#chenle fluff

there were exactly a thousand guests in attendance tonight. family, friends, business partners, celebrities, investors, socialites, industry executives from every corner of asia, people whose names appear in magazines and headlines and billion-dollar reports. the ballroom itself looked almost unreal – dripping crystals suspended from the ceiling, white roses woven into towering arrangements, soft gold lighting reflecting against polished marble floors. every detail had been curated to perfection. fitting for the wedding of the heirs to two of the most influential beauty empires in the country.

“we have been waiting for this union for years now,” mrs. zhong continues, and somehow every person in the room hangs onto each word she says. she has always had that effect on people.

“my one and only son, chenle…i am very happy and excited as you take on this next chapter,” her eyes land on him briefly, full of pride, “i know you will be extraordinary, as you are in everything you do.”

a wave of soft applause spreads through the room. chenle beside you gives a polite nod, composed as ever. 

then her attention shifts entirely to you.

“and of course, my beautiful daughter in law, y/n zhong…,” the warmth in her voice softens you completely. the last name making your heart flutter. you don't know if you'll ever get used to hearing it.

“i’ve always wanted you as my real daughter,” she says with a small smile painted in her signature crimson lipstick,  “and now i can finally say you are.”

your chest tightens in the best way possible. you smile back before you can even think about it, eyes sparkling beneath the lights as emotion swells quietly inside you. because unlike the cameras and contracts and business articles surrounding this marriage…this part felt real. 

lili zhong was someone you had admired long before you ever understood what admiration truly was. 

you can remember it as if it was yesterday – being seven years old inside the towering headquarters of zhong cosmetics, your tiny dress shoes squeaking against the floors as you and chenle ran through the halls without a care in the world. the building had felt gigantic back then, less like a corporate empire and more like your personal playground. you remembered hiding beneath reception desks with chenle while assistants searched for the two of you in panic. remembered spinning around in leather office chairs worth more than most people’s rent. remembered sneaking into empty conference rooms just to press random buttons on expensive remotes.

and then lili zhong walked out.

and the entire atmosphere shifted the moment she appeared. not much different from how it is now. employees straightened immediately. conversations stopped mid-sentence. people moved aside for her without being told to. she carried herself with grace and effortless authority, shoulders back, chin lifted slightly, heels clicking sharply against the floor like a metronome everyone unconsciously followed. but what fascinated you most wasn’t the fear or respect she commanded. it was how composed she looked doing it. 

you remembered watching from next to chenle as she reapplied her lipstick using the reflection of a glass wall, precise and graceful like second nature. one smooth swipe of red. cap clicked shut. then immediately back to discussing quarterly projections as if perfection came as easily as breathing. prim. proper. poised. she was untouchable. and you had been completely mesmerized. 

from that moment on, you’d wanted to become the kind of woman lili zhong was – respected, strong, confident – the type of woman who could walk into a room and have the world rearrange itself around her. and now, standing beneath thousands of glittering lights with the zhong diamond resting heavily on your left ring finger and her son beside you, you suddenly wondered if this was the closest you had ever come to becoming her. 

“i wish you both a fruitful marriage,” she says with a subtle wink in your direction, a wave of laughter spreading softly through the ballroom. your face warms instantly because everyone here understands exactly what she means. not just the merger between zhong cosmetics and yü skincare. not just the billions this marriage would bring. not just the headlines already flooding social media tonight.

but heirs too. children with the zhong name. future successors beautiful enough to belong on campaign billboards before they could even walk.

“may it always be filled with prosperity and success,” mrs. zhong continues, lifting her glass slightly, “and may the two of you continue bringing honor to our families and our companies.”

camera flashes explode around the room like lightning. you can already imagine tomorrow’s articles.

THE GOLDEN COUPLE OF BEAUTY

CHINA’S MOST POWERFUL MARRIAGE!

LOVE, LUXURY, AND LEGACY.

“this country has not seen such a beautiful couple before.”

the applause is immediate. a thousand guests rise to the toast without hesitation, crystal glasses lifting beneath the chandelier light. from the stage, the entire ballroom looked dipped in gold. 

“to mr. and mrs. zhong.”

“to mr. and mrs. zhong!,” the crowd echos. 

you lift your champagne glass with a smile so genuine it almost hurts. because despite everything, despite the pressure and expectations and business contracts hidden beneath layers of silk and diamonds – you were happy. maybe pathetically so. 

you have loved zhong chenle for most of your life. 

before the magazines started calling him the future of luxury cosmetics. before investors nicknamed the two of you the golden couple. before marriage turned into obligation instead of possibility.

and there was a time, too. a time when chenle used to reach for your hand first. a time where the two of you spent entire afternoons running through corporate buildings while your parents attended meetings. a time where he’d steal your desserts at dinners and complain when other boys talked to you at events. a time where marriage jokes from your families made both of you groan dramatically before dissolving into laughter. 

back then, it had felt harmless. like something far away. until you both turned eighteen. when meetings became serious. when contracts replaced teasing. when your families stopped asking and started deciding. 

that was when everything changed. 

because every time chenle looked at you after that, it was no longer with warmth – it was resentment.

you became the physical reminder of every choice he would never get to make for himself. the life he would never get to live. the love he would never get to experience freely. 

somehow, the public never noticed. that was the worst part – chenle was terrifyingly good at pretending. like right now, with one hand resting against the small of your back, he looked every bit like the devoted husband he wanted the media to believe him to be. calm smile. soft gaze. protective touch. 

the perfect heir beside his perfect wife. 

and the cameras adored him for it – “mr. zhong, look here!” “mr. zhong, one more picture with your wife!” “you two are stunning together!” 

his fingers flex lightly against your waist as another round of flashes goes off, and anyone watching would think the gesture is affectionate. loving, even. but you know chenle well enough to recognize performance from sincerity. his hand only ever lingers when people are watching. once they turn away, he lets go like touching you burns. 

still, your heart betrays you. every. single. time. because some part of you still remembers the boy before all of this. the boy who used to grin at you with missing front teeth and tell everyone you were his favorite person in the world. 

the boy you always pictured on this day.

“i can’t wait for this to be over,” chenle murmurs beside you, barely moving his lips. to everyone else, it probably looked like he was whispering sweet nothings into your ear. 

“perfect!,” someone gushes behind a camera, “they look crazy in love.”

the irony nearly makes you laugh. 

chenle turns toward you then, brushing a strand of hair behind your ear with such practiced tenderness that several people nearby audibly swoon. you hate how your stomach flips. 

he’s beautiful at pretending to love you. 

sometimes beautiful enough that you can almost pretend with him. 

the reception continues in a blur of diamonds, champagne and endless congratulations. one by one, some of the most influential people in the country approach your table to greet the two of you personally, every gift placed before you looking absurdly expensive. 

chenle smiles effortlessly but if someone looked closely enough, they would notice you speaking far more than he was, carrying conversations, thanking guests, asking about their families and businesses with perfectly timed warmth. prim. proper. poised. you had learned from the best. every time chenle’s expression dulled slightly, you stepped in before anyone could question it. when his attention drifted you redirected conversations smoothly. when his smiles became visibly strained, you compensated with your own brightness. and you’re convinced no one notices his lack of sincerity. or maybe they do and simply choose not to acknowledge it. because appearances mattered more than truth in a room like this. 

“you two truly are perfect together,” an older woman sighs while admiring the two of you, “just look at how attentive your husband is.”

“he always takes good care of me,” you reply quickly, smile never faltering, the lie sliding off your tongue so naturally it almost scares you. chenle glances at you briefly after that comment. you can’t tell if he’s irritated or grateful. perhaps both. 

minutes pass like that. more smiles. more photos. more toasts. more champagne. your cheeks begin aching from smiling so much but you endure it anyway. this was your wedding day. everything is supposed to be perfect. until–

“excuse me,” chenle suddenly says beside you after another round of greetings, “i need to use the restroom.”

you immediately nod before anyone else can react, “of course.”

one of the investors chuckles knowingly, “already escaping from married life, mr. zhong?”

a ripple of laughter follows. chenle gives them a charming grin that doesn’t reach his eyes, “just five minutes. i'll be right back.” he leaves with calm steps, posture still immaculate beneath his suit. you continue smiling after he disappears into the crowd. 

five minutes pass. then ten. then twenty. people begin noticing. 

“where’s your husband?” someone asks casually. 

you let out a soft laugh, “probably being dragged into another business deal somewhere.” they laugh with you easily. and you cover for him again. and again. and again. 

by the thirty-minute mark, you can practically feel whispers beginning to bloom around the ballroom like perfume in the air. so you straighten your spine further, lift your chin slightly, and you smile brighter. if chenle was going to disappear from his own wedding reception, then you would make sure no one noticed the crack forming underneath the surface. you continue greeting guests alone, accepting congratulations with elegance polished into your bones. 

mrs. zhong watches you from across the ballroom, sharp eyes lingering knowingly on your solitary figure. she says nothing. because she knows her son. how loud his resentment has been years,  months, weeks building into this. but she also knows you. and she trusts you’ll be perfectly fine. that’s why she chose you for her son anyway.

chenle finally returns before he hit the forty-minute mark. your eyes find him immediately across the ballroom. his tie is slightly loosened now, not enough for anyone else to notice, but enough for you to catch instantly. his expression remains composed. but the second he reaches your side – you smell it. whiskey. strong enough to linger beneath his cologne. 

and truthfully? you don’t really mind. chenle was always easier when he drank. looser around the edges. less cold. less careful about keeping distance between the two of you. sometimes…he even looked at you like he used to.

and after disappearing for almost forty minutes, he was going to have to sell this act twice as hard. 

“there you are,” you say smoothly as another cluster of guests approaches the two of you. before you can even fully turn toward them, chenle’s hand settles against your waist. firm. far more natural than earlier. 

“sorry,” he says quietly near your ear, voice lower now, slightly roughened by alcohol, “got cornered.”

you hum in acknowledgement, not bothering to call him out. he was lying, obviously. but this version of chenle was infinitely more tolerable than the sober one who treated your marriage like a prison sentence. 

“mr. and mrs. zhong!” another investor greets excitedly, approaching with his wife beside him, “we were just saying you two look unbelievable together tonight.”

normally, chenle would give a polite smile, a practiced nod, maybe rest his hand on your back for exactly five seconds before pulling away. instead, he pulls you closer. 

“thank you,” he says easily, “my wife makes it difficult not to stare.”

your breath nearly catches. it was the first time he’d call you that. his wife. and you hate how much you loved hearing it. 

the investor’s wife practically melts on the spot, “oh, he adores you.”

you knew that couldn’t be further from the truth. chenle’s just performing harder now. making up for lost time. and annoyingly enough, he’s very good at it. throughout the next hour, he barely left your side. and you’d be lying if you said it didn't affect you. drunk chenle was dangerously convincing. this version of him looked softer around the edges, dark eyes warmer beneath the ballroom lights. he smiled more. touched you more. occasionally leaned close enough that his shoulder brushed yours naturally instead of mechanically. like right now-

“you’re doing that thing again,” he murmurs quietly, only for you to hear. 

“what thing?”

“over-smiling,” his lips twitch faintly, “your cheeks are probably hurting.”

the fact he noticed at all sends something uncomfortable fluttering through your chest. 

“i’m fine.”

“mhm,” his pointer finger lightly grazes your cheekbone, soft and careful, “liar.”

your heart stumbles embarrassingly fast. you hate that alcohol makes him kinder. or maybe not kinder. just more honest with his attention. 

another camera flash bursts in front of you both. another perfect photo for the headlines tomorrow. you wonder if anyone would still call the two of you the golden couple if they knew chenle only touched you this much after drinking enough whiskey to blur the resentment out of him.

you enjoyed the rest of the wedding reception. or maybe endured was the more accurate word. either way, you played the role of the perfect wife flawlessly. enough to fool an entire ballroom full of billionaires. by the time the reception finally ended, your cheeks ached from smiling and your feet hurt from hours in heels. 

still, there was a strange warmth sitting inside your chest because despite everything – you had married the boy you love. even if he no longer loved you back.

⚜️ THE MARRIED LIFE ⚜️

the drive home is quiet. chenle sits beside you, his gaze lost outside the window. he doesn’t look at you once. the alcohol from earlier seems to have worn off already. funny how quickly the warmth disappeared from him too. 

eventually, the gates to the mansion slid open. your mansion now. your home for the rest of your life. the estate stood enormous against the night sky, lights glowing warmly throughout the property. it was less of a house and more of a private villa, complete with a fountain in the middle, sprawling gardens, balconies overlooking the endless green landscape, rooms neither of you would probably ever step foot in. beautiful but cold.

the car comes to a stop and before the driver can even fully open the door, chenle steps out first. you follow shortly after, one of the maids helping you with your dress as you stepped inside the mansion. the grand foyer stretches high above both of you, chandelier light reflecting against polished floors. 

chenle was already halfway up the left staircase. “night,” he finally says. flat. automatic. not even turning around. like the two of you didn’t just celebrate a once in a lifetime event people dream of. 

he disappears down the left wing leading to his bedroom without another word. you stare after him for a moment before quietly turning toward the opposite staircase. right side. your side. your room.  

lili zhong had arranged this mansion for the two of you a month before the wedding, insisting that it would help ease the transition. she genuinely believed that if the two of you lived together beforehand, chenle would eventually come around, that proximity would soften him, that he’d remembered the closeness you once had. you remembered how hopeful she sounded while showing you around the estate.

“give him time,” she had told you gently, “chenle’s stubborn, but he’s a good boy.”

you wanted to believe her. you really did. so for a month before the wedding - you tried. you asked him about work. about basketball games you knew he loved. about the restaurants you knew he liked. you sat beside him even when he barely acknowledged you were there. you tried being patient. understanding. gentle. it didn’t work. and in the end, your efforts never mattered anyway. because whether chenle liked it or not, the wedding was always going to happen. 

now that it had, the distance between you felt even larger. married yet sleeping in separate bedrooms like strangers forced under the same roof. it’s whatever, really. the mansion had far too many empty rooms anyway.

three months pass like that.

the routine becomes almost mechanical. you wake up separately. leave for work separately. return home separately. 

real conversations only happen at the office. meetings. sale projections. marketing campaigns. brand collaborations. like business partners instead of husband and wife. which, you probably should have expected. 

at home, chenle barely spares you a glance. he doesn’t sit beside you on the sofa. doesn’t ask about your day. doesn’t linger in rooms you enter. dinners are eaten across opposite ends of a table long enough to seat twenty people comfortably, silence filling the space where conversations should’ve been. sometimes the only sounds are the clink of silverware against plates and the faint ticking of the grandfather clock in the hallway.

and at night, the lights still glow beneath two different bedrooms. you’ve never stepped into his this entire time. and he wouldn’t be able to tell anyone what the colors of your walls were. sometimes you wonder if he stays awake as long as you do. 

one night, you walked into the living room to find him watching basketball. for the first time in weeks, he actually looked alive. completely relaxed against the couch, eyes fixed on the television while quietly reacting under his breath. stephen curry had just made an impossible three-point shot and chenle actually laughed softly, shaking his head with genuine enjoyment lighting his face. you had almost smiled seeing it. because it reminded you of the boy he used to be. then he noticed you standing there and immediately, everything disappeared. his posture straightened. his expression flattened. he watched the rest of the game in complete silence, pretending not to care when curry hit the game winning shot minutes later. pretending he hadn’t been enjoying himself at all before you arrived – that one hurt more than you expected. you realized then that your presence drained the life out of him. he physically could not relax around you anymore. 

so eventually – you stopped trying to fill the silence. stopped asking if he wanted dinner together. stopped lingering in shared spaces hoping he might speak first. 

if chenle wanted distance that badly, then fine. you would give it to him. even if the loneliness of this massive mansion swallowed you whole because of it. 

⚜️ THE OTHER WOMAN ⚜️

you couldn’t help it though. every night, no matter how much you told yourself to stop caring, you still waited for the sound of chenle’s bedroom door shutting. just to make sure he came home. 

some nights he came home early, footsteps echoing through the quiet mansion before midnight. other nights, he returned a little later, long after you were supposed to be asleep, the distant sound of his shoes against the floor enough to finally let the tightness in your chest loosen.

he never knew you waited. or maybe he did. either way, neither of you acknowledged it.

but tonight was different.

the grandfather clock in the foyer had already struck two a.m. nearly fifteen minutes ago, the sound heavy and hollow throughout the massive estate. 

chenle has never been out this late.

you glance toward the entrance again before lowering your gaze to the untouched cup of chamomile tea in your hands. it had gone cold almost an hour ago, when you first realize how late it was and your husband was nowhere to be heard. 

“did chenle say where he was going tonight?” you ask the maid standing nearby.

“no, mrs. zhong,” she answers carefully, “but he did call for the driver around twenty minutes ago, he should be making his way back.” 

and it’s ridiculous, really, how your maid knows more about your husband's whereabouts than you do. 

“okay,” you nod gently, setting the untouched tea aside, “go ahead and get some rest,” you offer her a smile despite the exhaustion sitting heavily behind your eyes, “i’ll wait up for him.”

“are you sure, mrs. zhong? i could wait instead.”

you wave her off, “it’s a wife’s duty to take care of her husband.” 

she smiles politely at your response, “okay mrs. zhong, i’ll be here when you need me.” 

“thank you,” you say genuinely. 

she bows her head slightly before disappearing down the hallway, leaving you alone with the silence again. the moment she’s gone, your smile fades. slowly, you rise from the sofa and make your way toward the grand staircase. more specifically  – the left staircase. chenle’s staircase. the one you never use.

the mansion had been designed almost absurdly symmetrical, splitting the house in two. like the house itself understood the distance between you. 

you settle onto the second step quietly, smoothing the fabric of your silk pajama dress beneath you, waiting for him to come home. your eyes drift across the foyer absentmindedly – the massive chandelier overhead, the single round table with the antique vase filled of flowers you didn’t even like, and the wedding portrait hanging near the entrance your mother-in-law gifted. it always made your chest ache a little. you looked so happy in it. chenle looked convincing.

you wonder if this is what arranged marriages are supposed to feel like. waiting around in silence for someone who never notices you waited at all. you lean your head lightly against the staircase railing. maybe he was working late. maybe he was drinking. maybe he didn’t want to come home anymore. the last possibility settles the heaviest. 

your mind drifts despite yourself, back toward the beginning. a time when chenle used to text you constantly whenever he went anywhere. texts that were as silly as:

look at this ugly dog i found

watch basketball with me, i have popcorn

and others, that always made you smile and your heart race:

just tried the new restaurant down the street from our favorite tea place. i have to bring you there..it will make you cry tears of joy.

i saw this dumpling plushie and it reminded me of you, so guess who has a new dumpling plushie

let’s go on trip this weekend, just me and you…already got the flight tickets 

my mom’s annoying me. come save me. please. 

where are you? i’m picking you up

you used to be the first person he looked for in every room. now you barely knew what was going on in that mind of his. a soft laugh escapes you suddenly, quiet and humorless. if the tabloids could see you now, they’ll realize just how easy it is to create fake gold.

another thirty minutes pass when headlights appear through the front windows. your body straightens instantly before you can stop yourself, heartbeat quickening embarrassingly fast. 

the front doors open moments later, chenle walking in. his tie hangs loose around his neck, dark hair slightly messy like someone has been running their fingers through it repeatedly. he smells faintly of alcohol, expensive cologne and perfume that definitely wasn’t yours. your stomach drops before you can even process it fully. it’s sweet, floral, feminine – not familiar. 

chenle freezes the second he notices you sitting on the staircase. for a brief moment, genuine surprise flashes across his face. 

“what are you doing up?” he asks, voice rough and tired. 

you force your expression to remain soft, normal, “waiting for you.”

something unreadable flickers in his eyes. guilt. maybe. or irritation. you can never tell with him anymore. whatever it is, it disappears almost instantly.

“go to bed, y/n,” he says with a sigh, already sounding exhausted by the conversation before it even begins. then he walks past you. just like that. and something inside you finally snaps. 

there were many things that you could let slide. chenle ignoring you. chenle barely speaking to you unless necessary. chenle looking at you with those cold eyes sharp enough to cut skin open. chenle hating you for a life neither of you truly chose. 

but this? coming home way past midnight smelling of alcohol and another woman’s perfume while wearing lipstick marks on his neck like he didn’t even care enough for you to hide them???

a wife could only take so much. 

you could only take so much. 

before you know it, you’re standing abruptly and following him up the staircase. his staircase. your slippers hit the marble harder with every step as anger burns hotter beneath your skin. he pushes open his bedroom door and you follow him inside immediately, shutting it sharply behind you, the sound echoing through the room.

it’s your first time entering his bedroom in the four months you’ve been married. that realization alone feels pathetic. it’s cleaner than you expected. dark walls. dark sheets. expensive furniture. floor to ceiling windows overlooking the green landscape, similar to yours. it looked less like the room of a married man and more like a luxury bachelor suite. nothing about it felt like there was space for you. 

“are you fucking cheating on me?!” you demand, voice coming out harsher than intended, anger cracking through the polished composure you spent years perfecting.

chenle groans immediately, dragging a hand through his hair before kicking his shoes off carelessly, “i don’t want to fucking talk about this right now.”

you ignore him completely, hurt and fury already boiling too violently inside your chest. 

“is this why you hate me so much?,” you ask, voice rising, “because you’re already in love with someone else?!”

that catches his attention instantly. his head snaps toward you so fast it almost startles you.

“what?”

you let out a bitter scoff, “oh my god, chenle!,” you gesture toward him angrily, “you have her scent all over you, there’s lipstick all over your neck–i’m not fucking stupid.”

your voice gets louder with every word. so much for grace. so much for being poised. right now you’re just angry. hurt. humiliated. 

chenle stares at you for a second before rubbing both hands down his face tiredly, “i’m not fucking in love with someone else,” he mutters. 

“then what the fuck is this?!”

silence stretches for half a second.

“i needed to get laid.”

chenle laughs once humorlessly, “if you haven’t noticed,” he says coldly, “i’ve basically been fucking abstinent for four months and i just…needed a release.”

it’s almost sickening how that makes you feel better. your anger doesn’t disappear but the crushing feeling in your chest eases slightly knowing there wasn’t some other woman holding his heart while you sat here playing the perfect wife. it was just sex. not love. 

you step closer before you can think better of it. chenle’s brows furrow slightly at the sudden closeness. 

“if you need to get your dick wet, you come to my room.” 

his expression changes instantly, genuine shock flashing across his face. you continue before he can interrupt. 

“no one else’s.”

your chest rises sharply with each breath.

