a heart against the cold window panes.

“hmm, for me i just like being a teenager. where i could still stay a little confused and lost,” you reply.

“hey, i got a great idea!” he exclaims, turning to face you with excited eyes,

“oh no...”

“it’s not a bad thing,” he protests.

“sure sure,” you shrug, swirling your straw.

“a memory capsule with the whole group and then we come back to visit it when we turn a certain age or for a certain event,” he announces.

“if the rest of the group would even do it,” you reply sarcastically.

“come on. we could put a cute dream sticker on the box. decorate it with stickers or paint it. doesn’t that sound fun?”

“it sounds cute. but what we putting in it?”

synopsis: the budding friendship of renjun and y/n who seem to be polar opposites. 

genre: fluff + angst

warning: mention and acts of abuse (i’ll make a note before and after the scene!)

a/n: i hope everyone’s okay and signing petitions! i’ve also missed a bunch of the dream member’s birthdays because i haven’t been motivated to write anything and post. again please sign petitions, wear masks, and stay safe!

UPDATE: will not be getting a sequel. i apologize for the request.

“stop acting like you understand me,” you yell at the slender boy.

“that’s because you’re not letting me,” he yells back.

“renjun don’t you know how not to be nosy,” you ask, seething.

“it’s not being nosy it’s called i don’t want you to go through all this alone,” renjun replies.

“even if i told you, you wouldn’t understand.”

“and why is that?”

“because god damn it, renjun you’re a golden child. a damn prince and i’m someone my family could care less about. an angel and a devil aren’t meant to understand each other,” you yell leaving the boy flabbergasted as you walk away.

***

“mother,” renjun calls out as he arrives home for winter break.

“oh my, i see my baby has grown a bit,” his mother comes to hug him.

“you’re just being nice. my height has remained the same for a whole year already,” he replies hugging her back.

“how’s y/n?” she asks causing renjun to pause for a moment.

“is it possible for parents to not love their own child?” he asks as he takes off his coat.

“i’m sure most parents love their child but there are some that don’t. why? did something happen?” she asks with a worried look.

“no nothing happened. i’ll go wash up,” he replies with a faint smile and takes his suitcase to his room.

***

“i don’t really see why you had the audacity to come back home,” says a woman.

“the academy told me i had to come home mother,” you reply as you stare down at your feet.

“we pay so much for your tuition and yet they can’t let you stay there for break?”

“it seems so.”

“just get out of my sight and stay in your room like you always do,” your so called mother says in annoyance as she lights a cigarette.

“yes mother,” you reply in a monotone voice as you quietly walk upstairs to your room.

***

“oh we’re having hot pot?” renjun asks as he comes downstairs for dinner.

“of course, it’s your favorite after all i haven’t seen you for awhile,” his mother says.

“when’s dad coming back from his business trip?” he asks as he sits down at the table.

“in three days,” she replies as she plates some food for him.

“thanks and you need to eat too,” renjun chuckles as he takes the plate.

“my son needs to gain some weight and grow up strong,” she replies with adoration.

***

“miss can i come in?” a maid asks as she knocks on your bedroom door.

“is it dinner?” you ask.

“yes.”

“then come in.”

the maid quietly walks in and places the food on a table then quickly walks out.

you roll off your bed and sit yourself down at the table.

“they always forget i’m allergic to peanuts,” you mutter as you notice the cake topped with them.

the loud chatter of the floor below could be heard as the rest of the family enjoy dinner together.

“brother must be home too,” you say to yourself as you pick at your food.

***

you ignored all the messages renjun would text you during winter break which led to renjun having a whole conversation with himself as he wonders why you became so enraged that day.

winter break finally came to an end leaving both you and renjun to start packing for the academy once again.

***

“the miss is leaving today madam,” the maid informs your mother.

“didn’t i tell you not to report useless things to me?” she asks in annoyance.

“i finally have a few days left of my break without her being home,” a young male says as he focuses on his game.

“we should have sent her out of the country for schooling,” she sighs.

“father said she’d might be in trouble if she went by herself.”

“your father has always been soft-hearted.”

you try your best to carry your suitcase without making any noise but it was no use.

“can’t you be more quiet!” your mother scolds.

“sorry,” you say as you heave your suitcase down the stairs, but another thud could be heard.

your bestfriend jisung facetimes you to do the online assignment together and you hurry to put on a hoodie over your pajamas.

“hi,” you answer.

“y/n did you just wake up or something?” jisung asks.

“no why?” you ask.

“you look like a mess,” he comments.

“oh shut up you don’t look any better,” you retort addressing his bed hair.

“i haven’t gotten ready since school got closed,” he replies laughing at your remark.

“me either, i jumped to put on something decent. anyways, let’s get this stupid assignment over with. i’m tired of looking at my laptop,” you reply with a sigh as you feel your headache worsen.

“it feels like the teachers give us more and more work with online schooling,” he comments as he tries to fix his hair.

“yeah, i still have lessons to catch up to. anyways, how are you holding up?” you ask as you start your assignment.

“i’m doing okay but i do miss everyone. calling is different than talking to someone face to face. ah, where’s my papers?” he replies, leaving to look for his notes, “ah ha, found them!”

“i see your holding up well,” you say sarcastically.

“what’s question 1 asking?” jisung asks.

“you haven’t started?” you exclaim as your near the end of the assignment.

“yeah no...” he replies causing you to sigh.

you guys finally finish the assignment and submitted it until jisung says, “oh no.”

“oh no?” you ask already sensing how much he screwed up.

“i forgot to enter my name,” jisung exclaims.

