Thoughts At 3 a.m.

Suddenly I don't want anyone to know me as deeply anymore, which is weird because I have always yearned for someone to understand my soul

i don't want to heal i want them pay for what they did

we are so back (relapsing)

I think bashing my head against a wall will fix me.

i just wanna stay in bed forever. sleeping feels easier than being awake

Some people only apologize to restore access, not to repair harm.

I just wanna sit on a rooftop with someone at 2am and just look at the night sky, not worrying about anything going on in life.

All I wanted is for you to stay, am i that hard to love and hold on to?

Never gonna do it, but I’ll always be thinking about it…

I am angry that I can’t make myself quieter. I am angry that I need constant proof that I’m not alone. I am angry that the smallest thing can ruin my whole day. I am angry and I am exhausted of apologizing for that anger.