“i’m your wife now, for fuck’s sake.”

chenle just stares at you like he genuinely doesn’t know what to say.

“i don’t care if this marriage was arranged for business,” you snap, “you do not get to cheat on me…again.”

that room falls silent after that. you can practically see the conflict moving behind chenle’s eyes now. because he hates this. all of it. the marriage. the expectations. the loss of freedom. but you can also tell he didn’t expect this reaction from you. didn’t expect you to claim your place beside him so bluntly. 

“besides,” you add bitterly, “we need to have a child eventually, as our parents love to remind me,” your laugh comes out hollow, “you’d be doing me a fucking service.”

irritation flickers in chenle’s face immediately. but you don’t stay long enough to examine it. you turn sharply and walk out before he can say anything else, your heartbeat pounding violently in your ears as you cross to your side of the mansion. 

⚜️ THE BEST FRIENDS ⚜️

the two of you never talk about that night again. it got buried beneath the same routine. work meetings. silent dinners. passing each other in hallways without speaking. but something had changed after that. because you opened a door that night. and whether or not chenle chose to knock was entirely up to him. 

it takes another month before he finally does. 

chenle can’t believe he’s actually considering this. he stands in his bedroom, staring at the half empty whiskey glass in his hand. this was insane. he was about to walk into your room and what? sleep with his wife? his best friend? except he’s not even sure that title still belongs to the two of you anymore. 

best friends didn’t look at each other the way he looks at you now – like you were both the wound and the knife that caused it. best friends didn’t spend five months barely speaking despite living under the same roof. best friends definitely didn’t resent each other enough to split a mansion into separate lives. 

chenle exhales sharply before taking another shot. not enough to get drunk, just enough for that liquid courage to settle into his bones, silencing the voice in his head that told him this was wrong and allowing himself to knock on your door.

he knows this is so hard to do because of him. he knows he’s been irrational. resenting you for decisions neither of you truly got to make. taking every ounce of frustration and grief and anger about his life and placing it onto your shoulders because it was easier to have someone to blame than to accept that this is his reality. 

and yet despite all of that – the only thing you had ever truly asked of him during this marriage was to not cheat on you…again. you could’ve demanded affection. attention. a real marriage. instead, you simply looked him in the eye and told him to come to you first. that memory hasn’t left his head since. 

another sigh escapes him before he sets the empty glass down and finally walks out of his room. the hallway separating your bedroom feels strangely longer tonight. every step making him question himself again. this was a terrible idea. he should turn around. go back to his room. pretend this impulse never happened. but fuck, he needs to get laid…right now. 

the knock startles you instantly. you glance up from your bed in confusion. it’s almost midnight. no one ever knocks this late and the maids only enter when called. for a second, you wonder if something’s wrong. 

slowly, you slip off the bed and walk toward the door, your silk, short pajama dress flowing around you. and there he is – standing in the hallway looking strangely tense beneath the dim lights.

for a moment, neither of you speaks. then chenle says flatly–

“i want to have sex.”

simple. direct. like he’s discussing a business proposal instead of standing outside his wife’s bedroom at midnight. your chest tightens painfully because somehow, even after everything, a part of you still hoped he’d come here for another reason. that maybe he missed you. maybe he couldn’t sleep either. maybe tonight, after months of silence, he finally wanted to talk to you like he used to.

but of course not. he wasn’t your chenle anymore. and this was your marriage - transactional. carefully detached. emotionally hollow.

“okay,” you answer softly after a second, stepping aside to let him in. 

chenle walks past you quietly, eyes scanning your room almost curiously. unlike his bedroom, yours actually looked live in. warmer lighting. books scattered across tables. skincare and makeup products lining the vanity. blankets thrown carelessly across the couch near the windows – and trinkets, gifts, specifically from him – scattered around different parts of the room. 

the dumpling plushie he got you when you were fifteen all because it reminded him of you.

the vintage camera on your shelf he bought behind your back when you were sixteen because you had mentioned once, only once, that you loved taking pictures because it made moments feel permanent. he remembers showing up the next day with your dream camera like it was nothing. “don’t say i never support your hobbies,” he teased. 

even those damn crybaby figurines he bought you when you were seventeen were lined carefully beside your bookshelf. every single one from the collection you obsessed over years ago. you had a frown on your face over not getting the rare one from a blind box once and chenle spent nearly two weeks secretly hunting every figurine down until your collection was complete. you used to tell him he was insane for it. he used to think seeing you happy made the effort worth it. 

suddenly the room feels suffocating. because there are pieces of him everywhere in here. small reminders scattered throughout your life of proof that before everything fell apart – chenle used to love you loudly. maybe not romantically. maybe not in the way you wanted. but enough to memorize the smallest things about you. enough to notice every passing comment and quietly turn it into something real. 

chenle rubs the back of his neck awkwardly before finally looking at you fully and for the first time in months – he doesn’t look angry when he does. if anything, he looks shaken. then he clears his throat.

“we don’t have to make this…” he pauses, brows furrowing slightly, “more than what it is.”

“okay,” the answer leaves your mouth too quickly. too easily. like you’ve already accepted that this was how it was always going to be. 

he nods, leading the way as he reaches for the buttons of his pajama shirt. you look away the second the fabric slips from his shoulder, the room suddenly feeling warmer. chenle drops his shirt onto the chair near your vanity while you remain frozen beside the bed, fingers nervously toying the hem of your pajama dress.

neither of you knows how to start this. that becomes painfully obvious almost immediately. there’s no romance here to guide the moment. no affection softening the edges. just tension and awkwardness. 

finally, because if you stand there any longer, you think your heart might actually burst through your ribs, you reach beneath the fabric of your dress. with shaky fingers, you hook the elastic of your underwear and slide them down your legs, stepping out of them and leaving it on the floor. you keep the pajama dress on through, the thin material clinging to your curves. 

the room goes still. chenle's eyes lift instinctively toward you, tracing the silhouette of your body before darting away almost immediately. and somehow that reaction hurts more than if he’d stared openly. because this feels like restraint. like guilt. like he is forcing himself not to want you.

you climb onto the bed quietly, trying desperately to appear calmer than you feel. 

“you can turn the lights off if you want,” you murmur softly. 

and maybe that was better. maybe if he couldn’t see you, he could pretend you were just another one of his one night stands. maybe the darkness would erase the history between you, leaving only the physical need. darkness settles over the room instantly, softened only by the lights outside filtering through the windows. 

chenle approaches the bed slowly afterward, the mattress dipping slightly under his weight as he climbs in beside you, leaving enough distance between your bodies. neither of you speaks. there’s nothing comforting to say. just the sound of breathing filling the dark room. 

then, he finally reaches for you. his hand settling against your waist, his palm warm against the thin fabric of your dress. he pulls you toward him and your breath catches immediately. and it’s sad, really, that despite the coldness, despite the hate, you’ve wanted this for years. you want him so badly it feels like a physical ache in your chest. 

you close your eyes as he shifts closer, the last fragile layer of distance between you finally disappearing. he doesn’t lift the dress, simply just bunching the fabric up around your waist, exposing your hips and thighs to the cool air. he doesn’t kiss you. he doesn’t whisper your name. he simply positions himself, his cock hard and pressing against your entrance…and he thrusts in. 

“fuck,” chenle groans under his breath, his hand gripping your waist harder instinctively, digging his fingers into your skin, “you’re so fucking tight.”

your breath catches painfully at the stretch, a sharp, searing pressure tearing through your center as your body struggles to accommodate the sudden intrusion. your fingers unconsciously claw into his biceps, gripping the hard muscle as a gasp of genuine pain escapes your lips. it hurts – more than you expected it to. there was no slow build up to soften any of this. no tender words whispered against your skin to ease the transition. this wasn’t lovemaking. 

for chenle, this is only a physical release, a way to drown out the noise of his own sadness and the crushing weight of his expectations. for you, it was simply duty. the possibility of giving both families the heir everyone expected from the moment your engagement was announced. just two emotionally exhausted people trying to fulfill a role they’d been pushed into years ago. 

chenle notices your pain immediately. you know he does because his movements stall, his body freezing inside you for a beat. in the dim light, you see his brows furrow, a flicker of something – hesitation, perhaps, or a ghost of the boy he used to be – crossing his features. he gives you a moment to adjust, his chest heaving against yours, but. neither of you say anything. 

what would even be the point? there are no sweet words to be exchanged here. no declarations of love. only uneven breathing filling the dark room and the occasional strained sound slipping from both of you despite yourselves. 

chenle keeps his eyes fixed downward, jaw tense like he’s trying not to think too hard about any of this. about you. about the way you feel wrapped around him. about what this act actually means for the two of you.

your fingers loosen from his arm eventually, your grip shifting to the silk sheets beneath you, bunching the fabric in your fists as the initial, blinding ache slowly dulls into a manageable throb. but as the physical pain recedes, a different kind of agony takes its place – one that is far more suffocating, your mind cruelly reminding you that this is the boy who used to hold your hand while crossing the street to make sure you were safe. the boy who bought you random gifts because they reminded him of you. the boy you had loved with a purity that now felt like a joke. and now, here you are, beneath him in a silence so heavy it felt suffocating. 

he doesn’t try to make it last. he doesn’t try to find your pleasure or bridge the emotional divide between you. he simply drives into you with a mechanical, rhythmic intensity, his movements devoid of affection.

he lasted six minutes before it was finally over. 

chenle curses softly under his breath as he paints your walls white. his forehead drops briefly near your shoulder, breathing unevenly before finally stilling completely. the room falls quiet almost immediately afterward except for both of your breathing. 

then, chenle carefully pulls away. he begins to shift back but freezes mid-motion, his eyes dropping toward the sheets beneath you, the air in the room vanishing – small, vivid spots of red stain the white sheets. 

“shit,” he breathes, his entire expression changing instantly. the detachment he had maintained through the act vanishes, replaced by a sharp, jagged edge of alarm, “are you okay?”

the concern in his voice catches you off guard more than anything else. real, genuine concern that you haven’t heard from him in years. the same boy who used to worry if you’d scraped your knee. 

still trying to steady your breathing, you blink at him tiredly, “what?”

“you bled,” he says immediately, eyes darting back toward the sheets before the realization visibly crashes into him. his face tightens, jaw locking as the implication sinks in. 

“fuck, y/n…,” he exhales sharply, “are you a virgin?”

you stare at him for a long second, the silence stretching between you. you feel empty, raw and utterly exhausted. you shrug lightly, “well,” you mutter dryly, “as of a couple minutes ago, i no longer am.”

chenle looks at you like you’ve just punched him in the chest. there’s disbelief there. guilt. and worst of all – pity.  you hate it instantly. you aren’t a porcelain doll. you are the owner of an empire and you had walked into this encounter with your eyes wide open. 

“don’t look at me like that,”  you scoff, reaching for your blanket and pulling it over you, “it’s not a big deal, chenle. it was gonna happen one way or another.”

he lets out a frustrated sound immediately, dragging both hands through his hair, “why do you keep saying that?!,” he snaps suddenly. 

you blink, startled at the sharpness in his tone, the sudden eruption of emotion, “because it’s true.”

“no, it’s not,” his brows pull together harder, frustration and disbelief bleeding into his voice, “and this is a big deal. i just took your virginity.”

“and?!” you shoot back instantly, emotions finally cracking open.

“it was always yours to take!”

silence. thick. heavy enough to suffocate the entire room. chenle stills completely. the lights spilling through the windows cast shadows across his face, but you can still see the shock there clearly. he looks haunted, as if you’ve just revealed a truth he wasn’t prepared to handle.

“what?” he asks quietly. 

“unlike you,” you say bitterly, your chest rising sharply, “i never thought marrying my best friend was something so repulsive.”

the words hit hard enough that chenle just stares at you. stunned. because he genuinely cannot understand it. 

when he found out about the arrangement years ago, it felt like his entire life stopped belonging to him. suddenly every conversation had contracts hidden beneath it, every family dinner felt staged, every interaction between the two of you became another reminder that his future had already been decided before he even got a say. he panicked. rebelled. slept with girl after girl trying to desperately prove to himself he still had freedom. he still belonged to himself. still had choices before marriage locked him into a life he never asked for. 

but you – you just accepted it. 

you didn’t run. you didn’t scream. you didn’t burn the world down to get away.

he remembers sitting in those meetings, hating every single second of it and every single time he looked at you – you were just sitting quietly beside him. calm. composed. nodding along politely whenever someone addressed you. you never argued. never pushed back. never looked angry enough. 

and chenle convinced himself that meant you didn’t care. that maybe this really was just business to you, too. he resented you for it. resented the way you accepted everything so easily while he felt like he was suffocating. resented the way you let your parents decide both of your lives without fighting harder beside him. resented how fake everything started feeling after that. like your friendship had never really belonged to the two of you. like it had been another transaction always meant to happen. 

just like tonight. 

just like this bed. this room. your first time. 

the reality settles sickeningly into his chest. because despite all his anger, despite all the resentment he carried for years – this should have been special. not because virginity itself mattered to him. but because you did. somewhere beneath the layers of bitterness, the boy who loved you was still there, and he realizes with a jolt of horror that he is the one to turn this moment into something cold. another deal to complete. another box to check.

for the first time in months, chenle genuinely feels ashamed standing in front of you. 

you slide beneath the blankets completely, turning away from him. your voice goes cold again. controlled. composed. your expression slowly shutting down. piece by piece. the same way it always does whenever he hurts you. it’s a practiced defense, a wall built from years of his indifference.

“i’ll have the maid clean the sheets tomorrow.”

chenle opens his mouth slightly. then closes it again. because there’s nothing he can say that fixes this. nothing that gives you back the moment he just ruined. he cannot un-take your innocence.

“if you’re done here,” you murmur quietly, “you should just go.”

the guilt eats him alive, gnawing at his insides as he stares at your curled-up form. yet, chenle walks out anyway. 

⚜️ THE MOTHER IN LAW ⚜️

you get your period two weeks later and it annoys you far more than it should. the second you see the faint streak of red, disappointment settles heavily into your chest before you can stop it. pathetic. you actually let yourself hope that one night would be enough. that somehow, despite how cold and emotionally disastrous it had been, it might’ve at least resulted in something tangible. something that would finally make this marriage feel like it’s moving forward instead of rotting quietly in place. something that would finally make this mansion feel like a house. 

you’re afraid of the possibility it won’t happen again. not after the way things have been recently. 

it’s gotten worse between you and chenle. at least before, when he looked at you, there was fire there. albeit, not the good kind…but fire, nonetheless. 

now, it was just stone cold. and every now and then – guilt. it’s like he doesn’t know what to do with himself around you anymore. and every single time you notice it, sorrow settles deeper inside your chest. guilt isn’t love. you don’t want him feeling sorry for you. you want – no. you force yourself to stop that thought before it finishes.

wanting things from chenle only ever leads to disappointment. 

“y/n, dear, how are you and chenle?” mama li’s voice breaks through your thoughts. she’s sitting elegantly across from you in the living room, posture perfect even in something as simple as afternoon tea. sunlight pours through the massive windows behind her, catching the gold resting against her fingers as she lifts her teacup gracefully. 

she’s beautiful in the same terrifying way chenle is. composed. sharp. impossible to fully read. sometimes looking at her hurts because all you can see is him. 

she asked the question gently. but there’s always command hidden beneath her voice, years of power woven naturally into every word she speaks. 

“uhm,” you hesitate, “i don’t know, mama li,” the nickname leaves your lips naturally. it always has, “i don’t think we’ll ever go back to the way we used to.”

for a moment, genuine sadness flickers across her face. she exhales softly before offering you a small smile, “just give it time,” she says gently, “you know he’s always loved you.” 

your chest tightens painfully. it’s what everyone says. your parents. his parents. family friends. employees who watched the two of you grow up together. everyone insists chenle loved you once. maybe still does. but lately, you’re not so sure anymore. maybe everyone simply misunderstood him all these years. maybe being comfortable around someone your entire childhood wasn’t the same thing as loving them. 

after all – chenle himself has never actually said it. not once. 

mama li studies your expression carefully before continuing, “chenle has always been difficult with his emotions,” she says with a quiet sigh, “but that boy would follow you around everywhere when you were younger. you were the only person who could calm him down whenever he got upset.”

you force out a faint smile, “that was a long time ago.”

“feelings don’t disappear that easily,” she replies smoothly. 

you wish you believed that. instead, you take another sip of tea to avoid answering. 

“even so, my dear,” her eyes linger meaningfully on you, “i hope you’re not forgetting your duties.” 

there it is. the real reason behind this conversation. behind her visit.  

children. heirs. you suddenly feel exhausted. you don’t know what to say. you’ve only slept with chenle once. and considering the fact you got your period this morning, you’re very aware you are not pregnant. still, you can’t exactly tell his mother that her son barely touches you. so instead, you straighten your posture slightly and force your voice to remain calm. 

“we’re trying.”

mama li’s expression brightens immediately, genuine excitement sparkles in her eyes, “well, that’s wonderful news,” she says warmly, “we have to continue our legacies after all,” she adds with a soft smile, lifting her teacup once more. 

legacy. sometimes you wonder if anyone in this family actually understands how lonely that word feels. 

⚜️ THE DRUNK WIFE’S PINKY PROMISE ⚜️

it’s been a month since mama li’s visit. and half a year since you and chenle got married. he hasn’t touched you once since that night. not even accidentally. no lingering touches while passing each other in hallways. no brushing shoulders. no quiet midnight knocks at your bedroom door. absolutely…nothing. 

and lately, the restlessness sitting inside you has started turning into panic. because six months into marriage and you still weren’t even close to being pregnant. your parents ask constantly. mama li asks so often that your stomach knots every single time. even the public has started wondering. the media hasn’t said anything outright yet, but you’ve seen the headlines. 

WHEN WILL THE GOLDEN COUPLE ANNOUNCE THEIR FIRST HEIR?

A BOY OR A GIRL? IT SHOULD BE ANY DAY NOW.

and worst of all — people at work were starting to notice things too. the whispers had gotten louder these past few weeks:

why do you never arrive together? why do you leave separately? why do the two of you never eat lunch together despite literally being married? were you both simply that professional??? or did you secretly hate each other???

the stress had been eating at you slowly. you feel like you’re being watched even more so than usual. 

so tonight, for the first time in months, you finally leave the mansion for something other than work. with your best friend - yizhou ning-qian. if anyone understood arranged marriages, it was her. except for the obvious difference that her husband, kun qian, absolutely adored her. even with their seven year age gap, they worked. somehow effortlessly. which honestly made your own marriage feel even sadder by comparison. 

“have you tried initiating it?,” yizhou asks casually, sipping her tequila.

the two of you were tucked away inside one of the private rooms at a high-end bar where membership alone cost more than most people’s yearly salaries. dim lights glowed against velvet seating while soft jazz echoed faintly beyond the closed doors. 

you stare at her, “yizhou,” you say flatly, “i can’t even get close enough to try.”

she snorts immediately, the sound sharp and mocking of the situation.

“every time i walk into a room,” you continue, “he leaves. immediately.”

"man,” she sighs, shaking her head, “chenle seriously needs to grow the fuck up.” you can’t even disagree. “this was always going to be our lives,” she continues, taking a quick sip of her drink, “and honestly? it’s not even that bad.”

another tequila shot arrives at the table. she pushes it toward you with a mischievous glint in her eye.

”i mean,” she giggles, “we’re literally billionaires! it can’t get better than this.”

you burst into laughter with her despite yourself, the alcohol finally beginning to warm your chest pleasantly. 

“exactly!,” you groan dramatically after downing the shot in one go, “all we have to do is marry someone else rich and pretty yet chenle thinks the world has ended.”

yizhou nearly chokes, laughing, “god, he’s just been too spoiled.”

the two of you dissolve into another fit of giggles. and if it was any other person, you’d feel awful for trash talking your husband. but she was your best friend, one of your safe spaces. and it feels good to laugh. you haven’t done that in a while. 

yizhou wipes beneath her eyes dramatically before leaning back against the couch, “if anything,” she says, still grinning, “you guys are the luckiest out of all of us.”

your smile falters, “and why’s that?”

”you married someone you already know…someone you already love.”

the words silence the laughter instantly. the love you carry for chenle is a heavy, aching thing – a devotion that has survived his coldness and his resentment. but love is a two-way street. and chenle has shown it loud and clear that he didn’t share those same feelings for you. 

“he doesn’t love me, yizhou,” you say quietly. 

for a second, she just stares at you. then suddenly, she bursts into even louder laughter. ”yeah,” she says sarcastically between giggles, “and my husband is fucking poor!”

you shove her shoulder weakly while laughing. considering kun was literally one of the ten wealthiest men in the country, the statement sounds ridiculous. 

her expression softens after laughing, “y/n,” she says more seriously now, “that boy has loved you since before we even knew what love was.”

“you don’t know that,” you whisper, chest tightening painfully as you shake your head immediately.

“oh, please,” she rolls her eyes, “everyone knows that.”

you sigh into your drink. you wish people would stop saying that. it just lets the hope linger longer. just reminds you of the boy he used to be. just makes the man he has become feel more like a tragedy.

”seriously,” she continues, leaning forward now, “he just needs to wake up from whatever self-pity hole he dug for himself.”

you stare down at the amber liquid in your glass quietly. 

“i mean, come on, he has to know that it could be worse,” she adds. 

“how could it be worse than this?”

”jaemin’s literally arranged to marry someone he actually hates,” she points out, “and even he isn’t acting as childish as chenle,” she reaches for your hand then, intertwining her fingers through yours. 

“it’s not your fault, y/n.”

your throat tightens at her comfort, the alcohol heightening the vulnerability of your emotions. 

“and sooner or later,” she says softly, "chene's going to realize that too. he’s going to realize that while he was busy hating the arrangement, he was losing the only person who actually gives a damn about him.”

you drank a lot more than you should’ve. at first, it was just to loosen up. but somewhere between the expensive tequila, the soft jazz playing in the private room and yizhou’s ridiculous stories, the warmth spreading through your body started feeling addictive. every shot made things quieter. lighter. your thoughts blurred around the edges. your chest stopped hurting so much whenever chenle crossed your mind. for the first time in months, you weren’t thinking about the empty side of your dinner table or the way your husband avoided looking at you like eye contact physically pained him. 

you were just laughing. drinking. existing. and maybe that’s why you didn’t realize how much time had passed until yizhou was shoving your purse into your hands while laughing at your completely incoherent attempt to put your heels back on. 

by the time your driver finally pulls into the mansion’s driveway, it’s nearly three in the morning. the second the car door opens, cold air hits your face and you instantly regret every decision you made tonight. 

“mmm,” you groan softly while stepping out drunkily, “why is the ground moving?” you complain.