“park jisung,” you say.

“yeah?” he asks slightly afraid.

renjun held you in his arms as you silently cried into his chest, you could feel him gently rubbing your back.

“i’m scared,” you say as you try to calm your breathing.

“why,”  he replies, confused.

“what if people continue to leave me, i don’t want to be alone. i know i shouldn’t be greedy but i just want to know that i have a person to call home,” you explain, looking up at him with tear stains caressing your face.

synopsis: your close friend has a crush on mark lee but so do you, of course, they don’t know.

genre: angst

note: really short! after christmas, all i write are sad shorts. i don’t know what has gotten into me :(

your friend continues to rave about how beautiful mark is, their crush, and unbeknownst to them, your crush as well. every time, your friend would mention him you would see how they’re genuinely in love. the sparkles in their eyes, constantly made you feel guilty for having feelings for the same guy.

“i got partnered up with him and we exchanged numbers. y/n i think something might happen since he’s been asking to hang out,” your friend enthusiastically says.

“wow my friend out here snatching boys,” you playfully say, trying your best not to break.

“do you think i should confess?” your friend asks the words you’ve been dreading to hear. as if someone took your heart and viciously stabbed it.

“y/f/n...” you have this urge to tell your friend about your crush on mark, but how could you when you look up to see their eyes dance happily and their lips smiling ear to ear like a kid on christmas morning.

[2:44 PM]

you were waiting for your bus ride home, when you received a call from, jaemin.

“hello beautiful,” you hear him say.

“hey, is something up?” you ask, bewildered by his spontaneous call, as you just saw him a few minutes ago.

“yeah, everything's fine. i just wanted to say i love you. i know you’re been going through a lot lately and i just want to tell you that i’m here for you. i’m your friend, i’ll be here anytime you need someone to cry to. i want to remind you, that you mean the world to me and all of your friends. don’t feel like everyone would be better off without you, because you’re the reason why someone smiles. it might not seem so to you, but it really does. bye bye! i love you!” jaemin exclaims, ending the call before you can reply.

“you have a new voicemail.”

synopsis: in which you're told to write a letter to someone dear to you on the last day of school before winter break.

genre: fluff

note: i apologize for the cheesiness. it's getting cold so layer up :)

jisung stumbles into class late, with his hair in a mess and cheeks reddened from the winter cold. rushing to sit down next to you as the class laid their eyes on the latecomer.

you returned to write this letter to someone you love for christmas because your teacher didn’t plan on teaching the day before winter break.

as the bell rings for dismissal, jisung taps on your shoulder, softly saying “i think you dropped something.”

before you reply that the paper on the floor wasn’t yours, jisung bolts out the door.

you pick up the paper, incase it was yours, and enter the bustling hallway.

opening it.

“dear y/n,

i’m bad at these things, but i hope you have a happy holiday and enjoy winter break. but, that’s not why i wrote this to you. the teacher said write it to someone important to you or someone you...love. i guess we’re too young to call what i feel love, and i know this may be unrequited but as chenle advised, “take your chances.” hi, first of all im jisung. park jisung, the quiet dude that sits next to you during english, the guy that has the locker next to yours, the guy who’s always dropping his stuff during history. yeah, well, this guy, likes you. oh my god i said it wow! anyways, god im cringy. but continuing, this guy likes you, the girl/boy that’s always cracking a joke in english to their friend, the girl/boy who always picks up my pen in history, the girl/boy who smiles at me in the morning at the lockers. forget this if you don’t feel the same way, but i like you, happy holidays. guess i’ll have to wait til the break is over to get my reply, huh?

sincerely, jisung”

“hey watch it,” a male voice says, as you were too busy reading the letter.

“sorry,” you apologize, realizing it was chenle, jisungs bestfriend, you look at the guy next to him.

jisung looks at you, blushing as he sees the letter in your hands, avoiding eye contact with you.

synopsis: your school has this thing where you can buy a candy cane for someone and they’ll deliver it to the person you choose. unbeknownst to you, jaemin brought them for you.

genre: fluff

note: i just wanted to write a christmas themed one. i hope you guys have a happy holiday! get some rest, loves :)

as you were copying notes down during psychology class, a girl shyly enters the classroom after knocking.

“i have a candy cane for nicole,” she says, as you continue to copy the slide, unbothered.

until, “i have one for y/n,” the girl proceeds to say, causing you to give her a confused look, as you get up to get the candy.

“oh there's another one, and another one, and oh another one,” the girl continues on and on as she hands you, what seems like an endless amount of candy canes.

each candy cane contained little notes.

note #1: “hey, this surprised you, huh?”

note #2: “wondering who i am, huh?”

note #3: “but first, i’ll tell you why i sent these and why are these $3 each?!?!”

note #4: “it took me a while to realize this, but every time i see you in the halls or class, my heart pounds. wow, how cheesy can i get, right? it gets worse.”

note #5: “you always made me feel important and i needed that, i needed you to smile at me, tell me that it’ll be okay, and give me good morning hugs.”

note #6: “you made my feelings entangled.”

note #7: “you made me lose track of time, whenever i talked to you.”

note #8: “you made me worried if you felt the same way as i did.”

note #9: “you made me anxious, nervous, but happy.”

note #10: “even from a mile away, okay im being dramatic, but i can recognize you from any distance, your voice, the way you laugh, and your cute little pouts.”

note #11: “you know why? because”

note #12: “i like you, so let's spend 12 days of christmas together? wow, i really brought 12 of these. love, jaemin”

you snap your head to the back of the room, where you found a jaemin staring at you, smiling as you make eye contact.