Also a decade later she went on to invent apocalypse fiction with The Last Man, a much weirder sci-fi set in a 21st century dystopia devastated by a plague

meeting someone who understands you so perfectly, who is so easy to be around is kind of a blessing and a curse because it awakens you to who you are what you need from others. and then you have to go the rest of your life looking for it and feeling it’s absence when you can’t be physically together anymore

Good morning, you have to be the thing that saves you

I ASKED GOD FOR A SAVIOUR AND HE SAID LOOK AT YOUR HANDS

me, wrapping my arms around myself: i know it’s scary. i know. just keep being brave for a little while longer. i’m here with you.

Do we have a franz kafka diary entry for july 1st, i want to know what he thinks!!!

“jesus died for you” well i didn’t ask him to do that and my therapist says i am not responsible for other peoples actions

Focusing on what’s rooted in reality has reduced so much of my overthinking time. If a friend is already out of my life, there’s no point dissecting our interactions from back when we were friends. If I already broke up w someone, there’s no point thinking about the could-have-beens because they will never happen. If I’m into someone but it wouldn’t work for whatever reason, then it just doesn’t. Something just is or just isn’t. There’s a lesson to take from everything but I also don’t want to use that as a catch-all excuse of getting into the weeds for something when the weeds have already been cut off and it doesn’t even matter anymore

“But what if I did x differently—” but you didn’t “but what if that one thing was different” but it isn’t “but what if y suddenly changes” if it hasn’t for long enough that it has become a problem, then it won’t. The worst we can do for ourselves. Like the actual single worst thing. Is to live in hypotheticals of situations we can never change. And I understand being attached to a concept but it doesn't matter. If something’s gone it just is. If something can’t work out it just can’t. That’s okay

bell hooks mentioned going through a time in her life where she was severely depressed and suicidal and how the only way she got through it was through changing her environment: She surrounded her home with buddhas of all colors, Audre Lorde’s A Litany for Survival facing her as she wakes up, and filling the space she saw everyday with reinforcing objects and meaningful books. She asks herself each day, “What are you going to do today to resist domination?” I also really liked it when she said that in order to move from pain to power, it is crucial to engage in “an active rewriting of our lives.”