“the ground is not moving, mrs. zhong,” your maid says gently while helping steady you. you squint suspiciously at the marble steps leading toward the front door. you manage to stumble inside the mansion without face-planting into the floor. barely. if it wasn’t for your maid’s help, you’d be on the ground. 

“its uh–kay,” you mumble as your maid carefully tries helping you remove your coat, “mmm okay, i can take care of myself. i’m a professional. i’m a…ceo of being okay!”

you absolutely are not. your words are slurring into a thick, honey-like mess and you nearly take out a priceless vase with your shoulder before you finally collapse onto the bottom step of the right staircase. 

upstairs, chenle hears your voice immediately. he had been awake. waiting. though he’d never admit that out loud. usually, when he came home from work, your bedroom light would still be visible through the tiny crack beneath your door. 

tonight, it had been dark. 

and when he checked downstairs earlier under the excuse of getting water, you hadn’t been in the living room either. and for reasons he doesn’t want to examine too closely, it unsettled him. so tonight, he intentionally left his bedroom door slightly cracked open. just enough to hear when you returned home. 

and now here you were. sounding very, very drunk. 

chenle exhales sharply before stepping out into the hallway. he makes his way downstairs quietly only to stop midway down the staircase at the sight in front of him. you’re sitting on the bottom step of your staircase now with your head slumped against the railing while your maid looks one second away from panicking. 

“i said i’m okayyyy,” you groan. 

“sir zhong,” the maid says immediately in relief the second she notices him. 

your head snaps upward clumsily at her voice, eyes unfocused as you follow her gaze. chenle stands halfway down the staircase dressed in dark sweatpants and a loose shirt, his hair looking unbelievably soft. he looks unfairly handsome for three in the morning – a devastatingly beautiful statue carved from ice and moonlight. 

“mrs. zhong is drunk,” the maid explains carefully.

“i’m not drunk,” you counter immediately. then your body sways sideways slightly and she catches your shoulder before you topple over completely. 

she turns back toward chenle helplessly, “i’m trying to help her up the stairs, sir. she might hurt herself without guidance.”

chenle’s jaw tightens slightly. then he nods once. “i’ll take care of it, you may go.”

she bows politely before quickly disappearing down the hallway, leaving the two of you alone. silence settles briefly. chenle walks down the remaining stairs slowly before stopping in front of you. 

“you drink now?” he asks flatly, clearly not amused. 

you squint up at him from the floor, “wow,” you mumble, a small, crooked smile playing on your lips, “judgmental much? mr. perfect.”

stubbornly, you attempt standing on your own. terrible decision. the second you rise, the world spins 360 degrees. chenle reacts immediately, one arm hooking firmly around your waist and hauling you flush against his chest. the contact is electric. it’s the first time in months he's touched you with any kind of intent, and the sudden heat of his body against yours makes your breath hitch. he is solid, warm, smelling of expensive soap and something uniquely him.

you blink up at him, your heart hammering against your ribs as you reach out, poking his chest weakly with a finger, “you’re not the only one,” you whisper, your voice losing its playful edge and becoming raw, “who wants to forget.”

the words come out quieter than intended. more honest too. you’re too drunk to notice the way his face softens for half a second. deep down, he’s always known it. he just never wanted to acknowledge it – the fact that you were hurting, too. 

he reaches forward, his hand cupping your face and squishing your cheeks together, forcing your lips into a pout. his brows furrow, gaze scanning your flushed face, “you know you’re not good with alcohol.”

you sway weakly at his wrist with a dramatic scoff, “psh, whatever.”

then you wriggle yourself fee from his hold before turning toward the staircase again, “i’m a big girl now,” you mumble stubbornly as you begin walking upwards, “i can do it.”

chenle hums behind you, not convinced in the slightest. you make it about five steps before the world starts tilting unpleasantly again. he was right. you were never good with alcohol. your head feels heavy. your feet hurt from the heels you still haven’t taken off and suddenly the stairs look impossibly long and all you want to do is fall asleep right here.

with a defeated sigh, you finally turn around. and only then do you realize how close chenle actually is. he’s standing just two steps below you. close enough that if you slipped backward even slightly, he’d catch you instantly. it softens you immediately. the way he still followed you. your expression crumbles into something smaller, softer.

“lele,” you mumble quietly, the nickname naturally slipping from your lips. you haven’t called him that in years. not since everything between you became sharp and complicated. 

chenle visibly freezes. the air in the stairway seems to solidify, trapping him in the space between who he is now and who he used to be.

your lower lip juts out slightly as you blink at him tiredly, “i need help,” you admit finally, your voice small and stripped of all its corporate armor.

his heart stops. he swears the world stops moving. because you sound exactly like her. not the polished corporate heiress version of you who sits through board meetings with perfect posture and calculated smiles. not the wife who carefully measures every word around him now. 

you sound like the girl he used to know. the one who used to cling onto his arm after getting tired at amusement parks. the one who cried dramatically over a barely scraped knee and demanded he carry her because “best friends are supposed to help each other.” the one who looked at him as if he were the only source of light in a dark world.

you sounded like the girl he loves. 

before business meetings hollowed everything out between you. before his own resentment poisoned every room you shared. 

chenle exhales slowly through his nose, a shaky breath that rattles in his chest. he sighs, and for the first time in years, the sound isn't one of annoyance, but of defeat.

“come on, you big baby,” he mutters. 

the tease slips out so effortlessly it surprises both of you, a sudden echo of a decade ago. your eyes widen slightly, he hasn’t sounded like that with you in a very long time. before you can even respond, chenle bends slightly and hooks an arm beneath your knees. you let out a tiny squeak as he lifts you effortlessly into his arms, bridal style. instinctively, your hands grab onto his shoulder, settling against his chest automatically as he starts carrying you up the stairs properly this time. his warmth surrounds you immediately, steady and safe, your alcohol fogged brain melting into it without resistance. 

chenle tries very hard not to think about how natural this still feels. how your body still fits against his as if they were two pieces of a puzzle designed by a higher power. he feels your fingers curl into the fabric of his shirt, a subconscious grip that mirrors the way you used to hold onto him when you were children. years ago, this would’ve been normal. he used to carry you all the time. after you fall asleep in the car rides home. after twisting your ankle once trying to impress him at basketball. after you threw a dramatic tantrum at sixteen because your heels hurt during some charity gala. back then, touching you was easy. now it feels dangerous. 

he pushes your bedroom door open with his shoulders before walking inside. carefully, he lowers you onto the mattress. but the second he starts pulling away, your hands grab onto him tighter. 

“not yet,” you mumble immediately, tugging him downward with surprising strength until he half falls onto the bed beside you. your arms wrap around him instinctively, face burying against his chest, holding him close. 

chenle freezes for half a second. then exhales slowly. because fuck. he missed this. he missed you. not the tense silence between board meetings. not the careful distance. not the version of you that flinches emotionally every time he looks at you now. but this – warm and soft and clinging onto him like he was still your safest place in the world. 

your hugs always used to calm him down faster than anything else. even now, after everything, his body relaxes embarrassingly quick the moment your arms tighten around him. he lets himself stay there for a little while. just a little. his hand settles carefully against your back as your breathing slowly evens out. 

eventually, he pulls back enough to look at you properly, brushing your hair away from your face gently, his fingers lingering slightly longer than necessary. 

“why’d you drink so much anyway?” he asks softly. 

and maybe it’s the alcohol. maybe it’s the exhaustion. or maybe you simply miss your best friend too much to keep pretending you don’t. because suddenly, you start talking to him like he’s still that person. 

“my husband won’t touch me,” you mumble sadly.

the words hit him directly in the chest. especially because you say it like your husband and the man currently holding you are two entirely different people. his eyes widen slightly, heat creeping into his face almost instantly and he’s almost grateful you’re drunk enough not to notice. 

“and everyone keeps asking me about children, lele…” your voice grows smaller, “it’s just–it’s too much,” you pout slightly afterward, eyes glossy and tired. 

chenle’s guilt continues to grow. he knows all of the pressure has been landing on you. his mother stopped bringing children up around him months ago. your parents tread carefully too. everyone gives him space, shows him more grace. he think’s it’s because everyone is afraid that if they push him too hard, it will make him snap completely. make him finally leave. no one realizes he never actually could. not when the thought of a world where he wasn’t with you, even in this broken, tragic way, felt more impossible than the marriage itself.

“do you even want a child?” he ask quietly, not sure why he keeps this conversation going. maybe because this is the most honest the two of you have been with each other in years. 

you shift, turning on your side to find a more comfortable position, and in the process, you instinctively seize his hand again. without a second thought, you tug his arm around your waist, pulling him flush against you until your back is pressed firmly against his chest. the position nearly wrecks him. because this used to be normal too. movie nights. sleepovers. lazy afternoons tangled together on couches while studying. you always used to curl into him naturally like he was home. and he used to hate having to leave, always wanting more time with you.

“it wouldn’t be that bad to have one,” you admit softly, your fingers playing absentmindedly with his, tracing the lines of his palm, “i mean…we have all the money in the world.”

chenle huffs quietly through his nose, a small, dry sound. it always comes back to that, doesn't it? the money. the wealth. the legacy. the gold-plated chains that bind you together.

“we could have twenty and still have plenty left over,” you add with a sleepy, whimsical giggle.

that actually almost makes him laugh. the image of the two of you with twenty children running around this mansion sounds absolutely insane. he can barely handle one drunk wife right now. still, his chest feels strangely warm hearing you talk like this – domestic, hopeful, almost dreaming. it stirs something in him that he thought he had buried under layers of corporate coldness.

chenle doesn’t even know if he wants children. at least, not like this. not because families and investors expect it. not because it’s another duty to fill. 

suddenly, you shift again, turning in his arms to face him fully. your movements are slow, languid, you lift your hand, fingers grazing his jawline with a touch so light it’s almost a hallucination. you caress him carefully, your eyes searching his with a heartbreaking intensity.

“give me a baby, lele,” you whisper. 

his entire body stills. every muscle locks. he knows its the alcohol talking. 

but, fuck.

the way you’re looking at him right now could ruin him. chenle would give you anything. money. houses. companies. his entire fucking life if you asked for it. just – not like this. not when it would feel like another transaction instead of something real. 

his hand slides carefully into your hair instead, “why do you want a baby so badly?” he asks quietly, voice strained.

you shrug faintly. then your expression softens into something heartbreakingly vulnerable. 

“i just don’t want to be so lonely anymore.”

his heart breaks instantly. completely. it’s his fault. he is the one who built the walls. he is the one who turned this house into a gilded cage. 

“so…” you mumble sleepily, eyes barely open now, “will you give me one?”

hope flickers across your pretty face so softly it nearly kills him. 

he swallows hard, “not right now, y/n,” he says gently. your expression falls immediately and the guilt twists violently inside him again. so he adds.. quietly…“maybe someday.”

your eyes lift toward him again slowly. then, you raise your pinky between the two of you.

“you promise?” 

chenle stares at it and suddenly he’s thirteen again. you don’t link pinkies the way others do. you once declared that it “felt fake” and that crossing fingers didn’t feel lucky enough for important things. so, the two of you had invented your own ritual. your own secret language of loyalty.

carefully, with a tenderness that makes his chest ache, chenle takes your hand and he leans in, pressing a soft, lingering kiss against the very tip of your pinky finger.

“i promise.” 

your sleepy face brightens instantly. you grab his hand and softly kiss the tip of his pinky too. 

a promise sealed.  except this promise wasn’t as simple as the ones before. 

eventually, your body relaxes fully against his chest while his fingers continue stroking slowly through your hair until you fall asleep in his arms. chenle stays there longer than he should, watching you sleep peacefully against him, finally not hurting for a little while. once he’s sure you’re completely asleep, he carefully slips out of bed. but before leaving, he gently pulls your heels from your feet one by one. then he places a glass of water and two pieces of tylenol on your nightstand. the same way he used to after parties years ago. for a while, chenle just stands there staring at you. then quietly, he turns the lights off and finally lets the night end. 

⚜️ THE DEATH GUMMY ⚜️

another month passes. and things were starting to shift subtly. you’re not entirely sure what happened that night you got drunk. honestly, most of it is blurry fragments in your memory – warm arms, soft whispers, the feeling of safety you hadn’t felt around chenle in years. 

whatever happened though, it softened chenle a little. just a tiny bit. 

he still doesn’t initiate a conversation unless absolutely necessary. still keeps most of his thoughts locked tightly behind careful expression. still retreats into himself more often that not. but he doesn’t leave rooms as soon as you enter anymore. and slowly, he starts joining you for dinner again. you ate silently, still on opposite ends of the table but at least he was there now. 

then, one night, you found him in the living room watching an episode of f.r.i.e.n.d.s. normally, you would’ve turned around to avoid making him uncomfortable. instead, chenle glanced at you briefly, eyes soft, not leaving, not telling you to go away either. so, cautiously, you sat on the opposite end. the two of you watched an entire episode, occasionally laughing at the same jokes. at one point your laughter overlapped and both of you went awkwardly still afterward. but even that tiny moment felt precious. more than you could ask for. 

maybe everyone was right. maybe chenle simply needed time. 

today, the two of you are at yü skincare headquarters. a product development meeting. one of the company’s biggest launches planned for next year. your team had spent nearly eleven months developing a new type of vitamin e supplement. and because you took your work seriously, you always insisted on testing products yourself. if consumers were putting your products into their bodies, then so would you. 

the testing room buzzes quietly with concentration. there are only five people here today – you, chenle, your assistant, mark lee – head of the vitamin research development team, and another researcher seated nearby typing notes rapidly into a laptop. 

mark steps forward excitedly, holding the newest batch carefully, “today is mainly flavor testing,” he explains, “we finally stabilized the texture, so now we just need to ensure the taste is actually enjoyable for the mass market.” he places one small green chewable into your palm. then another into chenle’s, “we infused it with natural fruit extracts to eliminate the vitamin aftertaste.”

you nodded absentmindedly, your mind already drifting toward the logistics of the rollout. you trusted mark implicitly – he was one of the best in the industry.

without a second thought, you and chenle both placed the gummies into your mouths.

and that’s when everything goes wrong.

your throat locks almost instantly. your eyes widen violently. for half a second, you think you might have swallowed wrong. but then your airway starts closing. fast. 

you can’t breathe. 

in a blind surge of terror, you slapped your hand hard against chenle’s arm, the sound sharp in the quiet room. his head snapped toward you, and every ounce of color drained from his face. he watched, in horror, as you began to turn a terrifying shade of red, your mouth opening desperately, gasping for air that wouldn't come. your eyes were wide, filled with a raw, primal terror.

chenle reacted before anyone else could even process what was happening. he lunged forward, gripping your shoulders with a strength that nearly knocked you back, facing you fully.

“Y/N?!” his voice was tight, laced with immediate alarm.

your lips parted, but no sound emerged – only a wet, wheezing struggle. you clawed at your own throat, your nails digging into your skin in a desperate attempt to open the airway.

a wave of pure, unadulterated terror hits chenle, his eyes darting around the room frantically, searching for the cause, mind racing through every possibility.

“what the fuck happened?!," he roared, voice echoing off the sterile walls.

the room froze. everyone stood paralyzed, their faces masks of confusion and sudden fear. no one answered. no one has answers. the silence was suffocating, broken only by the horrific, whistling sound of your struggle to breathe. chenle’s gaze snapped to the tray of green gummies. he pieced it together then.

“we’re there kiwis in these?!” chenle demands sharply.

mark blinked, nodding quickly, his voice trembling, “uh–yes, sir. we infused it with concentrated kiwi juice because it–”

“SHE’S ALLERGIC!,” chenle’s voice cracks through the room so loudly everyone jumps. 

you were deathly allergic to kiwi. not mildly allergic. not uncomfortable. deathly. a single slice of the fruit in a room could make your throat itch, a concentrated extract delivered directly into your system was a death sentence.

his breathing turns uneven instantly as fear floods his system. you’re not coughing anymore. you’re struggling. really struggling. your body starts slumping sideways in your chair and chenle catches you immediately before you hit the floor.

“hey–hey, stay with me!” his voice shakes. 

for the first time in years, he completely loses his composure in front of other people. he was no longer the cold heir, he was a terrified boy watching the only person he truly loved slip away.

“her bag,” he barked, the command slashing through the chaos, “someone get me her fucking bag now.”

your assistant rushes forward immediately, handing your bag over. another employee is already yelling for medics outside the room. everything becomes chaotic around him. but chenle barely hears any of it. all he can focus on is you. the violent red of the reaction was fading into a ghostly, terrifying pallor. your lips were tinged with a bruised blue, and your head kept dipping weakly, your consciousness flickering like a dying candle. your hand, resting against his suit jacket, felt colder with every passing second. for one horrifying, timeless moment, he genuinely believed you were dying.

“look at me,” he pleaded, his voice urgent and wrecked. he gripped your face, his fingers trembling against your cheeks, trying to force your unfocused eyes to lock onto his. “y/n, look at me! stay with me!”

your eyelids fluttered, your pupils blown and hazy. you could see him – the panic in his eyes, the sheer, unadulterated terror – but you couldn't reach him. you were drowning on dry land.

“fuck—!” he let out a choked sound, his hands shaking violently as he dove into your bag. he tossed aside your wallet, your phone, a lipstick, his movements frantic and clumsy, “where is it–where the fuck is it–”

then finally – the epipen. you always carried it for emergencies. 

relief crashed through him so hard it was almost physical, a wave of adrenaline that surged through his veins. he didn't hesitate. he didn't even remove your clothing, he slammed the injector hard against your outer thigh, the needle piercing through the fabric of your trousers with a sharp, clinical click.

“stay with me,” he whispered, his voice rough and broken, “please, please stay with me.”

the seconds that followed were an eternity of agonizing silence. chenle held his breath, his heart hammering against his ribs, watching your face for any sign of life. then it happened – you let out a sudden, violent gasp, a broken, desperate inhale that sounded like a sob. it was the most beautiful sound he had ever heard. oxygen flooded back into your lungs, and the sudden rush of air brought a torrent of tears that spilled from your eyes, soaking into the fabric of his shirt.

chenle exhales shakily like he forgot how to breathe too, his forehead nearly dropping against yours from relief, his eyes closing tight.

“that’s it,” he whispers frantically, his voice a breathless wreck, “that’s it, baby, breathe.”

he doesn’t even realize what he called you. he only cared that your hand, though weak and trembling, was curling around his fingers, clinging to him as if he were the only thing keeping you anchored to the earth. chenle grips tighter immediately, as if letting go would allow the death that had just brushed past you to return and take you away. 

“you’re okay,” he keeps repeating, “you’re okay. i’ve got you, i’ve got you.”

his breathing is uneven. his eyes are glossy. everyone in the room is staring now because they’ve never seen zhong chenle like this before.

but chenle doesn’t care about appearances anymore. not when he thought he was about to lose you forever. 

⚜️ THE ONLY CHOICE HE’S EVER MADE ⚜️

chenle never visits you in the hospital.

the first day, mama li told you he was busy dealing with the fallout at work, there were investigations happening now, meetings with legal teams and a very furious chenle. the second day, you waited. by the third day, you stopped expecting him entirely.

your private hospital suite overlooks the city skyline, expensive and pristine in the way only billionaires could experience. fresh flowers arrive every morning from companies and family friends. assistants rotate in shifts outside your door. nurses practically hover around you like you’re made of glass. everyone treats you like you almost died. which, to be fair, you technically almost did. still, you feel fine now. a little tired maybe. but alive. 

your father is currently standing near the windows watering the ridiculous amount of plants someone sent earlier when the question finally slips out of you quietly.

“has chenle come by?”

he pauses mid-motion before looking over his shoulder at you. then slowly, he shakes his head, “sorry, sweetheart.”

you look down at the blanket pooled over your lap, “you were right, dad,” you admit softly, your voice sounding hollow in the vast room.

his brows furrow, “i’m right about a lot of things…but what is this one about?”

you force out a weak laugh, “maybe it would’ve been easier to marry someone i didn’t love.”

that makes him stop completely. he places the watering can onto the nearby table before he walks toward your bed. your father has never been particularly good with emotions. he showed love through stability, protection and business lessons disguised as life advice. still, he takes the seat beside your bed quietly. 

“sweetheart,” he says carefully, “there are positives and negatives in every situation. and sometimes…the choices we make can hurt more than we expected them to—but you already made your decision,” he sighs softly, “and just like every good business deal, you have to commit to it fully.”

you almost smile. trust your father to turn emotional comfort into a corporate lesson. 

“trust your instincts,” he adds quieter this time, his hand patting yours awkwardly. it’s probably the closest thing to emotional reassurance he knows how to give. it helps a little. 

“thanks, dad,” you murmur. 

he nods once before leaning down to kiss the top of your head gently, “get some rest.”

then he leaves you alone again. the second the door shuts, the loneliness creeps back in. because despite his words – the only person you actually wanted to see was chenle. 

unbeknownst to you, chenle visits every single night.

always after midnight. always once he’s certain you’re asleep. he slips into your hospital room quietly, dressed in dark clothes and exhaustion. the first night, he genuinely thought you looked dead. too still. too pale. fear hit him so hard he crossed the room immediately just to place a trembling hand near your face and make sure you were still breathing. only after feeling your warm breath against his skin did he finally relax. after that, it became routine. every night he checks your breathing first. sometimes, he sits beside your bed for hours in complete silence, staring at you while guilt slowly eats him alive from the inside out. 

because you could’ve died.

and worse–

you could’ve died believing he hates you. 

chenle doesn’t think he would’ve survived losing you. that realization was a cold, jagged blade, cutting through the carefully constructed armor he had worn for years. it terrified him more than anything else. for years, he convinced himself the opposite, that you were the reason he felt trapped, the reason his life no longer belonged entirely to him. the reason everything started feeling planned and suffocating. but the second your breathing stopped sounding normal – none of that mattered anymore. all he remembered feeling was pure, violent fear. 

the memory keeps replaying in his head every night no matter how hard he tries to shut it out. your hand grabbing his arm desperately, your face turning red, the sound of you struggling for air, the way your fingers slowly weakened in his grasp, the horrifying weight of your body slumping against him and worst of all – how cold he felt. like someone had dumped ice water directly into his chest. 

he hates that it took a near-death experience to shatter his delusions. he hates that he had been so blind. fear like that doesn't stem from obligation. you don’t unravel, you don’t scream into the void, and you don’t beg a person to breathe if all they ever were to you was a responsibility — he hates how almost losing you made him realize that everything he felt for you had always been real. not planned. not arranged. not a script written by two powerful families to ensure a monopoly on the cosmetic industry.

because long before contracts existed. before business meetings and inheritance talks and engagement announcements – chenle loved you. 

he loved you when you were thirteen, sealing promises with kissed pinkies. he still remembers the first time you came up with it. the two of you had been sitting on the rooftop terrace of your parent’s vacation house, legs dangling over the edge while sharing melted popsicles in the middle of summer. “crossing fingers feels fake,” you complained dramatically after he broke a promise to watch a movie with you the week before, “people break pinky promises all the time.” he laughed, “so what? we sign contracts now?” you rolled your eyes before grabbing his hand. then, with complete seriousness, you pressed a tiny kiss against the tip of his pinky finger. “there,” you said proudly, “now it’s permanent.”  after that, every important promise between the two of you was sealed that way. he never broke a single one. 

he loved you at fifteen when you attended every single one of his basketball games with his number painted proudly across your cheeks in bright blue despite both your parents immediately scolding you for putting “cheap toxic paint” on your skin. you didn’t care though, you sat front row, screaming, “that’s my lele!,” every time he scored. he used to pretend to act embarrassed in front of his teammates while secretly searching for you in the crowd every few minutes just to make sure you were still there. you always were. and after the games, you’d rush toward him, still wearing his jersey, eyes sparkling. no victory ever felt as good as seeing you proud of him. 

he loved you at sixteen when your vintage camera became permanently filled with blurry pictures of him. half the photos were terrible – his face cut off, him mid-yawn, him glaring because you kept shoving the camera into his face while he was trying to eat. but mixed between those were softer ones too like him asleep in the car with his head tilted towards you, him laughing with his head thrown back, pictures of the two of you together. he once asked why you took so many pictures of him and you shrugged like it was obvious, “because you’re my favorite person.” he thinks maybe that was the first time his heart ever genuinely stuttered inside his chest. 

he loved you when you were seventeen, in a moment so sudden it had nearly knocked the wind out of him. he remembered the weight of the shopping bags in his hands, the handles digging into his palms, and the sheer, unfiltered joy radiating from you. you had spent weeks in a state of mourning over your crybaby figurine collection, devastated after failing to pull the secret rares. you hadn’t asked him for help – you never did – but chenle had watched your disappointment from the sidelines, and it had felt like a physical weight in his own chest. he spent nights contacting resellers behind your back until he found every missing figurine himself. when he finally handed you the completed set, the expression on your face had been blinding. you had looked at him as if he were the center of the universe. without a second thought, you reached up, grabbed his face in your small hands, and pressed a fervent, lingering kiss to his cheek. “i love you the most!” you squealed, your voice high and breathless with excitement. chenle remembered the way the blood had rushed to his face, a heat so intense it felt like a fever, while you remained blissfully oblivious, already turning back to admire your figurines. in that moment, he had realized that your affection was a drug, and he was already hopelessly addicted.

and deep, deep down, he knows he loved you at twenty-four. especially on the day you became his wife. the moment those heavy doors opened and you stepped inside wearing that white dress you spent months carefully choosing – he forgot how to breathe. everything around him blurred instantly. time slowed to a crawl, yet he felt his entire future rushing toward him at the same time. all he could see was you. the slight tremble in your hands, the way your eyes shimmered with a mixture of hope and fear, and the way you looked at him as if he were still your favorite person in the world, despite everything. you looked beautiful. not in the polished, public way magazines later described. not like “the perfect heiress.” you looked devastatingly you. and chenle wanted so badly to reach for you, pull you close, wanted this marriage to be real in every way that actually mattered. when the officiant gave the command to kiss the bride, his chest ached with a sudden, sharp grief. it felt cruel that this – a choreographed moment in front of a thousand witnesses – was your first kiss together. he remembers leaning down slowly, your lashes fluttering, lips soft and warm and gentle against his. and for a second, chenle forgot there were a thousand people surrounding you both. forgot cameras existed. forgot he was angry. kissing you felt terrifyingly natural, like a missing piece of his soul finally clicking into place, a homecoming he should have claimed years ago.

but the truth was, he had loved you long before he even had a word for it. back when the two of you were six years old and accidentally broke expensive glass tubes inside one of the zhong cosmetics labs while playing tag in the rooms. assistants had panicked instantly, someone yelled, another employee nearly cried seeing the shattered equipment all over the floor. you got scared immediately, eyes filling with tears as adults crowded around the two of you. and without even thinking, chenle stepped in front of you protectively, “it was my fault,” he lied. he remembered the feeling of your watery gaze on the back of his head while he stood there, taking the brunt of the scolding from every adult on the floor. he hadn't cared. the only thing that mattered was that you weren't crying anymore. later that evening, you had secretly slipped half of your dessert onto his plate, whispering that “heroes deserve rewards.”

everything else in his life had been a predetermined path. the schools, the internships, the board meetings, the carefully curated image of a successor. his life had been a series of checkboxes marked by people who didn't care about his heart.

but all those moments – the pinky swears, the blue paint on your cheeks, the secret figurines, the shared dessert – those belonged entirely to him. entirely to the two of you.

loving you was the only choice he ever truly made on his own. 

it had happened naturally, quietly, and without permission. he had built this love in the secret spaces of his heart, and in his desperate, panicked attempt to protect his freedom, he had almost destroyed the only thing that had ever actually set him free.

he hasn’t forgiven himself for any of it yet. not for avoiding you all these years. not for making you lonely inside your own marriage. not for turning your first time into something cold and painful. not for the way your face looked when you admitted you just didn’t want to be lonely anymore. and definitely not for freezing in that meeting for even half a second before realizing what was happening.

which is exactly why he can’t face you while you were awake right now. he physically can’t. because the second you look him with those eyes of yours, he’s terrified he’ll completely break apart in front of you. he imagined himself sobbing at your bedside, begging for a forgiveness he didn't believe he deserved.

and everyone keeps reminding him stress is bad for your recovery. the irony was a bitter pill to swallow. chenle knew he was the primary source of stress in your life. so, he remained a shadow, visiting only in the dead of night, watching the rhythmic rise and fall of your chest. it was pathetic. it was cowardly. but it was the only way he knew how to love you without hurting you further.

by the third day, your regular hospital meals suddenly disappear. instead, trays arrive with your favorite comfort foods – steaming siomai, all types of dumplings, wonton noodles – all warm and prepared exactly the way you like them. you can’t hide your smile when you see them because there is only one person in the world who knows your comfort order by memory, a relic of a childhood where he used to sneak you treats when you were sad. you stared at the tray fondly. chenle might not have visited you, but this feels like proof he still cares anyway. 

and by the fifth day, you’re completely over it. everyone is being ridiculously dramatic. you feel so energized already. bored out of your mind. still, every doctor insists your body needs more recovery time after the severity of the reaction. your parents refuse to let you leave early and the only person who actually has the authority to pull you out, your husband, isn’t taking that risk either.

you end up staying in the hospital for two more days before finally coming home. 

⚜️ THE AIR ⚜️

when chenle got home that afternoon, he’s exhausted. the past week had destroyed him more than he let anyone sees. he barely slept. barely ate. and every single time his phone rang unexpectedly, panic seized his chest before he could stop it. 

he loosens his tie tiredly as he walks through the mansion doors, mentally preparing himself to go to the hospital to pick you up. but as he walks into the kitchen — he freezes. 

you’re standing there, alive and healthy, wearing one of your silk pajama sets while leaning casually against the island, sipping water and scrolling through your phone like nothing happened.

for a second, he thinks he’s imagining you. you weren’t supposed to be released for another three hours. then again, you were stubborn enough to convince almost anyone to do what you wanted eventually. no one ever really knew how to tell you no when you looked at them with that specific, determined glint in your eyes.

“you’re home.” 

the sound of his voice quickly diverts your attention from all the emails you were catching up on to him. you glance up and in his eyes – you see the difference. the armor he usually wore wasn't just cracked – it was gone. his eyes were wide, vulnerable, and shimmering with a relief so profound it looked like pain. slowly, you place your phone down on the counter, smiling at him gently. 

“i’m home.”

for the first time all week, he remembered how to breathe again. like he had given you all of his air and it’s now finally being returned to his own lungs. 

the briefcase he was carrying hit one of the glass tables with a loud, jarring crash. he didn't care. he didn't even look at it. he crossed the kitchen, closing the distance between you and collided with you, pulling you into his arms so suddenly and with such force that the air left your lungs in a small gasp.

chenle hugs you tightly. desperately. like he needs physical proof you’re still here. still warm. still breathing. 

your eyes widen in shock, breath hitching against his shoulder. then, slowly, you let your guard down and wrap your arms around him, feeling the frantic, erratic thumping of his heart against your ear.

“i thought i was gonna lose you.”

his voice cracked, the sound raw and jagged against your hair. the confession was stripped of all pride, all resentment, and all the distance he had spent years cultivating. the fear was completely exposed, leaving him naked before you.

you pulled back just enough to look at him, though you stayed in his arms. the sight of him broke your heart. there were dark circles beneath his eyes, and his skin looked sallow from lack of sleep. and then, a single tear escaped, tracing a slow path down his cheek.

you froze. in all the years you had known him – from the boy who chased you through the labs to the man who ignored you across the dinner table – you had never seen chenle cry. not once.

with tenderness, you lifted your hand and brushed the tear away, your fingertips lingering on his skin, impossibly soft.

“zhong chenle,” you murmur softly, voice trembling with a mixture of ache and affection, “you really think you can get rid of me that easily?”

his eyes close briefly at your touch like your fingers can undo the pain inside him. he doesn’t answer, doesn’t joke, doesn’t hide behind sarcasm or distance or that cold indifference he perfected over the years. instead, chenle just pulls you back into his arms again, holding you tighter this time. and for the first time in years, you let yourself lean into him fully. 

eventually though, reality settles back between the two of you. chenle slowly loosens his hold first. the second he realizes how tightly he’s been clinging to you, his expression shifts immediately. he clears his throat quickly and takes a half step back like distance might help him regain control again. 

“i’m glad you’re okay,” he says quietly, guarded again.

before you can even process the moment properly — he leaves. just walks out of the kitchen entirely, leaving you standing there alone trying to understand what the hell just happened. 

none of that made sense.

chenle has spent the last six years hating you. yet, for a few minutes, he had held you like you were the only thing in the world that mattered. you stare at the doorway long after he disappeared through it. confused. hopeful. terrified. you didn't want to read too much into a moment of panic-induced weakness, but the ghost of his heartbeat was still echoing in your ears.

until your phone buzzes nonstop, dragging you back to reality, life continuing on like your world hadn’t just tilted.

⚜️ THE MISTAKE THAT ALMOST TOOK YOU FROM ME ⚜️

the next day you’re back at the office like nothing happened. your heels click softly against the marble flooring of yü skincare as staff members greet you nervously on your way toward your office.

you settle into your executive chair with a quiet sigh, immediately scanning through the pile of reports waiting for you. the vitamin incident had already become a nightmare with legal teams involved, quality control investigations and public relations teams working overtime to keep information contained. 

you press the intercom button lightly, “send mark lee in.”

less than a minute later, the heavy door to your office swung open to huang renjun, human resource manager. his posture was stiff, his expression carefully neutral, yet there was a flicker of hesitation in his eyes that immediately set off alarm bells.

your brows furrowed as you continued flipping through a document, “where’s mark?” you asked, your voice cool and professional, “i need the updated reports on the supplement.”

renjun coughs awkwardly, the sound immediately making you look up, something about his expression feeling off, “ma’am…” he hesitates, “he’s no longer with the company.”

your hand stills completely against the papers, “…what?”

“he’s been terminated.”

“i didn’t receive a resignation letter, nor did i authorize a termination,” you pointed out calmly, though your eyes narrowed, “explain.”

renjun uncomfortably shifts beneath your gaze, “sir chenle fired him.” you stare at him for a moment, trying very hard to not let your surprise show too obviously. renjun clears his throat again, “he actually fired everyone involved in the vitamin project.”

your mind raced. chenle was many things – arrogant, distant, and emotionally stunted. but he was never impulsive when it comes to business. he was a strategist who weighed every risk. for him to wipe out an entire department without a single consultation, without even a courtesy to call you, meant he had completely lost his composure.

you force your expression neutral anyway, “i see. you may go, renjun.”

renjun bows quickly before practically escaping your office. the second the door shuts, you lean back into your chair slowly. you should be angry. technically, you are. chenle had overstepped every professional boundary, sabotaging your chain of command and stripping you of your most experienced researchers. but beneath the irritation, a treacherous warmth bloomed in your chest. for the first time in six years, chenle had been emotional. he had been protective. he had burned down a project just because it had dared to hurt you. it was a violent, impulsive gesture of care, wrapped in the guise of corporate cruelty.

that night, you leave your office long after most employees have already gone home. the building is quieter now. the endless clicking of keyboards and ringing phones reduced to distant murmur somewhere far below. through the massive windows lining your floor, the city glows beneath the dark sky, millions of lights flickering like stars against the glass. 

you wrap your blazer tighter around yourself before stepping out into the hallway. your heels echo sharply against the tiles as you make your way toward the glass bridge connecting yü skincare headquarters to zhong cosmetics tower beside it.

the bridge had always fascinated everyone. two billion dollar companies physically connected in the middle of the skyline. a symbol of merger. of power. of the marriage between you and chenle. you used to love walking through it. now it just feels symbolic in the cruelest way possible — close enough to see each other yet still separated by glass. 

you knew these buildings like the back of your hand. every hallway. every hidden office. ever late-night corner where you and chenle used to sit as teenagers avoiding meetings your parents forced you into. the memories follow you all the way across the bridge tonight. 

by the time you reach the executive floor of zhong cosmetics, the receptionist has already gone home. only chenle’s personal assistant remains seated outside his office. the man immediately stands and bows politely the second he sees you. 

“mrs. zhong.”

you nodded once, your gaze fixed on the closed doors. “is he busy?”

his assistant hesitated for a fraction of a second, glancing at the clock. “yes, ma’am, but… you may go in.”

you don’t bother knocking, simply pushing the doors open and walking inside. his office is dim except for the warm lighting near his desk and the city lights pouring through the windows behind him. chenle sits in his massive leather chair, sleeves rolled up slightly while scanning through documents with quiet concentration. he doesn’t look up immediately, probably assuming it’s just his assistant.

“you fired mark lee?” your voice cuts cleanly through the room, chenle’s attention snapping upward instantly. for a fleeting second, relief flickers across his face, like part of him still instinctively checks whether you’re okay every time he sees you now. then the expression disappears again, turning into something neutral. 

“who’s that?”

you exhale slowly through your nose, already irritated, “chenle,” you say flatly, “mark lee. head of the vitamin research team.”

understanding clicks across his face immediately, but it isn’t accompanied by apology.

“ahh,” he leans back slightly in his chair, “yes. that guy. how could i forget.”

the dismissiveness in his voice immediately annoys you further as you walk deeper into his office, “you cannot fire my people without consulting me first.”

chenle finally sets the file in his hands down, “your people are my people,” he says coolly, “that’s the whole point of this marriage.”

you ignore the sting in that statement – the reminder that in his eyes, you are just another asset to be merged.

“i want him back on the team.”

his jaw tightens almost instantly, “no. y/n.” 

the answer comes too quickly. too firmly. 

you stop dead in front of his desk now, arms crossing, refusing to back down, “chenle,” you say, your voice carefully modulated, fighting to keep the anger out, “mark lee has been employee of the month for seven consecutive years. he’s one of the best researchers in the industry. he’s valuable to this company and firing him is a strategic mistake.”

"valuable people don’t almost kill my wife."

the room goes still. your heartbeat stumbles slightly at the sharpness in his voice, at the way he says my wife. the possessiveness of it nearly undoes you, but your frustration and stubbornness is stronger.

“for fuck’s sake, chenle,” you snap, the poise you’ve spent years perfecting finally cracking, ”it was an accident!”

his expression hardens immediately, “an accident?”

"yes, an accident!," you throw your hands up, “he didn’t even know i was allergic to kiwis!” 

which was true. almost nobody did. allergies were weaknesses and weaknesses were dangerous in industries like yours. information could be weaponized to easily. chenle knew that better than anyone. 

suddenly, he stands, furious enough that his chair rolls backward sharply against the floor. his palms slam loudly on his desk, a sound that cracks through the office. 

“an accident that almost took you from me!”

his voice hits the room heavily — raw, furious, terrified — completely unraveled in a way you’ve never heard before. you stare at him across the desk, chest tightening painfully before anger rushes back to protect you from the hope that can completely blind you.

“oh please,” you scoff bitterly, rolling your eyes, “i bet you’d be jumping up and down if i actually died. it would have been the perfect exit strategy for you wouldn’t it? no more obligations, no more arranged marriage.”

the second the words leave your mouth, the atmosphere changes completely. the heat of his anger vanishes, replaced by a cold, suffocating stillness. chenle freezes, his eyes locking onto yours, hurt plastered all over his face.

“what?” he whispers.

your own emotions spill over immediately afterward. because you’re angry too. and hurt. and most of all, confused. you don’t know what he wants anymore. he needed space, you gave him space. you offer him a physical relationship that benefits him, he barely even touched you. and now – now he’s acting like he cares.

“you’ve spent the last six years making it very clear that you hate me,” you say, refusing to let your voice shake, “you’ve avoided me, ignored me and treated me like a burden. so don’t suddenly start playing the caring husband because i almost died. don’t pretend you have a heart now just because you’re scared of the paperwork a death certificate would cause.”

his expression breaks even more. the anger is gone, replaced by a look of such profound devastation that it almost feels like a crime to feel the way you do.

“i don’t hate you.”

and he sounds painfully, devastatingly honest.

you stare at him from across the desk, your heart beating so loudly it almost drowns out the silence filling the office. chenle doesn’t look away from you. the room feels too small now. too full of things neither of you know how to say. 

“you don’t get to say that now,” you whisper finally, your voice cracking, “not after all these years.”

he looks down sharply, jaw tightening hard enough for you to see the muscle twitch. then he laughs once, a miserable, dry laugh. 

“i know.” the words come out rough. he drags a hand over his face like he’s trying to pull himself back together. it doesn’t work. “i know,” he repeats weaker this time, sounding small and hollow. 

you watch him carefully now, even more confused. zhong chenle never falls apart. not publicly. not privately. not ever. he is the gold standard of control – composed, untouchable, a man carved from ice and expectation. yet, standing before you, he looks like he’s seconds away from total collapse. 

your anger starts cracking around the edges as you look at the boy in front of you. you were always weak when it came to him. if there were a list of your weaknesses, he’d be right there, on top of that damned fruit.

“chenle…”

he suddenly shakes his head. he physically can’t let you comfort him right now.

“do you know what i thought when you stopped breathing?”

the question hangs in tha air as you hold your breath. 

“i thought,” he exhales shakily, “i thought the last thing you were ever going to believe…was that i hated you.”

he finally looks at you again then, completely wrecked, his eyes bloodshot and swimming with a grief that has been simmering for years. 

“and i couldn’t fucking breathe,” he admits quietly, his voice trembling, “because all i could think was that you were going to leave me believing i didn’t love you.” 

the world feels like it stops spinning. love. he said love. not care. not obligation. love. your lips part slightly but no sound comes out. chenle laughs bitterly again before shaking his head. 

“you’re right. i spent years blaming you for everything because it was easier than admitting i was scared,” he confesses, his gaze searching yours, “scared that none of my choices were mine anymore. that my entire life was a script written by our parents,” he swallows hard, his adam’s apple bobbing, “but loving you…that was the only choice that was actually mine.”

that brings tears to your eyes instantly. chenle looks at you helplessly now. he doesn’t know what to do with all the emotions spilling out of him anymore. 

“and i ruined us anyway.”

he moves then, walking around the desk quickly, finally removing the barrier that always sat between the two of you. you think he’s going to stop in front of you.

instead – he drops to his knees. 

“what are you–”

before you can even process the gesture, his arms wrap tightly around your waist, forehead pressing against your stomach and finally — he breaks completely. you feel the shuddering breath leave him in a great, racking sob, his grip tightening almost painfully around you, tears slipping down his cheeks. 

“i’m sorry.”

the words come out cracked. wrecked. nothing like the polished man the world knows. 

“i’m so fucking sorry.”

you cover your mouth with your hand, stifling a sob of your own, even though you could already taste the salt from your own tears. this is the same boy who never apologizes unless forced to. the man who would rather bleed out than let people see weakness. and here he is, kneeling at your feet, clinging onto you like you’re the only thing keeping him together. 

“i’m sorry for all of it,” he gasps, his voice breaking, “for hurting you, for making you feel lonely, for making you believe i hated you when i—,” his voice breaks completely. 

slowly, tentatively, you thread your fingers through his hair. the moment your touch meets him, chenle exhales a shaky, broken sound against your stomach, his entire body shuddering. even a small gesture of comfort from you is enough to undo him.

“stop that,” you whisper, voice trembling.

your heart is breaking for him, for the boy who spent years pretending to be a monster so he wouldn't have to admit he was a prisoner. you can't stand to see him like this – on his knees, apologizing as if he is something broken and discarded at your feet, rather than the person you’ve loved for all of your life. 

you gently tug at his hair, coaxing him to look up. when he finally does, his eyes are swimming with tears, his expression completely defenseless. in this moment, everything else feels distant and irrelevant. there is only one overwhelming realization pouring through your chest:

chenle loves you. 

the boy you spent years mourning while standing right beside him this entire time still loves you. your heart feels too full for your body. before you can overthink it, before the fear and doubts can return, you slide your hands down to his face, pulling him upward carefully.

“get up,” you murmur through your own shaky tears. chenle obeys immediately, still staring at you like he’s afraid this moment isn’t real. your hand slides slowly against his cheeks, wiping his tears away before settling on his jaw.

“you really love me?” 

the question is a fragile thing, barely a whisper, floating between you like glass that could shatter at the slightest breeze. you sound disbelieving, your voice trembling with the weight of six years of silence and cold shoulders.

chenle’s expression dissolves. the hardness in his eyes, the armor he’s worn since he was eighteen, it all melts into something so painfully tender it nearly wrecks you. 

“i always have,” he confesses. 

that’s the final blow. the last shred of distance, the last wall of resentment.

you kiss him first.

but chenle returns it immediately, kissing you back like he’s been starving for it, years of tension snapping instantly. his hands come up to your waist, pulling you impossibly closer, enough to pull a gasp from you while your fingers tangle tightly into his hair. 

this kiss feels nothing like your wedding day. it’s not polite. not careful. 

it’s desperate. it’s the sound of two people drowning and finally finding air. all the years you spent silently loving each other crashing together at once. he kisses you like he’s trying to make up for every moment he wasted. every cold shoulder. every lonely dinner. every time he walked away instead of reaching for you. 

your back bumps lightly against the edge of his desk. he breaks the kiss for a fraction of a second, his forehead pressing against yours, both of you panting, breaths mingling in the charged air.

“fuck,” he whispers against your lips, his voice a wrecked, needy rasp, “i missed you so fucking much.”

the words makes your head spin. you don't let him breathe, pulling him back down, your mouth seeking his with a hunger that matches his own. his grip on your waist tightens, and in one fluid, powerful motion, he lifts you effortlessly, hoisting you onto the desk. papers scatter, sliding across the desk and fluttering to the floor. he doesn't give a damn about the reports. the only thing that matters is the heat of you.

you wrap your legs around his waist automatically, pulling him into you as he steps between your knees. he crashes his lips back onto yours, his tongue sweeping through your mouth with a possessive urgency. this isn't just lust, it’s an exorcism. he is purging years of loneliness, and you are drinking him in, fingers clutching his hair, pulling him closer as if you could merge your very souls.

“do you know-,” he groans, his voice sounding almost angry at himself, his mouth moving to the sensitive skin of your jaw, “-how long i've wanted to do this properly?”

“stop talking then,” you tease, your voice breathy and laced with desire. you reach down, hooking your fingers into his belt loop, tugging hard, dragging his hips flush against your center.

chenle lets out a grunt as he grinds his cock firmly into your clothed core, the friction sending a jolt of pure electricity through both of you. he freezes, a shudder racking his entire frame, his breath coming in jagged hitches.

“wait... wait, baby,” he groans, his forehead dropping to your shoulder as he forces himself to pull back just an inch.

“what’s wrong?” 

“i really, really want to do this,” he rasps, “but...not here.”

you laugh softly and it almost undoes him. almost makes him take back what he just said. with a tiny smile on your lips, you nod, “okay.”

then you glance around the wreckage of his desk, your smile turning into something playful, “do you need help finishing up those reports first, then?”

“are you crazy?” he asks, though his tone is fond. he doesn't let go of you, his hands sliding down to squeeze your hips one last time before he helps you down.

“we’re going home...right now.”

the ride home is a blur of friction and heat. for the first time in your marriage, you don't sit in separate cars. you spend the entire journey tangled together in the backseat, the partition slid up to shield you from the driver’s view. you can’t stop kissing him. you can’t stop laughing into him, feeling the giddy, overwhelming rush of being loved back.

chenle is just as relentless, his mouth roaming all over your exposed skin, leaving a trail of dark, possessive marks that claim you as his. every time you try to catch your breath, he finds a new spot to kiss, his hands roaming your curves.

the air in the car is thick with the scent of expensive cologne and arousal, the silence of the ride punctuated only by the sound of wet kisses and the shaky, happy sighs of two people who have finally come home.

⚜️ THE MASTER BEDROOM ⚜️

as you step through the front door, chenle is practically jumping beside you, a boyish grin plastered on his face. he looks at you with a hunger that is now subdued by an overwhelming sweetness.

“race you to the top!,” he shouts.

before you can even process the challenge, he’s already bolting up the left staircase, his laughter echoing through the foyer.

“lele! this isn’t fair! i’m in heels!” you squeal, your voice sounding lighter than it has in years. you run up the right staircase anyway, feeling like a kid again – the version of you that loved him without fear, and the version of him that followed you everywhere. 

by the time you reach the top, breathless and flushed, he’s already there, leaning against the railing with a smug, sparkling expression. 

“that was not nice, you should’ve given me a head start!,” you complain, crossing your arms and pouting, a childish expression you haven’t dared to show him in a lifetime. he chuckles then, stepping forward, his presence enveloping you as he pulls you back into his arms. 

his finger lifts your chin to tilt you face up to his, “and what does the winner get?,” he asks, eyes dancing with a mix of mischief and adoration. 

you lean back slightly, a playful, daring glint in your eyes, “hmm…you get to choose.”

he quirks a brow, gaze dropping to your lips, “choose what?”

“my room or yours?” you say with a smile that looks innocent but tastes like a provocation. 

a slow grin spreads across his face, “how about ours?”

“ours?” confusion flickers across your features. 

without a word, he takes your hand and begins leading you. he doesn't turn toward the left wing or the right…instead, he guides you toward the central hallway – the one you’ve spent months ignoring. it was the dead zone of the house, a place too painful to acknowledge because it represented the void in your marriage. the hallway that leads straight to the master bedroom.

as you walk, he slides behind you, wrapping his arms around your waist in a tight back hug, pulling your back flush against his chest. he presses a kiss to the side of your neck, his breath hot and steady as he pushes open the two grand double doors.

you freeze, your breath catching in your throat. the room is breathtaking. grand and dipped in gold. 

“wow,” you whisper, stepping inside, “i haven’t been in here since your mom gave me the tour…i thought it would’ve collected cobwebs by now.”

“it did,” he whispers against your ear, his voice thick with a sudden, piercing apology, “i had the maids clean while you were in the hospital. i wanted it to be perfect for when we finally came home together.”

you turn in his arms, looking up at him. a small, bittersweet smile tugs at your lips., “maybe i should’ve eaten that kiwi a lot earlier.”

chenle’s grip on your sides tightens, his expression shifting into one of genuine panic, “don’t joke about that, baby. please.”

you giggle, the sound soft and melodic. he scolds you, though his eyes are softening, “it’s not funny, y/n.”

“i’m not smiling because of the kiwi,” you reply softly, your voice barely a breath.

“then why are you smiling?” he asks, his thumb tracing the line of your jaw.

you look away for a second, your cheeks flushing in embarrassment, “i just…i really like it when you call me baby.”

chenle’s heart is practically audible in his chest, his gaze intensifying as he tips your chin up gently, making you look into the depths of his devotion.

“i love you,” he declares, the words sounding like a vow.

“i love you, too,” you whisper back.

he kisses you then – not the desperate, starving kiss from the office, but something slow, sweet, and profoundly tender. it’s a promise of a future. a seal on the new life you’re starting.

then, without warning, he breaks the kiss and sweeps you off your feet. you let out a startled gasp, clutching his shoulders as he lifts you bridal style. he carries you across the room with effortless strength, eyes locked on yours, matching smiles on your faces before placing you carefully in the center of the massive king-sized bed.

as chenle looms over you, the playful energy morphs into something more deeper. he moves with deliberate, agonizing slowness, as if he wants to memorize every single inch of you, making up for every second of the years he spent pretending he didn’t want you. 

he leans in, his lips brushing against yours in a kiss that starts as a whisper and grows into a demand. his tongue swirls against yours as you moan into his mouth, hands tangling in his hair, pulling him closer.

“you have no idea,” he murmurs against your lips, his voice a low, gravelly vibration, “how long i’ve dreamed of kissing you.”

his hands move to the hem of your blouse, fingers grazing your skin and sending jolts of electricity through your nerves. he undresses you with a reverence that borders on worship, peeling away the fabrics slowly, pausing to kiss the hollow of your throat, the slope of your shoulder, and the middle of your breast. when you’re finally bare beneath him, he pulls back for a moment, his eyes darkening as he drinks in the sight of you.

“you're so beautiful,” he whispers, his gaze heavy with adoration. 

he descends slowly, lips finding your breast as he takes your nipple into his mouth, sucking firmly, you let out a sharp gasp, your back arching off the mattress. the sensation is new – a focused, searing heat that radiates from your chest down to your core. he alternates between soft licks and deep, demanding suctions, moving from one breast to the other, leaving a trail of wet, burning kisses across your ribs.

“lele…oh, god,” you whimper as he continues trailing lower, his tongue tasting the skin of your stomach, circling your navel and teasing the very edge of your underwear. you can feel the heat radiating from him, the scent of his skin mixing with the luxury of the room, your breath coming in short, jagged hitches.

you’ve only known one kind of intimacy ever – that cold, transactional night with him that left you feeling empty. this is different. this is a slow burn, a deliberate awakening.

as he slides your underwear down your legs, he settles between your thighs, pushing them wide. you feel a surge of vulnerability, a sudden flash of inexperience that makes you shy away slightly.

“wait, chenle…i've... i've never…” you start, your voice trembling.

chenle looks up at you, a tender, knowing smile on his face, “i know, baby. just relax. let me take care of you.”

the first contact of his tongue against your clit pulls a soft moan out of you, a sensation you weren’t prepared for. the feeling of pleasure, making your hips instinctively jerk upward, arching off that mattress in a desperate search for more. he presses deeper, his tongue swirling in a slow, rhythmic motion that targets the most sensitive part of you.

“do you like that?” he mumbles, his voice a low, vibrating growl against your wetness, the heat of his breath sending fresh shivers racing down your spine.

“yes…” you whisper shyly, voice trembling. you try to keep your eyes open, wanting to witness the sight of him. but you don’t get to watch for long before your eyes begin to roll back, lids fluttering as he begins to feast on you with a sudden, hungry intensity. he’s no longer just tasting you – he’s consuming you. his tongue flickering rapidly, alternating between broad strokes and sharp, pointed pressure that makes your toes curl. when he suddenly sucks your clit into his mouth, creating a powerful vacuum of pleasure, your vision blurs into a haze of white and gold. you are completely undone. the tension in your lower belly coils tighter and tighter, building into a frantic crescendo that makes you feel like you're vibrating.

“chenle, i’m… i think i’m…” you gasp, your fingers clutching the silk sheets until they bunch up in your fists.

“go on, baby. give it all to me,” he encourages, his voice thick with desire. he works his tongue faster and harder, driving you relentlessly toward the edge.

as he does, he glances up, his dark eyes focusing on the sight of you – your head rolled back, your mouth parted in a silent, desperate gasp, your body arched, your nipples peaked.

he reaches up, grabbing your hand and locking his fingers with yours, anchoring you to the bed. you squeeze his hand with everything you have, clinging to him as the world finally shatters. you cum hard, your clit pulsing against his tongue in a series of intense spasms that leave you sobbing for air. the release is so overwhelming that it feels as though you're floating in a void of pure euphoria, a level of pleasure you never knew existed. you collapse back into the pillows, panting heavily, chest heaving as the aftershocks continue to ripple through you.

chenle slowly lifts his head, your pleasure glistening on his lips. he looks at you with a mixture of triumph and pure, unadulterated love. he crawls back up your body, kissing your forehead, your nose, and finally your lips, making you taste yourself on his tongue.

you reach up then, your fingers hooking on his tie. it’s already loosened from your earlier desperation. you tug on it firmly, finally removing it. 

with a low, needy sound against his lips, you sit up, beginning to undress him, your movements hurried and clumsy with eagerness. buttons pop and fabric slides until he’s completely naked, his skin warm against yours. 

your breath hitches in your throat. you hadn’t seem him fully the first time – but now, in the soft glow of the bedroom, you can’t seem to look away. your gaze drops to his cock.

driven by a sudden, bold curiosity, you reach out, your fingers wrapping around the warm skin of his shaft. 

chenle lets out a sharp, strangled whine, his hips jerking towards your touch instinctively. the sound is so visceral, so unlike the composed man the world knows, that you freeze, your eyes widening.

“did that hurt?” you whisper, looking up at him with genuine concern, as if you've just discovered a secret vulnerability.

a small, breathless smile tugs at his lips, though his eyes are clouded with lust. he shakes his head slowly, his voice a strained rasp, "no, baby... fuck, it feels so good. you drive me insane–,” he kisses you again, pulling back just an inch, forehead resting against yours, breath hot on your skin, “-but you need to stop,” he groans, the sound vibrating in his chest, “i need to be inside you.”

he carefully guides you back to lay on the bed, hands sliding under your thighs to pull you closer to him. he spends a long moment just looking at you, his gaze roaming over your flushed skin and swollen lips.

“i’m sorry about before," he whispers, “i promise i’m going to make up for every single second of it,” he says, voice thick with emotion before grabbing your hand and pressing a soft kiss to your pinky. and before he can let go, you pull his hand towards you, returning the kiss to his pinky too – not the innocent promise of children, but a mature, desperate vow of devotion. chenle’s breath hitches, the small gesture acting like a catalyst, snapping the last thread of his restraint.

he doesn't rush though. he moves with a slow, reverent precision, parting your legs with a gentle nudge of his knee, his eyes never leaving yours. as he positions himself, the head of his cock brushes against your entrance, slick and searing hot. you gasp, your hips instinctively arching upward, seeking the friction. chenle lets out a shaky exhale, his muscles trembling with the effort of holding back. he enters you in one slow, agonizingly steady glide.

“oh...chenle,” you moan, your eyes fluttering shut as you feel yourself stretching to accommodate him. you’ve never felt so full.

he freezes for a moment, buried deep inside you, his forehead pressed against yours, a low groan escaping his throat, “you're so tight... so warm. i can't believe you're actually mine.”

then he begins to move, and it is nothing like the clinical urgency of the first time. this is a dance. he pulls back until he is almost out, only to plunge back in with a slow, heavy thud that makes you cry out. every thrust is deliberate, designed to make you feel the weight of him, the heat of him, and the sheer intensity of his love.

“chenle... please,” you whimper, your fingers clawing into his shoulders, “right there... don't stop.”

“i've got you, baby,” he whispers, kissing the sensitive skin of your neck, his lips leaving searing trails of heat.

he picks up the pace slightly, the wet, slapping sound of skin on skin filling the quiet room. then he reaches down, his hand sliding between your bodies to find your clit, thumb circling your swollen nub, perfectly timed with the deep, rhythmic thrusts of his hips. the combination is electric. you feel that same tension building again, faster this time, a coil of pleasure tightening with every stroke. you wrap your legs around his waist, pulling him deeper, wanting to erase any remaining space between you.

“look at me,” he commands softly. you open your eyes to find him watching you with an expression of pure, unadulterated worship, “tell me you feel it. tell me you know how much i love you.”

“i feel it,” you sob, your voice breaking, “i love you...i love you so much, chenle."

the words breaks something inside him. his movements become more urgent, more passionate, though he never loses that sweetness. he begins to whisper things against your skin – promises of a future, apologies for the past, and raw admissions of how much he craved this specific moment.

as the climax begins to crest, you feel your walls clamp down on him in tight, rhythmic waves. you gasp his name, body shuddering under the force of a release that feels like a spiritual cleansing. chenle lets out a guttural, strangled cry, his body stiffening as he delivers a few final, powerful thrusts. he pours himself into you, his own release consuming, his head falling at the crook of your neck as he gives in to the euphoria, collapsing onto you, his chest heaving against yours, his arms wrapping around you in a protective, crushing embrace. for a long time, the only sound in the room is the synchronized thumping of two hearts finally beating in the same rhythm.

“i love you,” he whispers into your hair, his voice exhausted but certain.

⚜️ THE REST OF YOUR LIFE ⚜️

you wake up to the sound of light snoring from your husband, his arms locked firmly around your naked waist, your back flushed against his bare chest. the warmth of skin on skin is electric, but it’s the prominent, hard bulge of his cock pressing firmly into the small of your back that makes your breath hitch.

you pinch your arm, a sharp sting that confirms this isn't a fever dream. 

then you shift gently in his embrace, turning in the circle of his arms to face him. as you move, his cock slides against the curve of your hip, dangerously close to your core. the proximity makes your pussy clench instinctively. you’ve always loved chenle but this kind of hunger was new - a desperate need to be consumed by him.

“stop staring at me, you creep,” he teases, his voice thick with sleep.

you let out a breathless laugh, swatting his shoulder. the sound of your own laughter feels foreign yet right.

it hits you then – the terrifying, beautiful ease of it all. like the past six years of coldness, the resentment, and the silence were just a bad dream, easily erased by the heat of his body.

sensing your sudden silence, chenle opens his eyes. the gaze he meets you with is soft, searching, and filled with an intensity that makes your heart race. 

“what are you thinking about?” he asks softly, his hand drifting up to thread his fingers through your hair, massaging your scalp.

“just… thinking about how nice this is,” you whisper, a small, genuine smile tugging at your lips.

“yeah?” he lets out a playful hum, his eyes shimmering with complete adoration, “think you could do this with me for the rest of our lives?”

you lean in then, kissing him softly, “yes,” you murmur against his lips with absolutely no doubt, “you’ve always been the only person i could ever do this with.”

chenle’s heart stutters. he had thought his love for you had reached its peak, but every time you surprise him with your tenderness, the feeling grows, expanding until it feels like he might burst.

“do you think this would still be nice with twenty kids?”  he teases, a mischievous glint returning to his eyes.

you recoil slightly, a look of genuine horror flashing across your face. “what?! i’m not giving you twenty kids, chenle! are you insane?!”

he bursts into a loud, genuine laugh, his eyes disappearing into crescents, his kitten-like smile whiskers prominent. as he calms down, he smirks, leaning closer, “i’m not the one who wants twenty kids. i’m pretty sure it was my beautiful wife, coming home drunk a month ago and begging me for a baby.”

you groan, your face flushing a deep crimson as you try to rack your brain for any memory of such a confession. but you don’t remember anything.

“i was drunk! i wasn’t in my right mind!”

“hmm,” he draws the word out fondly, his hand sliding down from your hair to trace the curve of your hip,  “how many kids do you actually want then?”

“two,” you admit shyly, looking away.

“only two? baby, this mansion would go to waste,” he teases, a playful smirk on his face.

“okay… three then,”  you say, trying to hide the smile growing on your face.

“what if one of them feels left out?”

“four. and that’s it!” you exclaim.

in one fluid motion, chenle rolls you onto your back, pinning you beneath his weight, his eyes dark with lust, his hard cock hitting your thigh with a heavy thud. 

“guess we should start getting to work then,” he smirks.

you giggle underneath him, pulling him in for a quick kiss before murmuring against his lips, “can you do that thing you did last night first, though?” you ask, cheeks burning.

“what thing, baby? i did a couple of things.”

the embarrassment is overwhelming, but the craving is stronger. you bite your lip, unable to say it aloud.

“c’mon, mrs. zhong, owner of two beauty empires,” he teases, his voice a low, sultry drawl, “you can tell your husband exactly what you want.”

“go down on me again, chenle,” you whisper.

he grins, a predatory yet loving expression, “of course, baby… but you do know that’s not how babies are made, right?”

you groan, shoving at his chest, “i really don't care.”

he chuckles, the sound vibrating in his chest before he slides down your body. he doesn't stop until his face is buried between your thighs, letting out a low moan at the scent of your arousal, his hot breath ghosting over your clit before his tongue makes a slow, wet sweep from your bottom to the top, tasting every drop of your longing.

⚜️ THE OFFICE ⚜️

when you get to the office later that day, arriving in the same car, and walking through the lobby of yü skincare together – the atmosphere shifts. you can feel the collective intake of breath from the staff, the employees practically vibrating with curiosity, eyes darting between you and chenle, trying and failing to hide their sheer shock. you don't blame them. for seven months, your marriage had been spent apart. to see him not only accompanying you to your door but looking at you with an expression of raw, unfiltered adoration is enough to send the office gossip into overdrive.

your eyes scan the room, landing on a familiar figure – mark lee is back at his desk, focused and working. a surge of triumph rushes through you. you’ve won.

the moment the heavy door to your private office clicks shut, the professional facade vanishes. chenle doesn't waste a second. his hands are instantly back on you, grip firm and possessive as he spins you around to face him, pinning you lightly against the edge of your desk.

you grin, your eyes dancing with mischief, “i see mark lee is back,” you say teasingly.

chenle huffs a small, amused breath, his forehead resting against yours, “yeah, he’s back. but tell him he’s walking on a very thin line,” he murmurs, though there’s no real heat in the threat. you laugh, a genuine, light sound, and shove his shoulder playfully. 

his expression shifts, the playfulness melting into something achingly sincere as he cups your face in his hands, thumbs tracing your cheekbones with a reverence that makes your heart stutter. 

“you know i’d give you everything you want, right? just say the word and it’s all yours.”

it’s not just a statement – it’s another confession, a continuation of the vow he’s been making since you woke up. 

“i told you,” he whispers, his gaze searching yours, “i’ll spend the rest of this life, and every single one after that, making it up to you.”

you let out a soft, breathless laugh, feeling a warmth spread through your chest, “when did you become such a sap?” you tease, reaching up and winding your fingers into the hair at the nape of his neck to pull him down.

the kiss is slow, languid, and deep – a sweet contrast to the hunger of the morning, but filled with the same desperate need to be close. as your tongues slide together, the corporate world outside the door ceases to exist, there is only the scent of his cologne, the heat of his body, and the overwhelming realization that you are finally, truly, loved.

⚜️ THE FULFILLED PROMISE ⚜️

it didn’t take long after that before you finally got pregnant.

you and chenle fucked all the time. and it wasn’t even to conceive – the two you just physically could not get enough of each other. the mansion became your personal playground. you were pretty sure there wasn’t a single square inch of the estate that hadn’t felt the heat of your bodies. 

like that one time when you both got home after a charity gala. you had worn a red dress that hugged every curve, the slit climbing dangerously high up your thigh. all night, chenle had been a predator in a tuxedo, his gaze burning into you, hand possessively gripping the small of your back, whispering filth into your ear while you smiled for the cameras. he didn't want to network, he wanted to rip the dress off your body. the moment the heavy doors of the mansion clicked shut behind you, the facade crumbled. he didn't even let you take off your heels. chenle grabbed you by the waist, hoisting you up with a grunt of effort and placing you down onto the large, circular marble table that sat centrally between the grand staircases, not even caring about the priceless antique vase sitting on top of it. he didn't waste time with foreplay – he reached down, bunching the red silk upward, exposing your lace panties and with one violent tug, he ripped the lace aside, the sound of tearing fabric echoing in the vast foyer. “i’ve been thinking about this since the moment you put this dress on,” he growled, voice raw. he freed his pulsing cock, already leaking pre-cum, and shoved it into you in one deep, punishing thrust. you moaned his name so loud, back arching off the marble, legs locking around his waist to pull him deeper. the sound of your shared moans bounced off the high ceilings, filling the foyer with the raw noises of pleasure. he fucked you desperately, hips slamming against yours with a wet, slapping sound that could be heard all around the mansion. you knew the maids were nearby, you could almost feel their shocked eyes on you, but the thought only made you wetter. you gripped his shoulders, nails digging into his tuxedo jacket, sobbing his name as he hammered into you, driving you toward a shattering climax that left you shaking and drenched.

then there was the discovery of the billiards room. it had been a forgotten wing of the house, dusty and silent until you both stumbled upon it during a lazy afternoon. the moment the door closed, the atmosphere shifted. the green felt of the billiard table looked like an invitation. chenle didn't even let you stand still. he lifted you up the billiard table, hiking your dress up and spreading your legs wide. “you smell so sweet,” he murmured, breath hot against your inner thigh. he didn't hesitate, burying his face in your pussy. his tongue was your favorite  weapon – broad, wet, and relentless. he licked your folds, swirling around your clit, making your toes curl. he fingered you with his other hand, two fingers sliding deep inside your soaking walls, stretching you while his tongue continued to drive you insane. it was an intense combination. you were sobbing, fingers clutching his hair. just as you reached the peak, he pulled away, leaving you gasping and dripping. he didn't give you a second to whine about it, grabbing your hips to help you down then bending you forward until your chest was pressed against the green felt. “look at you,” he whispered, his voice a dark caress, “always so ready for me.” he entered you from behind, his cock filling you completely over and over again. the friction of the billiard table against your skin and the relentless pace of his thrusts sent you over the edge. he fucked you ruthlessly, his hand reaching around to pinch your nipples over your pajama dress, his chest heaving against your back. every thrust was a claim, a promise that you belonged to him, until he finally groaned, filling you with a hot, thick surge of cum that left you both breathless and spent.

and also that one time in the hot tub, it wasn’t even night time…it was pure daylight, the sun was out, illuminating every inch of the outdoor sanctuary. the risk of being seen by the gardeners or the staff was immense, but the adrenaline only fueled the fire. you were draped across him, your legs wrapped around his waist as you rode him. the warm, bubbling water splashed around you, clinging to your skin. chenle’s hands were everywhere – one gripping your ass to keep you steady, the other reaching up to grab your breast. he leaned in, his mouth latching onto your nipple, sucking it hard, his tongue swirling around the peak. you threw your head back, your moans echoing across the open terrace, completely uninhibited. you could feel the vibration of the water and the rhythmic slide of his cock deep inside you. every time you sank down, you felt him hit your cervix, a sensation that made you whimper and cling to his shoulders. “who cares if they see?” he gasped, his eyes locked on yours, filled with a mixture of lust and adoration, “let them see who you belong to.” he gripped your waist tighter, lifting you slightly before slamming you back down onto him. the splashing grew more violent, the water churning as the pace increased. you rode him with a frantic energy, your clit rubbing against his pelvic bone with every downward stroke. when the climax hit, it was explosive. you screamed his name into the open air, your walls clamping down on him in tight, rhythmic waves, while he groaned, thrusting one last time and flooding you with his cum under the bright, midday sun.

and then there was that one week honeymoon that chenle insisted on, saying that he never got to give you a proper one. you two spent a week in the most luxurious private resort in hawaii. the resort is beautiful, open to the tropical air and the rhythmic crash of the ocean, but you barely saw the view. you were too occupied by your husband. for seven days, the world ceased to exist. there were no board meetings, no family expectations, and no corporate rules – only the sound of wet, slapping skin and the desperate gasps of two people becoming one. he fucked you in the private pool, the warm water swirling around your hips as he held you against the edge, his cock sliding in and out of you with a frictionless ease that made you scream into the salty air. he fucked you on the outdoor daybed, under the moon, the linen sheets soaking through with your combined juices. he would spend hours worshipping your body, his tongue tracing every curve, every fold, before driving himself into you with a force that left you shaking and sobbing his name. 

and of course, eventually, you fucked in both of your offices. the two of you tried to keep it professional at first but at one point, you just couldn’t stop yourselves. i mean, no one can fire you anyway. and the two of you spend so much time at work it just makes sense. your favorite routine involved the desk — when you were the one who gets to play, disappearing from view while chenle continued a conference call. the contrast was intoxicating, his voice, cool and commanding, discussing quarterly projections, while your mouth was wrapped tightly around his cock. you would suck him with a focused intensity, swirling your tongue around the head and taking him as deep as your throat would allow, listening to the slight hitch in his breath and the way his hand gripped the edge of the desk to keep from groaning. when he finally hangs up, he would haul you out from under the desk by your waist and slam you down onto the edge of it, “my little slut wants to play, huh?” he’d growl against your lips as you cling to the desk for dear life, heels digging into the carpet. he took you right there in the center of his power, filling you to the brim.

but still...nothing beats fucking in your shared bedroom, this was where the real intensity lived, especially on the nights when chenle’s gaze turned dark and determined. on those nights, he didn't just want to fuck you – he wanted to possess you completely. he would start by flipping you over, forcing you onto your hands and knees in doggy style. he loved the view of your arched back and the way your ass looked spread wide for him. he would grip your hips, his fingers digging into your skin, and thrust into you from behind. the sound of his balls slapping against your cheeks echoed through the room, a raw, primal beat that drove you insane. he would reach forward to pull your hair back, whispering filth into your ear about how much he loved the way you took him. then, he would flip you onto your back, hoisting your legs up high,  sometimes draping them over his shoulders, so that he could penetrate you at the deepest possible angle. in this position, there was no escape. he drove himself in until he hit your cervix, each thrust a heavy, thumping blow that sent shockwaves of pleasure through your entire body. “look at me,” he would command, his eyes burning with an obsessive kind of love, “tell me you're mine.” the friction and the intensity pushed you toward a peak you had never experienced before. in the heat of those nights, you discovered the sensation of squirting – your pussy drenching the sheets and leaving you gasping for air. the feeling of losing control, of your body literally overflowing with pleasure, sends chenle into a frenzy. he would fuck you even harder, driving you through multiple, shattering orgasms, his own release coming in a hot, thick flood that filled you completely, leaving you both tangled in the damp sheets, hearts racing in a synchronized rhythm of absolute devotion.

now, a year into marriage and you were two months pregnant with your first child.

it hasn’t been easy, your baby was stubborn – which you honestly should’ve seen coming knowing how stubborn its father is (and you, too). 

the pregnancy had stripped away your usual composure. for a woman who navigated the cutthroat world of billionaire cosmetics with a steady hand, the loss of control was infuriating.

your morning sickness wasn't just “morning”sickness – it was a rolling tide of nausea that lasted the whole day. you had spent the last few weeks throwing up everything from expensive lobster to plain crackers. to add to the misery, your breasts had swollen, becoming agonizingly sore to the touch.

you were, in a word – grumpy. a whirlwind of mood swings, snapping at assistants and sobbing over the smallest of things, existing in a state of perpetual irritation. which was especially unfortunate considering you had never been particularly good at dealing with discomfort. you are a billionaire. struggle is not your forte.

still, chenle had been unbelievably sweet and understanding through all of it. he spent his days balancing both companies and his nights massaging your back or holding your hair back while you retched into the toilet, kissing your forehead with a tenderness that still made your heart ache.

today, you were plagued by a craving so specific, so visceral, that it felt like a physical hunger. you wanted a tomato-egg dish. but not just any version. it had to be right.

chef sung ahn, a culinary genius, was currently in the midst of a crisis — seven bowls of the dish sat on the marble island, each one a slightly different variation of seasoning and texture. and yet, none of them were right.

you pushed the seventh bowl away with a pout, your lower lip trembling. you knew you were acting like a spoiled child, but as you rested a hand over your still-flat stomach, you reasoned that you were carrying what is about to be the most spoiled heir in the country. it only made sense. 

the heavy thud of the front door announced chenle’s return. he stepped into the kitchen, shedding his blazer and loosening his tie, his eyes immediately landing on the scene.

“baby,” he murmured, stepping behind you and pressing a lingering, sweet kiss to the crown of your head.

his scent, expensive cologne and the lingering musk of a long day at the office, usually calmed you, but today you were too frustrated to be fully appeased, “what’s going on in here?”

you let out a dramatic groan, leaning back into his chest, “your stupid baby wants a certain taste, and the chef can’t do it!" you complained, pouting up at him, “nothing tastes right, chenle! everything is wrong!”

chenle looked from your frustrated expression to the exhausted but patient chef sung ahn, a small, apologetic smile playing on his lips as he wrapped his arms around your shoulders.

“i’m so sorry, chef. she’s been incredibly sensitive since the pregnancy started. i think we're dealing with a very demanding little one.”

chef sung ahn smiled knowingly, unfazed by the seven wasted bowls. he was paid far too much to be offended by the complaints of a pregnant billionaire.

“that’s perfectly alright, mr. zhong. my wife was exactly the same way. i remember a week where she nearly kicked me out of the house because the toast was too loud.”

the two men share a low chuckle while you try not to roll your eyes. his wife was valid and you know it. 

“i think i know exactly what she wants, though,” chenle said, his voice dropping an octave, becoming soft and confident.

"i’ll take care of it. thank you, chef. you can head out for the day."

as the chef departed, chenle took his place, rolling up his sleeves and exposing his forearms. you remained seated on the bar stool, watching him. there was something hypnotic about the way he moved – the precision of his knife, the way he cracked the eggs with one hand, the sizzle of the tomatoes hitting the pan.

as the aroma began to waft through the air, something happened — for the first time in hours, the nausea in your stomach vanished, replaced by a sudden, intense surge of appetite.

your mouth watered. the scent was an exact match – not to a michelin-star recipe, but to a memory. a flash of nostalgia hitting you. you were seventeen again, shivering under a duvet in your room, delirious with a fever. chenle visited you with a simple, home-cooked tomato-egg dish. it hadn't been fancy, but it had been made with a quiet kind of care that had spoken louder than any words.

you looked at your husband – the man who had once been your best friend, then your cold stranger, and now the love of your life. a small, amused smile tugged at your lips. your baby, barely the size of a fruit, was already exerting its will, bypassing the expertise of a world-class chef to demand the specific, nostalgic touch of its father.

god, you thought, a small, amused smile tugging at your lips as you watched him plate the food. the baby already has a favorite. what a traitor.

chenle finished the dish quickly, the steam curling upward, carrying that precise, comforting scent that had finally silenced the storm in your stomach.

he slid the bowl in front of you, the colors vibrant and the aroma intoxicating. as you picked up the spoon to take a bite, he stepped towards you. 

“how is it?” he smirks teasingly. because he knows you. and he knows it’s exactly what you needed. 

you let out a soft, involuntary sigh of contentment, but you refused to give him the satisfaction of a verbal compliment just yet. instead, you pouted, looking up at him through your lashes. without warning, you reached out and gripped the fabric of his shirt, bunching the material in your fist and tugging him towards you as you burrowed your face into chest.

“you’re not allowed to go to work anymore,” you mumbled against his shirt, “you’re staying with me. every second of every day.”

a low, vibrating chuckle erupted from his chest, the sound echoing against your cheek. he wrapped his arms around you, hands splaying across your back.

he adored this version of you – the spoiled, demanding, vulnerable woman who only wanted him.

“i’m perfectly okay with that,” he whispered, his voice dripping with fond adoration. 

you pulled back just enough to look at him, your eyes shimmering. the stubbornness was still there, but it was softened by a deep, aching affection.

you reached up then, hooking your arms around his neck to pull him down toward you for a soft, lingering kiss filled with tenderness and love.

⚜️ THE END ⚜️

an: weeee!!!! did i spend my entire weekend glued to my computer writing this like a loser? yeah…i did. but i had to ride on the high of inspiration and delusions before i lose it or else this would take me months to finish lmao. anyways, i loved writing this! and i’m also realizing it’s very easy for me to write for chenle idk it’s always so fun for me!!! fun game: can you guess what kind of dad chenle is!! aka can you guess the gender of the baby??? put in the comments what you think! 😉 (i do have the answer). and please let me know your thoughts! thank ü for reading, much love to ü 💛

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it never dawned on you how much he actually attracted other girls until you started dating him.

now you can’t help but notice the way they all linger a little too long when they talk to him. the way their eyes follow him across the room. the way they laugh a little louder at things that aren’t even funny. like they’re hoping he’ll notice them the way he notices you.

you down another shot, the burn settling low in your chest as your eyes drift back to him. chenle’s currently in the middle of a story, hands moving animatedly as he talks, mark is beside him looking amused. and the random girls in front of them are clearly hanging onto every word, nodding a little too eagerly, laughing a little too loud. they asked about basketball, of course they did, and now he’s off, rambling about last week’s game.

he’s not leaning in. not flirting. not even trying. he’s just….being chenle — friendly. open. a natural born yapper who never learned how to give short answers.

and that’s what makes it worse. because there’s nothing for you to be mad at. nothing to call out. no line being crossed. and yet — that awful, irrational feeling keeps bubbling in your gut, ugly and persistent, no matter how hard you try to swallow it down.

“you should just tell him,” bunny says beside you.

you’ve been confiding in the girls for the past week, the same thoughts, the same frustration.

you huff quietly, eyes still fixed across the room, “do you tell jeno when you’re jealous?”

she smiles sheepishly, already caught, “i–no,” she admits, “he can usually tell.”

you let out a small, bitter laugh, shaking your head.

“exactly,” you mutter, arms crossing over your chest, “because he cares enough about you to know.”

the sulk settles deeper, heavier.

“i’m sure it’s not like that,” kitten chimes in from your other side, her voice soft and careful, like she’s trying not to set you off any further. there’s a small, reassuring smile tugging at her lips as she nudges your arm, “chenle’s just…really oblivious. you know that. mark practically has to spell things out for him half the time.”

you let out a quiet scoff, eyes rolling before you can stop yourself. she means well — you know she does — but she doesn’t know how you’re feeling either. because for the past twenty minutes, mark has gazed her way at least five times – quick, subtle looks, like he’s checking in.

meanwhile chenle…nothing. not even once.

your fingers tighten slightly around the shot glass as you reach for another, the cool rim pressing against your lips a second later. you don’t even really want it. you just want the noise in your head to quiet down, to blur the sharp edges of that hollow feeling sitting in your chest.

“yeah,” you mumble, drinking it in one go, “that’s kind of the problem.”

the burn barely registers this time. your eyes are already back on him.

one of the girls leans in a little too close — laughing at something he said, fingers brushing his arm, light and fleeting. casual enough that anyone else would brush it off. harmless. nothing. except he doesn’t move away. doesn’t even notice. he just keeps going, still yapping like there was no tomorrow, words spilling out easily, completely unaware of their hidden motives.

and you hate it. it coils tight in your chest, sharp and possessive in a way you don’t recognize — don’t want to recognize.

what’s yours is yours. everyone can look, everyone can admire, but no one can touch.

no one.

your jaw tightens, teeth pressing together as your gaze locks onto the scene like if you just stare hard enough, something will shift — like he’ll finally notice, step away, put space between them.

he doesn’t.

and it’s stupid, really. small. insignificant. the kind of thing you’d usually laugh off, brush away with a shrug and a teasing comment later. but right now, it feels anything but small.

and the worst part?

you don’t even know how to say it.

you’re not exactly the expert when it comes to relationships.

and you’ve never been the type to feel this way.

you’re the chill one. the easygoing one. the one who doesn’t make a big deal out of things, who doesn’t get worked up, who trusts.

the cool, confident girlfriend.

the one people look at and think, she’s secure. she doesn’t get jealous.

and you’ve worn that identity so well, so effortlessly, that now it feels impossible to step out of it without everything cracking.

because what happens if you do? what happens if you let this ugly, unfamiliar jealousy spill out where he can see it? will he laugh it off? will he reassure you?

or does something in his expression shift — just slightly — but enough? enough to make you feel like you’ve tipped the balance. like you’re suddenly too much. too emotional. too possessive. too crazy.

the thought alone makes your stomach twist.

so you don’t say anything. you just swallow it. all of it.

you reach for another shot almost automatically, fingers steady even if everything else inside you isn’t, and tip it back before you can think twice — like maybe you can drown the feeling before it has the chance to take shape, before it turns into words you can’t take back.

you set the glass down with a soft clink, exhaling slowly as you roll your shoulders back, forcing them to loosen, to drop – like you can physically shake it off. like you can become her again. the version of you that doesn’t care. that doesn’t watch too closely. that doesn’t feel this tight, suffocating pull in her chest every time someone gets a little too close to him.

you lift your chin slightly, expression smoothing out, lips curving into something easy. practiced. convincing. pretending.

pretending you’re still her — the nonchalant girlfriend, the one so secure in herself that other girls don’t affect her.

even if, right now, you’re anything but.

🎀

you’ve lost count of how many shots you’ve taken.

everything feels softer now — edges blurred, lights bleeding into each other, voices melting into one low, distant hum. like you’re underwater, like everything is happening a second too late.

chenle had come by at some point. you remember that much.

the familiar warmth of him leaning down, the quick press of his lips to your cheek. soft and absentminded. his hand brushing your arm like muscle memory, mumbling “be back in a bit,” against your skin.

and then he was gone again. pulled away just as easily as he came. the basketball guys this time. and those same damn girls trailing after them like shadows.

but that was…a while ago. you think. time doesn’t feel real anymore.

bunny and jeno have already disappeared somewhere, slipped out unnoticed, probably laughing, probably together, probably fine…must be nice.

kitten’s still beside you though, steady and warm, one hand moving in slow, absent circles against your back as you lean heavily against the kitchen counter, your cheek almost pressed to the cool surface. the alcohol sits thick in your veins, heavy, making everything harder to hold onto.

and mark’s here now too. you don’t remember when he came over.

“is she okay?,” he murmurs under his breath, leaning closer to his girlfriend, voice low like he doesn’t want to startle you.

“not really,” she whispers back, her gaze flickering over you, soft and worried, before tilting her head up toward him, “—she wants chenle.”

mark lets out a quiet sigh, his hand settling instinctively against his girlfriend’s back, thumb brushing against her side in a small, grounding motion.

“i’ll call chenle,” he says a little louder this time, concern slipping into his tone despite the casual delivery.

“no–”

you lift your head immediately, faster than your body can really handle. the room tilts, spins just slightly, and you squeeze your eyes shut for a second, trying to steady it.

“i don’t wanna ruin his fun,” you mumble, shaking your head weakly.

your words come out softer, smaller. you slump forward against the kitchen counter again, too drunk and tired to keep your head up. everything feels…too much and not enough at the same time.

kitten’s hand returns to your back without hesitation, slow and soothing, like she’s trying to keep you grounded. mark looks at her. she looks back. one of those silent conversations couples have without saying anything at all.

he squeezes her waist once. she nods. they understand each other.

“okay, babe,” kitten says gently, her voice dipping softer as she leans closer to you, her hand never stopping its slow circles. “let’s not fall asleep here, yeah?”

you barely respond, just a small, tired hum.

mark steps in a little closer, positioning himself on your other side, one hand hovering near your arm like he’s ready to catch you before you even fall.

“easy,” he mutters quietly.

kitten carefully pulls you upright, guiding your arm over her shoulders, her grip firm but gentle. you sway a little, your balance off, and mark instinctively reaches out, steadying you with a light hand at your side.

“c’mon,” kitten murmurs, brushing a stray strand of hair away from your face.

“i’ll walk you guys,” mark adds, already moving.

“let’s get you to chenle’s room,” kitten says softly.

and this time, you don’t argue.

🎀

“baby—there you are,” chenle’s voice breaks through the quiet of his room, a little breathless like he’s actually been searching, “i’ve been looking everywhere for you…you just disappeared.”

“didn’t think you’d notice,” you mumble, barely audible.

you’re curled up on his bed, turned away from him, arms tucked in close like you’re trying to make yourself smaller. your eyes stay fixed on nothing in particular. you don’t even try to look at him.

there’s a beat of silence. then the mattress dips behind you.

chenle doesn’t hesitate — his hand finds your waist like it always does, warm and familiar, fingers spreading gently against your side as he leans in.

“hey,” he murmurs, softer now, pressing a slow, lingering kiss to your shoulder, “what’s wrong?”

you stiffen just slightly under his touch, enough for him to feel it.

“nothing,” you say. a little too quickly.

he hums under his breath, unconvinced. his thumb starts tracing slow, absentminded circles against your waist. like he’s not going anywhere until you give in.

“doesn’t sound like nothing,” he says quietly.

you let out a small scoff, shifting just enough to nudge his hand away. you can’t help but be more annoyed at the fact he doesn’t even have a single clue on what was wrong.

“you seemed pretty busy,” you mutter, voice edged with something sharper than you meant.

chenle blinks behind you, “what?”

you shrug, still refusing to face him, fingers fidgeting with the sleeve of his hoodie you’re wearing.

“looked like you were having fun,” you add, tone light in a way that doesn’t quite land, “you and your…audience.”

there’s a pause. you can practically hear the confusion settling in.

“…who?” he asks slowly.

you let out a short, humorless laugh, finally rolling around so you can look at him — eyes a little glassy now, expression unimpressed.

“those girls, chenle,” you say, like it should be obvious, your eyes dropping to his chest, already embarrassed, “the ones hanging onto your every word while you were yapping about basketball like your life depended on it.”

chenle’s brows knit together as he tries to replay it, to understand what you saw.

“oh—” he starts, then stops, still clearly not fully getting it.

you roll your eyes, “you must’ve loved it,” you continue, voice quieter now but heavier, “all that attention.”

he stares at you for a second longer, really looks at you — at the way your eyes won’t quite hold his, at the way your mouth tightens like you’re holding something back.

then one brow lifts, just slightly.

“…are you jealous?” he asks, not accusing. just genuinely trying to understand.

you let out a soft, incredulous scoff, pushing yourself up slightly on your elbows.

“psh—me? jealous?!” you say, like the idea is ridiculous. you shake your head, but your voice betrays you, “i bet they don’t even know what a pick-and-roll is,” you mumble under your breath.

there’s a beat. and then chenle huffs out a quiet laugh. not mocking. just… surprised. soft. fond.

“you are jealous,” he says, softer this time. no teasing. just realization.

and suddenly it feels pointless to deny it — you’re sure it’s written all over your face, in the way your voice wavers, in the way your chest feels too tight.

your shoulders drop a little.

“of course i’m jealous,” you admit quietly.

the alcohol strips the edges off your pride, leaves everything a little too raw, a little too honest. chenle stills. completely. his eyes soften instantly, something in his expression shifting like he’s seeing you in a way he hasn’t before.

because you’re not like this. you’re always composed. confident. unbothered. the campus’ favorite cheerleader. everyone’s crush — especially his. the last person anyone would expect to feel insecure.

and yet here you are. jealous. over him.

“…i didn’t think you’d care about that,” he says quietly, like he’s still trying to process it.

you let out a small, disbelieving scoff.

“of course i care about that,” you say, voice softer now, “i love you.”

chenle freezes for half a second. like even if he knew it, hearing the words like this, vulnerable and unguarded, hits him somewhere deeper.

“you think i like watching other girls touch you?” you continue, your voice trembling just slightly now that you’ve started, “or look at you like that? like they have a chance?”

he opens his mouth, but you keep going, the words spilling out now.

“i know you don’t mean anything by it,” you add quickly, “i know you’re just… you. you talk to everyone, you don’t think about it, you don’t even notice.”

your voice drops.

“but,” you whisper, “i don’t like it.”

silence fills the room for a beat. then chenle shifts closer. slowly. carefully.

“hey,” he murmurs, one hand coming up to gently cup your cheek, thumb brushing just under your eye. “look at me.”

you hesitate — but you do. and his expression… it knocks the air out of you.

no annoyance. no discomfort. no pulling away.

just… soft. so, so soft. and so full of you it almost hurts.

“i didn’t know,” he admits quietly. “i swear, i didn’t know it made you feel like that.”

his thumb keeps moving, slow and grounding.

“i wasn’t paying attention to them like that,” he adds, brows pulling together slightly. “i was just talking. i thought—” he lets out a small breath, almost embarrassed, “—i thought i was just being polite.”

you swallow. because you know that. that’s what makes this so frustrating.

“i don’t want them touching you,” you admit, your voice smaller now, like you’re bracing for him to think it’s too much.

chenle doesn’t even hesitate.

“then they won’t.” he says simply.

your eyes flicker up to his.

“…what?”

“it bothers you, so i won’t let it happen again” he repeats, shrugging, like it’s the easiest thing in the world, “it’s not that hard to step back.”

there’s no resistance. no argument. just certainty.

his hand slides from your cheek to tuck a strand of hair behind your ear.

“you should’ve told me,” he adds softly. “i would’ve fixed it.”

your lips press together, emotions catching somewhere in your throat, heavy and unfamiliar.

you hesitate for a second.

“…do you think i’m crazy?” you ask quietly.

chenle looks at you for a beat. then he smiles. soft. a little amused. but mostly full of affection.

“yeah.”

“hey—” you pout immediately, lifting your hand to smack his chest, not hard, just enough to show you mean it. your brows knit together as you finally look up at him properly, eyes still a little glassy.

and god — it’s the cutest thing he’s ever seen. this side of you. all pouty and honest and a little messy around the edges. his chest feels tight in the best way.

“what?” he huffs out a quiet laugh, catching your wrist before you can hit him again. “you are.”

you try to glare at him, but it doesn’t quite land. not when he’s looking at you like that. not when he leans in — and kisses you. soft and slow. your lips melt against his almost instantly, the tension in your chest loosening just a little, your free hand coming up to grip his shirt. he hums softly into the kiss, thumb brushing over your wrist where he’s still holding you, grounding, steady.

when he pulls back, it’s only just enough to look at you, forehead resting against yours, breath warm, thumb still tracing slow, absentminded patterns against your side.

“crazy,” he murmurs softly, a faint smile tugging at his lips as his nose nudges against yours, “to think any girl could ever compare to you.”

your breath hitches — just a little. because he says it so easily. like it’s obvious. like there was never even a question. your eyes search his for a second, like you’re trying to see if he means it. he does. completely.

“you’re so cheesy,” you mutter, but there’s no real bite to it — just your own lingering embarrassment and something softer underneath.

he doesn’t let go. instead, his thumb brushes over your pulse point, slow and absentminded, like he’s grounding himself just as much as you.

“and you’re sulking,” he shoots back lightly, an amused smile on his lips, “over me.”

you huff quietly, eyes flickering away, “don’t sound so proud,” you mumble.

that just makes something in him soften even more. because you are jealous. over him. and instead of it annoying him, instead of it feeling suffocating — it makes his chest feel unbearably full.

“i like it,” he admits quietly, the teasing fading just a little.

that makes your eyes snap back to his.

“…what?”

his grip on your wrist loosens, not letting go completely, just sliding down so his fingers lace loosely with yours instead.

“means you care,” he says simply, voice softer now, “means i matter to you that much.”

you stare at him, caught off guard, the fight in you dissolving a little at the edges.

chenle smiles — not the teasing one from earlier, but something gentler. warmer. his free hand comes up, brushing a stray strand of hair away from your face, fingertips lingering just a second longer than necessary.

“you don’t have to hide it from me,” he adds, quietly, “even when you’re like this.”

the way he’s looking at you right now — like this version of you isn’t something to fix, not something embarrassing, but something to hold — it makes your chest feel tight in a completely different way.

you huff softly instead, trying to recover, “i’m not ‘like this’ all the time.”

he grins a little at that, leaning closer until your foreheads brush again.

“kinda wish you were,” he murmurs, voice dipping, teasing again but softer now, “you’re cute when you’re jealous.”

“chenle,” you warn, but it comes out weak, your fingers tightening slightly around his.

he laughs quietly under his breath, bringing your hand up just slightly, his thumb brushing over your knuckles.

“okay, okay,” he relents, though his eyes are still bright with amusement.

but he’s not done reassuring you.

“you’re the only one i care about like that,” he says, voice low, “so if something bothers you,” he continues, brushing his thumb along your waist, “you tell me. okay?”

you hesitate for half a second — then nod.

his expression softens immediately, something fond and relieved settling into it.

“good,” he murmurs.

then he leans in again, pressing another kiss to your lips, slow, lingering, like he’s sealing it there, making sure you feel it. when he pulls back, his lips brush yours once more, softer this time, like he can’t get enough.

“also,” he adds quietly, a hint of amusement returning, “for the record—”

you narrow your eyes slightly, “what?”

his grin widens just a little, “they definitely don’t know what a pick-and-roll is.”

you let out a surprised laugh, the tension finally breaking completely as you shove his shoulder lightly. he just laughs with you, pulling you closer again. exactly where he wants to be. his hand settles more firmly at your waist, guiding you closer until there’s barely any space left between you. your laughter fades into something softer as his gaze lingers on your face, like he’s memorizing it.

“we’re okay?” he murmurs, quieter now.

you nod, a little drowsy, the alcohol finally catching up to you, “yeah…” but it comes out softer than before, heavier. his expression shifts instantly. softer. gentler.

chenle lets out a soft huff “come here,” he whispers, adjusting you easily and pulling you properly into his arms, one hand cradling the back of your head, the other wrapped securely around your waist. you melt into him easily, cheek pressed against his chest, his heartbeat steady under your ear.

“i love you,” he murmurs, pressing a soft kiss to your hair. and it’s the last thing you really register. the warmth of him. the steady rise and fall of his breathing. the way his arms hold you as you fall asleep right there, tucked safely against him. exactly where you wanted to be.

🎀

your head pounds the second you wake up. you groan softly, eyes squeezing shut before you even try to move. it takes a second before you sit up, slow and careful, pressing a hand to your forehead.

the room is quiet. too quiet. you glance to the side — the space beside you is empty, sheets rumpled but cold.

your lips press together slightly. you look down at yourself. his shirt. soft. smelling like him. your fingers brush over the fabric for a second before you push yourself up, grabbing one of his sweats and pulling them on without thinking.

the house is still, but as you make your way downstairs, something soft breaks through it — the faint sound of cooking. you follow it instinctively. and there he is.

chenle stands at the stove, sleeves pushed up, hair a little messy, completely focused as he flips something in the pan.

he looks up the moment you step in. and his whole face softens.

“good morning,” he says gently.

you don’t answer right away. you just walk toward him, steps slow, a little unsteady — and the second you’re close enough, his arm opens for you without hesitation.

you slip right into his side. like you belong there.

“hi,” you mumble, pressing your face into his shirt.

his arm settles around your shoulders, pulling you closer.

“hi, baby,” he murmurs, hand coming up to smooth your hair back gently, fingers careful around your temples, “how are you feeling?”

you groan softly in response, clutching onto him a little tighter, “could be better.”

he huffs out a quiet laugh, but his touch stays gentle, thumb brushing slow circles against your arm.

“yeah,” he murmurs, leaning down just slightly to press a soft kiss to the top of your head, “you drank a lot last night.”

you nod weakly against him, eyes still half-closed. he stays like that with you for a second, one hand absentmindedly rubbing your back while he finishes cooking with the other, like letting you go isn’t even an option.

“c’mon,” he says after a moment, voice soft, “sit.”

you don’t argue. he guides you to the table, hand warm at your waist the whole way, pulling your chair out before you even think to do it yourself.

“eat,” he says, quieter now, “you’ll feel better.”

you glance up at him, softer this time, “thanks.”

“mhm.”

you pick up your fork, taking a small bite. it’s good. really good. you let out a small hum without thinking. chenle watches you the whole time. there’s something warm in his expression as he leans back slightly in his chair, elbow resting on the table, chin in his hand. he lets you eat for a bit. doesn’t rush you. doesn’t talk. just… stays there with you.

and then —

“so…” he starts casually.

you glance up, still chewing. his lips twitch, like he’s holding something back.

“i think green is my favorite color on you.”

you pause, already know what he’s hinting at, “…don’t.”

he tilts his head, completely calm.

“green,” he repeats. “looks really good on you.”

you stare at him, “chenle.”

he laughs softly, leaning back in his chair, clearly pleased with himself.

“what?” he shrugs, “just saying.”

you narrow your eyes at him, setting your fork down.

“i will break up with you.”

“hmm,” he hums, unconcerned, amusement all over his face, “you were cute.”

you immediately look away, grabbing your drink just to have something to do.

“i wasn’t.”

“you were,” he says easily, watching you over the rim of his glass now.

“shut up,” you say, looking him straight in the eyes.

his lips twitch.

“make me,” he replies, a slow smirk settling in.

you don’t hesitate. you lean up and kiss him. hard. it catches him off guard for half a second before he melts into it immediately, one hand coming up to cup your jaw, kissing you back just as firmly.

he smiles into the kiss — actually smiles — like he knew you’d do this, like he wanted you to.

and before you could pull away, his hand slides from your jaw down to the back of your thighs, grip tightening slightly, and then suddenly you’re being lifted easily onto his lap. you let out a small, surprised sound, hands instinctively gripping his shirt as you settle against him, legs angled over his.

his arm wraps securely around your waist, keeping you close, thumb brushing slow circles against your side like he has no intention of letting you go anytime soon.

his other hand finds your jaw again, tilting your face just enough — and he kisses you deeper this time. slower. like he’s completely forgotten where he is. like nothing else matters but you.

you melt into it without thinking, fingers tightening in his shirt as you lean closer into him.

and then—

an awkward cough cuts through the air.

chenle doesn’t even flinch. he already knows who it is.

“get out, mark,” he says in between kisses, barely pulling away, his lips brushing yours as he speaks.

“dude, i’m just getting bread,” mark’s voice rings out from across the kitchen, equal parts annoyed and resigned.

“chenle—” you mumble quietly against his lips, trying to pull back, but there’s no real effort behind it — your voice soft, breath catching more than anything. he doesn’t let you pull away. not even a little. his hand tightens at your waist, pulling you right back in as he kisses you again — harder this time, more deliberate, like he knows exactly what he’s doing to you. and you let him, your grip tightening in his shirt, pulling him closer instead of away.

and without even looking — his hand reaches across the table, fingers finding the bag of bread. and he tosses it. perfectly.

there’s a soft thud as it lands in mark’s hands.

“there,” chenle says casually, barely pulling away, his lips brushing yours as he speaks.

you don’t even look. don’t even pause. your hand slides up, pulling him back into you immediately, like the interruption didn’t matter at all.

there’s a pause.

“…glad you guys are okay now, i guess,” mark mutters under his breath.

you let out the faintest breath of a laugh against chenle’s lips, but you don’t stop — if anything, you kiss him again, softer, then deeper, like you’re just as unwilling to break away.

“close the door on your way out,” chenle adds, voice low, already leaning back into you again.

“this is the kitchen—”

“door.”

a beat. a defeated sigh. then footsteps retreating.

chenle’s hand slides under your shirt, warm, steady, grounding, pulling you closer.

“now,” he murmurs softly, voice lower this time, lips grazing yours—

“where were we?”

his words hang in the air, thick with promise, the kiss turning hungrier now, his tongue slipping past your parted lips to tangle with yours, drawing a soft moan from deep in your throat.

you shift on his lap, feeling the hard line of his cock pressing up against you through his pants, and it sends a spark of heat straight to your core.

chenle pulls back just enough to speak, his breath hot against your mouth.

“you have no reason to be jealous,” he whispers, his voice rough with conviction and desire. his hand under your shirt flattens against your bare skin, fingers splaying wide as he traces the curve of your spine.

“you're the only one i ever want to kiss like this. touch like this. love like this.”

your heart flutters at his words, “lele...” you breathe, fingers threading into his hair, tugging lightly to keep him close, “touch me.”

his eyes darken with hunger at your plea, and without a word, his hand slides down your body, dipping into the waistband of your sweats. he pushes past the fabric, fingers finding your panties and shoving them aside to reach your bare pussy.

you gasp into his mouth as he presses two fingers directly against your clit, rubbing firm circles that make your hips buck against him. the kiss deepens, messy and urgent, tongues sliding together while his hand works you relentlessly.

“fuck, you're dripping,” he growls against your lips, fingers slipping lower to tease your entrance before pushing inside, one then two, stretching you with a slow thrust.

you clench around him, moaning into the kiss as he pumps his fingers in and out, his thumb taking over on your clit with precise, grinding pressure. your bodies press close, his cock throbbing beneath you as you rock against his hand, the wet sounds of him fingering your pussy mixing with the slick slide of your mouths.

the pleasure builds fast, coiling tight in your core as his fingers curl inside you, hitting that sensitive spot over and over.

you break the kiss with a whimper, burying your face in his neck, your hot breaths fanning over his skin, “chenle—,” you whine, your voice breathy and desperate, lips brushing his throat as your breathless moans spill out unchecked.

he groans at the sounds your making, his free arm wrapping tighter around your waist to hold you steady.

“that's it, baby,” he murmurs, voice thick with arousal, “cum all over my fingers.”

his fingers thrust faster, deeper, thumb flicking your clit in rhythm, pushing you right to the edge.

your body tenses, moans turning into high-pitched whines muffled into his neck as the orgasm crashes over you. you cry out against his skin, pussy pulsing around his fingers, gushing wetness down his hand as you tremble and grind through the waves of release. he keeps moving, drawing every last shudder from you until you’re limp and panting in his arms.

chenle slowly withdraws his fingers from your pussy, the slick sound fading as he brings them to his lips, sucking them clean with a low hum of satisfaction.

you watch, heat still simmering in your core, before saying, “let’s finish this upstairs.”

his eyes light up with a mischievous grin, that possessive spark turning playful as he nods eagerly. you grab his hand, tugging him off the chair, both of you stumbling a bit in your haste. he chuckles as you lead the way toward the stairs, his free hand giving your ass a quick, teasing squeeze that makes you yelp and swat at him.

the kitchen table sits abandoned, the breakfast long cold, but who cares?

you pull him into his room and kick the door shut, both of you bursting into laughter, tumbling onto the bed in a tangle of limbs and unfinished business.

🎀

an: chenle has been such an amazing moral support for me this past four days 🥺 so heres a little pick-me-up — from the realest, bestest, has the biggest balls in nct — for everyone because i know we can all use it. and of course, i had to add mark in some way 🥹…..not a lot of smut in this one! it’s so so hard to be horny when sad 😔💔

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but then came the social media apocalypse. chenle scrolled through twitter, instagram, tiktok, naver — every damn app on his phone had declared war on his sanity.

apparently your chemistry with your current co-star is just absolutely phenomenal! the tension, breathtaking! there are at least fifty edits of a slowed down eye contact that proves you’re in love. hearts exploding, slow-mo sparkles, romantic background music. and the entirety of the population is absolutely convinced that it was real. as in, ‘they're banging behind the scenes’ real.

it pisses him off.

1) how come this guy gets to stare at you like that while he can’t even glance your way for two seconds without 80% of his fandom canceling him in a heartbeat? — “chenle looked at her! boycott!” tweets would fly faster than his dignity.

2) why the fuck did your co-star, lee chaemin, have to be so annoyingly attractive? the dude had cheekbones to die for and eyes that could make any girl swoon. chenle caught himself in the mirror once, trying to replicate that gaze, and ended up looking like he was constipated. pathetic.

3) did the eye contacts actually mean anything? was there some secret actress code where a lingering look equaled ‘you’re so much better than my boyfriend, let’s date instead!

of course not…right?

you were just such a great actress. he knew that from the start. but fuck, he can’t help it. the insecurity has started.

chenle slammed his phone down, running a hand through his hair, “it’s fine,” he muttered to the empty room, “totally fine. i’m chill. super chill.”

🎬

a week later and he’s still here. moping. sighing.

it’s been a rough week, too. work has kept you both on opposite schedules — your late nights on set meant you drag home exhausted long after he’s crashed and by morning, he’s already out the door for his own schedule.

the whole week has just been rushed pecks at dawn and quick goodbyes that leave him aching for more. the distance making everything feel off. no real time together, no touches that linger, just fragments that feed straight into the doubt gnawing at him from those endless online edits.

to shake it off, he decides to surprise you on set.

he spent the entire afternoon in your shared kitchen, whipping up your favorite snack, just how you like it — the thermos packed with spicy tteokboki, extra cheese, along with some mandu he steamed on the side. all made with love.

he sneaks onto the lot with a cap pulled low and a mask hiding his face, flashing his visitor pass at security.

your trailer is tucked away in a quiet corner, away from the bustle of crew and lights. he knocks softly, heart picking up when you open the door, still in your costume — a flowy dress your character seemed to always be in.

“chenle! what are you doing here?” your face lights up instantly — no hesitation, no confusion. just pure happiness. you grab his wrist and tug him inside before he can even answer, clicking the door shut and immediately throwing your arms around his neck. he barely has time to react before you’re hugging him tight, cheek pressed to his chest.

“i missed you,” you mumble into his hoodie. his arms wrap around you automatically, one hand sliding up to cradle the back of your head, already feeling so much better.

the trailer is cozy, cluttered with scripts and makeup, the faint hum of the AC the only sound now that you’re alone.

“brought you a snack,” he says, holding up the bag, forcing his voice steady, “i haven’t been able to cook for you this whole week.”

your heart melts at that, grabbing the bag and then immediately grabbing him again — this time pressing a quick kiss to his cheek, then another to the corner of his mouth.

“you’re actually the best boyfriend in the world,” you declare, dragging him toward the mini couch without letting go of his hand. you plop down first as he took the seat across from you.

you unpack it eagerly, the spicy aroma filling the space as you dig in, eyes closing around the first bite, “mmm — this is sooo good, chenle,” you moan around the tteokbokki, cheeks puffed adorably. “exactly what i needed.”

the two of you ate in silence while you read through your script. him on his phone. just enjoying each other’s presence.

but then — the sighs start slipping out — dramatic huffs as he stares at his phone between bites. one. two. three. by the fourth, you pause, chopsticks hovering.

“okay, what’s wrong?” you say, looking up from your script after hearing your boyfriend’s fifth sigh.

“what? nothing’s wrong,” he says. a little too quickly.

“chenle. you sighed fived times. what is it? did the warriors lose or something?”

“no, the warriors won,” he mutters, forcing a casual shrug.

you set your script down, crossing your arms as you lean back, one eyebrow arched in that way that always makes his stomach flip — half amused, half ready to dismantle him.

“spill it. is it work? the boys don’t want to play basketball with you again?? or…” your voice trails off, a teasing lilt creeping in as you tilt your head, “something on your feed?”

he winces internally. of course you’d guess. you knew him better than he knew himself. there was no point in keeping it from you.

“it’s nothing, really…just stupid social media crap. people are losing their minds over you and chaemin. the chemistry and all that.”

you snort, “babe, it’s scripted. fake as a green screen explosion. you know that.”

“yeah, i know,” he says, but his voice cracks just enough to betray him. your eyes meet his, and damn it, it’s the same intense gaze from the edits — the one that’s been haunting his scrolls. his chest tightens.

“—but everyone thinks it’s real. the comments, the tiktoks…they’re shipping you with him. and i get it, you’re amazing at what you do. but fuck—,” he sighs, ruffling a hand through his hair, “—it messes with my head. like, why can’t we have that in public? why don’t people ship you with me instead?? and those looks you give him—,”

“chenle, stop.”

you cut him off with a laugh, but inside, a thrill sparks — oh, this is gold.

he swore up and down he never gets jealous, that dating you was easy because he trusted you completely, no matter the role. and now here he is, unraveling over scripted scenes and tiktok edits. and you love it, the way his cool cracks, revealing how much he cares.

you get up, squeezing yourself on his side of the couch.

“there is no ‘him.’ it’s acting — lights, camera, action — then cut…and i’m thinking about what i’m having for dinner with you,” you reassure, voice soft but laced with that teasing edge.

“but…” you continue, your fingers trailing up his thigh, the touch light at first, voice dropping to a husky whisper, “if it’s bothering you that much…maybe i need to remind you what real chemistry looks like.”

your hand presses firmer against his pants, palming him, feeling him stir under your touch, the fabric tenting as his cock begins to harden, thickening against you. slow circles with your fingers coax him further, the heat building as you rub along his length, feeling every inch respond to you — the subtle twitch, the way he shifts his hips just a fraction closer.

he doesn't resist — instead, his hands find your waist, as you lean in. your lips meet in a slow, deep kiss that starts tender, tasting like spice and him. his mouth opens to you, tongues brushing in a lazy dance that deepens quickly, hungry now.

you pour everything into it — the reassurance, the desire — nipping at his lower lip, drawing a low groan from his throat. the kiss turns messy, breaths mingling hot and fast, your free hand tangling in his shirt to pull him impossibly closer while the other keeps palming him, squeezing gently to feel him fully erect, straining against the confines.

the insecurity melts away with each press of your lips, replaced by that raw need you both crave. you break the kiss reluctantly, your forehead resting against his for a beat, eyes locked in that intimate gaze that says more than words.

then, with a wicked smile, you slide off the couch, tugging him toward the edge by his belt loops. he follows your lead, legs parting as you settle on your knees between them, the floor rough against your skin but forgotten in the heat of the moment.

your hands work his zipper open deliberately, the sound sharp in the quiet trailer. you tug his pants and boxers down just enough to free his cock — now fully hard, thick and veined, with a bead of precum at the tip. the cool air makes him throb once, visibly, and you wrap your fingers around the base, stroking with a firm, unhurried grip that makes his breath hitch.

you look up at him through your lashes, that sultry gaze no one else gets to see — raw, hungry, all for him. the dominant edge in your control makes his submissive side surface, his hands hovering before settling on the table, letting you lead.

“only you get to see me like this,” you murmur, your breath hot against his skin as you wrap your finger around the base, stroking slowly, “on my knees, mouth full of you. no cameras. no directors. just us.”

he watches, mesmerized, chest rising and falling quicker as you start with your tongue —a slow, flat lick from base to tip, savoring the salty tang of him.

the physical pull between you tightens, that emotional thread weaving through every sensation — the way his eyes soften even as his body tenses. you swirl your tongue around the head, lapping up the precum before parting your lips and taking him in inch by inch. the wet heat of your mouth surrounds him, velvet soft yet insistent, cheeks hollowing as you suck with deliberate pressure.

you bob your head slowly at first, building the rhythm, feeling him pulse against your tongue — the ridges, the heat, the way he fills you completely. saliva gathers, slicking your movements as you take him deeper, until the tip nudges the back of your throat. a soft hum vibrates from you, sending shivers through him, his fingers threading into your hair.

god, you were a vision. this was better than any of those damn edits.

“fuck, baby,” he gasps, hips bucking up, but you pin him down with your free hand, controlling the pace.

the whine that escapes him is desperate, needy, his cool facade crumbling as you pick up the pace — lips sliding slickly along his shaft, hand twisting at the base with each upward pull. drool escapes the corner of your mouth, trailing down, making everything messier, more real.

you glance up, eyes gleaming with satisfaction at how he’s falling apart, his body trembling under your attention. you don’t let up, hollowing your cheeks deeper, bobbing quicker, trying your best to ingore your gag reflex and the tears that are threatening to spill over.

“gonna cum—fuck—,” he stammers, voice breaking into a high-pitched whine.

you pull off just in time, stroking him fast with your hand, aiming his throbbing cock at your face.

he loses it. hips jerking as ropes of hot cum shoots out, splattering across your cheeks, lips, tongue and chin in thick spurts. you keep pumping, milking every drop until he’s spent, shuddering and panting, his release dripping down your skin in sticky trails.

still on your knees, you hold his gaze, lips parted, eyes glistening. he reaches down, thumb brushing over your cheek to swipe up a streak of his cum, smearing it gently before pressing his fingers to your mouth. you part your lips, tongue darting out to lick it off slowly, sucking his digits clean while locking eyes with him. he watches, breath hitching, as you swirl your tongue around each finger, tasting him fully, the act pulling a low groan from his throat.

yeah, he better be the only one who gets to see you like this or else he’ll end up on the news.

you rise then, climbing onto his lap, doing your best to straddle him in the tight space, your dress hiking up as you settle over his thighs, feeling his cock twitch against you, still half-hard and slick.

your hands frame his face, thumbs tracing his jaw as you lean in close, “i like seeing you jealous,” you whisper, voice laced with mischief, “it’s hot.”

he rolls his eyes but there’s no real denial in it, just a huff escaping as he grips your hips, “i’m not jealous,” he mutters, though the flush on his cheeks says otherwise.

you smirk, grinding down lightly against him, the friction making him shift, “i have to do a kissing scene with chaemin after this,” you tease, watching his reaction sharpen. his eyes darken instantly, jaw tightening, that possessive fire igniting.

“want to make sure he knows how well my boyfriend fucks me?” you continue, messing with him deliberately.

and it’s working — his hands flex on your waist, breath quickening. in one swift motion, he hoists you up, strong arms lifting you effortly as he stands, sitting you on the trailer’s counter.

the jealousy in his eyes has twisted into something feral, possessive, and you’re enjoying every second of it.

his hands slide up your thighs, bunching the fabric of your dress as he steps between your legs, forcing them apart with his hips, his fingers trailing higher while his mouth crashes against yours, lips demanding and fierce. you kiss him back just as hungrily, fingers tangling in his hair, pulling him closer.

his fingers pushes yours panties to the side, parting your folds slowly, teasing the slick entrance and circling your clit in lazy strokes that makes you squirm.

“only i get to touch you like this,” he growls low, voice rough with possesiveness.

“mhm,” you moan into his mouth, “only you,” the sound muffled by the wet slide of your tongues tangling. your hips twitch toward his touch, body arching into his hand.

he smirks into the kiss, his free hand gripping your thigh to hold you steady as he continues to torment, building the ache without giving you what you crave.

it’s not until you’re panting and grinding against him that he finally gives in — thrusting two fingers deep into your pussy, stretching you with each pump, making your hips buck wildly.

“fuck, yes,” you whimper, chasing his mouth. he seals his lips over yours again while his fingers curl inside, hitting that spot he knew too well.

your hips continue to grind down onto his hand, chasing the building wave, but before you can tip over the edge, he pulls his fingers free with a wet pop, leaving you aching and empty.

he doesn’t give you a chance to complain, already moving, scooping you up off the counter, your legs wrapping around his waist instinctively. he carries you the few steps to the larger leather couch, the cool material hitting your back as he lays you down.

he follows immediately, kicking off his pants fully before climbing over you, body caging yours in the cramped space.

the couch creaks under your combined weight, but neither of you cares — you need this. crave it after the week of stolen glances and hurried farewells that left you both hollow.

you’ve missed him just as fiercely as he’s missed you.

“god, i’ve needed this,” he rasps as he slots between your thighs, tugging your panties down and gripping your hip to yank you closer. his cock nudges your entrance and then he slams inside with a guttural grunt, filling your pussy to the hilt in one brutal stroke. you cry out, arching up to meet him, your nails raking down his back in sharp lines that make him hiss.

he starts pounding into you immediately, hips pistoning fast and rough like he’s trying to erase every lingering doubt, every jealous thought from earlier.

the trailer rocks with the force of it, the wet sounds of his cock sliding in and out echoing off the thin walls — sloppy, relentless, your arousal coating him.

“take it baby,” he pants, leaning down to capture your mouth in a messy kiss, teeth clashing, “no one else can fuck you like this.”

you moan into him, legs spreading wider to let him drive deeper, your hands clutching his shoulder, pulling him closer. he angles his hips to hit that sweet spot inside you, the drag of his cock sending jolts of pleasure through your body.

leaning down further, his mouth finds your neck, teeth grazing the sensitive skin, just below your ear. he sucks hard, deliberate, marking you with a deep, blooming hickey that’s visible enough to stake his claim, to let everyone whisper, but subtle enough to hide under makeup and not enough to halt filming. the sting blooms into heat, making you gasp as he licks it over soothingly before biting again, lighter this time, his hips never slowing their grind.

“mine,” he murmurs against your skin, voice rough.

you whimper, tilting your head to give him better access, your fingers threading thorugh his hair to hold him there.

his hands slip the straps of your dress down your shoulders, exposing your breasts to the cool air. they bounce with each powerful thrust, nipples hardening instantly and he dives in without hesitation — lips latching onto one, sucking harshly as his tongue flicks the sensitive bud.

the dual sensation of his cock hammering your pussy and his lips devouring your tits pushes you closer.

“chenle—,” you moan, arching your back to press your breast deeper into his hot suction. your hips buck up to match his rhythm, the friction building that coil in your belly tighter and tighter. moans spill from your lips unchecked, raw and loud, the two of you lost in the frenzy, “—don’t stop,” you pant, legs locking around his waist to pull him deeper, your pussy clenching around his thick length.

you’re so close, teetering on the edge, every nerve alight with the stretch and drag of him inside you. waves of pleasure crest, your breaths coming in sharp gasps, body tensing—

a sharp knock rattles the trailer door. you both freeze. chenle’s cock throbbing deep in your pussy, your walls fluttering around him in frustration.

“hey! we need you on set in five! the last kissing scene with chaemin for the night!” your manager’s voice, muffled but insistent, slicing through the thick air like an unwelcome intruder.

chenle’s head snaps up, his eyes narrowing into dark slits of irritation, jaw clenched so tight you can see the muscle twitch. but he doesn’t pull away — no. he stays right there, buried to the root inside you, his thick cock pulsing against your fluttering walls, refusing to let the moment shatter completely.

the interruption hangs between you, your heart pounding not just from the near-orgasm but from the thrill of almost getting caught, the risk of it all making your skin prickle with heat.

“i-i’ll be out in a minute!” you call back, voice strained and breathy, forcing a steadiness that doesn’t match the way your body trembles beneath him. it comes out higher than intended, laced with the edge of a moan you barely swallow down. your manager grumbles something indistinct — an acknowledgement, maybe a sigh — before her footsteps fade away, leaving the trailer in heavy silence once more.

your chest heaves with ragged breaths, pulse thundering in your ears, the denial of release twisting into a deeper ache that pools low in your belly. you clench around him instinctively, a silent plea, and chenle’s lips curve into that wicked smirk, the possessive glint in his eyes flaring brighter than before.

“a minute?” he murmurs, voice a low rumble against your ear, dripping with challenge, “that’s all i need to remind you who you belong to.”

without another word, he surges forward again, thrusting hard and fast, making every second count — his cock pounding into you with renewed fury. his hips snap against yours, the slap of skin on skin echoing louder now, more desperate, as if he’s racing the clock itself.

the mention of chaemin’s name ignited something feral in him, a fresh blaze of possessive fire that makes his eyes darken to near black. he snarls low in his throat, the jealousy fueling him like gasoline on flames, and his pace turns savage. he fucks you faster, rougher, his hips rutting into you wildly, angling your body just right with a firm hand on your hip, tilting you so your head nearly slips off the edge of the leather couch. the world spins as he hits deeper, the force of his thrusts jolting you with every slam, your neck arching back until dizziness swirls in your skull, pleasure and disorientation blurring into one intoxicating rush.

he growls, one hand sliding between your sweat-slicked bodies, fingers finding your swollen clit and rubbing tight, insistent circles that make your vision blur. the pressure builds instantly, white-hot and overwhelming, your moans turning frantic and unrestrained as he drives you toward the edge you were yanked from moments ago.

“cum on my cock, baby — show me no one else can do this to you.”

his thumb presses harder on your clit, flicking in time with his wild bucks, and you were a goner. you cum — hard — clamping around him with a sharp cry that rips from your throat, thighs trembling uncontrollably, your head spinning wildly from the angle and the intensity, stars exploding behind your eyelids.

the sight — the feel, the way you scream his name — tips him over too. he groans low and guttural, the sound broken and primal, his rhythm faltering as your orgasm squeezes him mercilessly, burying himself to the hilt with one final, deep plunge, cock twitching violently as he cums inside you. hot spurts flood your walls, thick and endless, coating you until you feel utterly claimed, marked from the inside out. he rocks his hips shallowly through it, grinding to push every drop deeper, his breath hot and erratic against your neck.

panting, sweat-slicked and spent, he pulls out slowly, his softening cock slipping free with a wet glide, a thick trail of his cum starting to leak from your swollen folds. but before your pussy can push it out, you slid your hand down between your legs, fingers dipping into the mess as you scooped up the creamy release, pressing it back inside you with a deliberate push, sealing it within you.

chenle watches, transfixed, his eyes hooded and dark, chest still rising and falling heavily. the sight of your fingers working his cum back into you makes his breath hitch again, a fresh twitch stirring in his spent length, already half-hardening at the erotic display.

“shit, baby,” he murmurs, voice rough with lingering hunger, reaching down to trace a finger along your inner thigh, smearing the excess. “you really are mine, aren’t you?”

“of course i am,” you meet his gaze, your hand stilling as you nod, the words spilling out soft but steady, “you’re the only one i think of when i do those scenes,” you murmur, voice soft but steady, locking gazes with him, reassuring him one last time, the words wrapping around his lingering jealousy like a hug.

chenle’s eyes soften as your words sink in, the tension in his shoulders easing like a storm finally breaking. his hand cup your cheek with a tenderness that contrasts the raw intensity from moments ago.

“i know,” he whispers, voice rough from exertion but laced with relief, pressing a gentle kiss to your lips, "i believe you. always have.”

the jealousy that had clawed at him all week fades into the background, replaced by the quiet certainty of your relationship — the one that’s real, unscripted and unbreakable.

he helps you up, steadying you as your legs wobble from the aftershocks, then grabs a paper towel from the nearby sink to wipe away the lingering traces of your passion — gentle swipes over your thighs, your chest, his touch soft now, like he’s memorizing every inch all over again.

“no one else can see you like this,” he teases lightly, but his smile is warm, eyes crinkling at the corners.

you kiss him again before slipping into the tiny bathroom attached to the trailer, brushing your teeth — chaemin doesn’t need to know how your boyfriend tasted.

he watches you with a fond gaze, and when you finish, he steps in close, hands finding your waist from behind, chin resting on your shoulder as you both stare into the mirror. his lips brushing your neck in feather-light kisses, savoring the moment.

“you look perfect,” he murmurs against your skin.

dressed and composed, you steal one last moment, leaning into his arms, enjoying the quiet, before your manager’s knock echoes again, more insistent this time.

chenle walks you to the door, his hand in yours, squeezing reassuringly, “go kill it out there,” he says, but there’s a spark in his eye, a newfound resolve, “…i think im gonna watch, if that’s okay with you?”

you nod, surprised but warmed by the shift and he follows you out, slipping into the bustling set like a shadow at your side.

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the crew buzzes around, lights glaring and cameras positioned. he stays at the back, finding a spot just off to the side — close enough to watch, far enough not to disrupt. his presence feels like an anchor, steady and supportive, as you step into the scene with chaemin.

the director calls action and it unfolds — the scripted buildup, the charged glances, the slow lean-in that culminates the kiss. chenle’s gaze locks on you, arms crossed over his chest, jaw set in quiet observation. he watches chaemin’s hand cup your face like it was a choreography, the press of lips that was all timing and angle, no heat, no hunger, just actor’s hitting their marks. it was polished, sure, the kind of illusion that fools cameras and fans alike, but up close? he sees it for what it is — movie magic. no spark, no pull.

he still hates it though. that gnawing twist in his chest at seeing another guy’s face so near yours, even if it’s fake. the possessiveness flares just enough to remind him why he showed up today.

but as the director yells “cut!” and you pull back from chaemin with professional ease, wiping your lips subtly on the back of your hand — it doesn’t go unnoticed by him either.

the set erupts in the usual post scene chatter —crew adjusting lights, the script supervisor calling notes, chaemin cracking a joke to lighten the mood that draws polite laughs but nothing more. you glance over at him, eyes finding his across the chaos and there’s that shared secret in your gaze, the one that says this is all surface-level.

and he gets it. really gets it. the difference is night and day. your kisses with him are messy, desperate grabs in stolen moments, tongues tangling like you can’t get enough, breaths ragged and bodies pressing close because you want to, not because you have to.

this? this is work. a job. and you’re damn good at it, which only makes him prouder, even if he’d rather punch a wall than admit how much cool he lost earlier.

the scene wraps not long after, the director calling it a day. you slip away from the group without a second glance, heading straight toward chenle. his eyes light up as you approach, that boyish grin breaking through.

“i was thinking,” you murmur, sliding your arms around his waist as you reach him, head tilting back to look up at him.

“hmm?” he hums back, wrapping his arms around your shoulders, holding you close.

“can you make ramen for dinner tonight?” your voice is soft, a pout on your lips that he found utterly adorable.

his heart does a little flip — that whole time in front of the cameras, acting like you’re in love with someone else and all you were thinking about is dinner…with him. exactly like you told him earlier.

“sure, baby,” he replies, voice warm and steady, leaning down to press quick kiss to your temple.

you smile against his chest.

“and can we get ice cream on the way home?” you add, meeting his eyes, a playgul glint there.

he lets out a quiet laugh, shaking his head like you’re unbelievable.

“anything you want,” he says without hesitation, his grin deepening as he tucks you closer, the two of you turning toward the exit together.

the set lights dim behind you, the noise fading, the world shrinking down to the warmth of him.

you lean into his shoulder. he presses a soft kiss into your hair.

dinner. ice cream. the quiet ride home.

chenle is nonchalant about a lot of things — schedules, cameras, rumors, the chaos of it all. he carries it lightly, like nothing really shakes him.

but he can never be nonchalant about you.

it’s actually impossible. because when it comes to you, his heart gives him away every single time. and he just loves you far too much to ever pretend otherwise.

every so often, one of you would speak up — a random thought, a bit of gossip, a funny tiktok. whether it's gossip or nonsense, it didn't matter. you’d talk for a few minutes, laugh, then fall back into silence, still tethered by the soft hum of the t.v.

it slipped out carelessly, something that probably shouldn’t be said this early on in a relationship, you didn’t even register it yourself until he asked you again.

“wait…what did you say?” he says with eyes wide, his full attention directed at you now, phone tossed on his nightstand.

“huh?” you blinked, confused “i said this house looks nice?” you frowned, thinking about the house you saw a couple scrolls ago.

“no…what did you say after that?”

“i—?” you started, but then it hit you. the words replayed in your mind, and a slow heat crept up your neck.

he smirked, recognizing the realization dawning on your face, “say it, baby,” he coaxed, reaching over to gently pry your phone from your hands and toss it next to his, “c’mon. what’d you say?”

you exhaled through your nose, staring down at the blanket, “i said…” a pause, “—a basketball hoop wouldn’t be so bad,” you muttered, biting back a shy smile.

his brows lifted slightly, the teasing already forming at the corner of his mouth, “and after that?”

“chenleee,” you whined softly, hiding your face behind your hands.

he chuckled, tugging them down gently, “baby, pleaseee,” he said, voice dipping lower, smoother now, “i just wanna hear it again. what would we need the basketball hoop for?”

your eyes darted to his, warm and playful, but with something tender underneath. your voice came out a whisper, “you could teach our kids.”

something in him broke open right then. his hand found your jaw, his thumb brushing your cheek as he leaned in, kissing you — slow at first, then deeper, like he was trying to memorize the taste of the moment.

“fuck,” he breathed against your lips, forehead still pressed to yours, “you want to have my kids, baby?”

the question lingered in the quiet, heavier than either of you expected. his eyes searched yours, that usual teasing glint softening into something vulnerable.

your throat felt tight. you tried to laugh it off, but it came out small, breathy. “i—” you started, then stopped, your heart doing that stuttery thing it always did when he looked at you like that.

“yeah?” he whispered, thumb brushing slow over your bottom lip, “talk to me.”

you swallowed, cheeks warm, eyes darting down to where your fingers were gripping the blanket between you. then, barely above a whisper —

“i want anything that has to do with you.”

he froze. his hand, his breath, even the teasing curve of his mouth — all of it stilled. for a second, he just stared at you, like the air had been knocked right out of him, his heart completely melting in your hands.

then he laughed quietly, that disbelieving, heart-twisted kind of laugh, and leaned in until your foreheads touched again, “who do you think our kids would most be like, then?”

you giggled, the sudden shift easing the weight between you, “hmm, hopefully me…can’t have them all loud and dramatic like their dad.”

“loud? dramatic?” he gasped, pretending to be offended, “you mean fun and charismatic.”

“no,” you teased, poking his chest, “i mean dramatic.”

he caught your hand mid-poke and pressed a kiss to your knuckles, eyes never leaving yours, “then i hope they have your eyes,” he said softly, tone shifting again — quieter, gentler.

“mine? why?”

“because they’re your eyes.”

a soft smile tugged on your lips, overwhelmed by the warmth that bloomed in your chest.

he wasn’t finished. his voice dipped even lower, rough around the edges now, “and if they have your smile,” he murmured, brushing his thumb against your lips, “then i’m done for.”

your heart squeezed so tight it almost hurt. you didn’t answer with words after that. you just leaned forward and kissed him — soft at first, slow enough to savor. his hand came up to cradle your face, thumb brushing your cheek as he deepened the kiss. you melted into it, hands fisting in his shirt, breaths mingling in short, needy bursts.

he shifted, rolling you beneath him, his body pressing down, solid, warm, trapping you in the best way.

one hand slid under your shirt, fingers splaying across your bare stomach, tracing lazy circles there that made your skin prickle, “imagine it,” he whispered, voice dropping to that low, intimate timbre, “me filling you up, over and over. your belly swelling with our kid. you’d look so goddamn beautiful, carrying what’s mine.”

your body responds quickly, arching up, chasing the heat of his palm, his words.

“you like that, don’t you, baby?”

“chenle—please”

he took the invitation, tugging on your pajama shorts, you lifted your hips to help him shove them off, kicking them away as he hooked his fingers in your panties, pulling those down too.

the cool air hit your exposed pussy, but his gaze burned hotter, eyes darkening as he took you in — legs spread, slick already gathering between your folds.

“does that get you wet? thinking of me filling you up?”

“yes,” you admit. there’s no point in denying what he could clearly see.

he didn’t waste any more time, shedding his own boxers in quick, efficient moves, cock springing free, hard and thick, tip already leaking. he pumped himself up before slapping his cock against your pussy, making your hips buck up involuntarily.

“tell me what you want, baby”

“want you, chenle”

“hmm,” he smirks, “not good enough,” he teases, sliding his cock between your folds, collecting your slick.

“please lele—want you to fill me up, want to carry your baby—”

he groaned at the words. he knew you were on the pill but it didn’t stop the fantasy from spilling out, turning the air between you electric.

finally, he pushed in, slow, inch by inch, stretching you around his thickness. you both groaned at the fullness, your walls fluttering as he bottomed out, hips flush against yours. he stilled for a moment, forehead pressed to yours, breathing ragged.

then he started moving, pulling out almost all the way before thrusting back in, deep and deliberate. each snap of his hips ground his pelvis against your clit, igniting the fire in your belly.

“gonna pump you full,” he growled, pace quickening, skin slapping against skin, “watch you take every drop. practice for when we make it real.”

the words sent a thrill through you, making every thrust feel more possessive, more raw.

he buried himself deep, grinding in circles, his breath hot on your ear, “you’d be such a good mom, baby. our kids—loud like me, but with your fire. i’d fuck you every night, keep you bred, keep you mine.”

you moaned, the image vivid, your body responding with a fresh gush of wetness, clenching impossibly tight around him. his thrusts grew erratic, harder, chasing release as he sucked bruises onto your shoulder, your neck.

“come with me,” he demanded, one hand slipping between you to rub tight circles on your clit, “milk my cock—take it all.”

the pressure built fast, coiling tight, and you before you know it, you broke, pleasure taking over as your pussy spasms around him, pulling him under.

he groaned loud, hips stuttering as he came with you, cock pulsing deep inside, “that’s it baby, keep it all there, gonna get you pregnant,” he grunted, flooding you with hot spurts of cum. he didn’t pull out, just rocked through it, grinding to push every bit as far as it could go.

eventually he collapsed beside you, pulling you in your arms as he held you close.

when he finally spoke, it was barely above a whisper, “i can really see it,” he said. “you and me, the house with the basketball hoop…and a little one who smiles just like you.”

you felt your chest tighten, in the best way, “and laughs like you,” you murmured, brushing your fingers through his hair.